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Does it do any good to play mind games with yourself? The old "I'm making progress instead of things getting worse" bit? I've never had clinical depression, so I don't know how to help you. I'm always available for a , though, when you need one.

And she'll be a lot closer in a few days. Whaddya think, Ti, can you make it to Nodnol for Hypatia to give ya a ~real~ hug, rather than a virtual one.

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Oh, I'll definitely be coming to London. I've booked a flight, and hotel room, and taken time off from my work - couldn't let all that go to waste, could I? Besides, I'm looking forward to meeting everyone too much - wouldn't miss it for the ...

Take piccies and share 'em when you get back. It'd be good to see the gang at their finest. Tell 'em...SMILE!


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I don't do anger well. But - how about being angry at people who abuse their power - in small or big ways. There is always someone around. From a sadistic teacher from the old school days to a cold blooded politician. From the Swedish traficker (sp?) to the people who instigate torture. From the wife beater to the companies which withhold essential medicine from poor people in Africa.

Titania. Have a fantastic trip to London and say hello from me.

I find that for me, the best way to cope with that sort of anger is to release it physically in some way.
That might be bashing a pillow with both fists, whilst turning the air blue with my full and extensive vocabulary of swearie words - or it might be furious digging in the garden - or a hard session at the gym.

dig the garden. i never met a depressed gardener

I don't have a garden...


*starts running around in little circles, hyperventilating*

Less than 24 hours 'til departure! I've already checked in online, got a boarding pass, located my passport, checked out train connections betweeen London and Library of Doom, will need to buy more nose spray for my allergy, mustn't forget to bring all my pills, paid my bills (again), must remember to water flowers before I leave home tomorrow morning, finally got a much needed haircut - and perm, have checked out timetable for bus -> commuter train --> airport train tomorrow (will leave home at 7am), will change some money after w*rk today, downloaded all addresses, travel advices and times for the London venues onto my Palm, laundred all my clothes last weekend in order to have at least something clean to wear in London... now - I wonder where I put that very good London map after my last visit there (the 'meet Hyp meet up')?

Hopefully you are not travelling by S*S on strike

I really envy you the visit to the Library of Doom - and to be among the first few to know what this horrendous bookmark, the Singing Librarian will tell you all about, before he reveals it on-line.

Take care and be sure to each and everybody.

And BREATHE! Girl, I get stressed out by reading that, and I'm not even going!!!



You will be fine.

*waves* And agrees with both tartaronne & Milla!

as do i

Well, the meet weekend was lovely and did me good - wandering at leisure for several hours in bright sunshine and beautiful Kew Gardens, meeting more friends in the pub in the evening, and lots of hugs...

...but drinking alcohol meant that I didn't dare to take my sleeping pill, so I hardly slept at all that night...

And then it was cloudy, windy and only +7ºC when I returned to Stockholm...

My sleep pattern is still seriously messed up, and I'm more or less covered in bruises (side effect of anti-depression meds).

Oh, how I'm longing for the day when I can just go to sleep and *stay* asleep without pills.

At w*rk, we have an extremely narrow time limit to make a new year closure per 30 April for our new owner, and that seems to have made everyone slightly panicky and completely unable to think for themselves. The number of stupid questions I've recieved today has reached an all-time high...

Today I had my very first session with a psychotherapist, as advised by my . I was curious but also a tiny bit nervous.

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy - I don't think I've ever cried so much ever before - I cried rivers! And looked absolutely horrible afterwards, of course, so I spent quite some time splashing my face with cold water (must remember to bring make-up next time).

But, as my said, maybe I *need* to cry. I think I've been bottling up too many things when instead I should have taken time to be sad, or grieve, or cry.

*sighs*

Oh well - if today's session was anything to go buy, I'll have a whole lot of to catch up with, and that's probably how I'll spend most of the session time...

*wonders if she could get the crying done at home, and how much crying it would take to get rid of the built up need*

It's hard work but it is worth it in the end

* hands Titania a box of very soft tissues.

I'm glad you found it therapeutic - and hope you feel the better for it.

The relief to be allowed to cry until you're done, at someone who feels no guilt... To be allowed to think about sad things, and be sad about them. And then, in the end, it feels OK to let go.

Go for it. It sounds like the right thing!

(I had some sessions too, for a while, it was good)

It's better that you had a proper reaction to it than came out feeling like it's not reaching you at all.

So I agree: it sound like the right thing to be doing.

Milla, thank you for a very accurate description!

At the time, I found it slightly irritating that my therapist went silent while I cried - I felt like I needed some distraction! I even told her to go on talking once - but only once since that was all I managed to get in between my attacks...

But afterwards, looking back at it, that wish for distraction was probably just a wish to 'not having to deal with it'.

- she was very good at pushing my buttons, she was... seemingly innocent comments just hit me sooooo bad...