h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

"Try as hard as we may for perfection, the net result of our labors is an amazing variety of imperfectness. We are surprised at our own versatility in being able to fail in so many different ways."
-Samuel McChord Crothers

Currently listening to: Eastenders on the TV. How utterly depressing is this programme? BUT I can't be depressed.. y'know why?

Because she's back! Oh yeah, Tilly's back.. back again *grabs Tilly and dances around the room in a demented fashion* Glad ta see ya again old buddy old pal! Hows the insanity keeping?
Well Not much happening over here. I bought some books, attacked a stuffed rabbit, got punched in the face, kicked someone in the leg, sent a suicide note to a friend, bought loads of cally things, am now broke and I also got my second hole peirced in my ear.
In summary: I missed you soo much Never ever leave me again... I'll itty mad I tells ya! Full blown madness! I've made a complete shoot outta myself these past few days, everything I said I've done... I actually did!

Hey, glad you're settling in! Sounds great. All that talk of re-decorating has gone me really aching to redo my own room. The walls currently look like someone had painted them with vomit (Heck, I was five years old and I liked the colour then) and the carpet needs a total scrap... it's a hideous shade of blue. Nasty

I'm totally fagged out As I've been really ill over the past few days, I've had a lot of trouble sleeping anyway, so I'm exhausted. I haven't zasnooted in two days! Quite zammechat really, I've never gone that long without sleeping..
So if you'll exscuse me I need a little kip
Ta,
-Nate

Ps. REALLY glad to have you back

Currently listening to: Some scandalous Norwegian talkshow on the telly. They say the host gets several murderthreats a week, but personally I think he's too dull to mind...

*Lets herself go in the demented dance around the room* Well, it seems like you've had a fun week - punched in the face? Sounds like you were in a fight or somethin'? Or is that just some sort of gang greeting where you live? Ooh, second piercing in the ear, eh? Did you do it professionally or the whole "icecube-needle-lotsandlotso'blood"routine? Well, I only took one whole per ear in a salon when I was six, but it hurt so bad (I have a pretty low treshold of pain ) I've never dared to do it again. It's cool with several in the ears, but I don't care much about piercings elsewhere Right now it's all the rage to have nosepiercings, but I think most of them only achieves looking like a wart or something of the sort... But oh well.

Well, you're not the only one with nasty walls - the reason I'm trying to cover mine with posters is because my room used to be an adult bedroom, and that's exactly what the dark floral pattern expresses. I want it to express sometyhing like "TILLY'S ROOM", but now it only says "Shush, grandpa is taking a nap" My mother has promised me I'll get to repaint it sometime, and I'm thinking maybe pastell...

Hooboy, I'm finally finished with my school application! The deadline was set on Saturday, so I'm not too late, thank Bog. For the following three years I've requested the school Tine is enrolled in (although by the time I start she won't go there anymore), and my first-choice class direction is Media and Communication. I send in the application on Saturday and they get back to me in August to tell me if I'm in It should be nervewrecking, if my sister speaks truely. That's why many students refer to the period as the "Hell Holiday". I'm planning to play it cool though - even if the worst should happen, and I can't get into the class I've requested, I should have good enough grades to get into my second choice, General Education.

How much sense am I making? I don't know, I've worked on that application for weeks, and right now I just want to forget everything that is school and pressure. *Opens picnic basket* Oooh, this bananas look nice and fresh

Good, you go and get some spatcha, and I think I'm going to go soon too It's so awfully tireing to just rest all day during our winter holiday Oh, and both Tine and I have come down with some nausea, so we aren't feeling particulary perky either...

Toodles!

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try."
-Beverly Sills

Currently listening to: The song from the movie 'Jackass'.. ok, I wasn't going to say anything.. but, I've grown rather fond of Jackass. Oh the shame.. the shame of it all I know! I know!

Yup! *looks proud* I've had a drat or two.. y'know.. been involved in the odd bitva while you were away.. Me and one of my best friends were in Drama and she was chanting something about me, ahem, and a certain English teacher.. so I kicked her in the leg, she then leaped up and punched me on the nose, I then punched her in the stomach, she then elbowed me in the ribs, I then punched her in the face.. We then stopped.. looked at each other and burst out laughing.. It was really funny. Painful but funny.
Our teacher then came in and said "Ok, girls.. the next scene we're going to be acting out contains extreme violence.." and we burst out laughing again.. Very odd I know

The ear peircing was done properly, and not by a drunk friend with an ice cube and thumb tack. I know I have this new rebel image, but I'm not THAT brave
"Right now it's all the rage to have nosepiercings, but I think most of them only achieves looking like a wart"
Exactly! Nobody agrees with me about that! It's become really popular over here again too. I think it looks terrible with a stud, I suppose you could get away with a hoop or something but a stud just looks dreadful.

Finally! It's over! Our Citizenship project is over We had to organise a charity event and we did. Apparently we have all got A*'s because so many people turned up (there was a massive line to get in that went outside it was so big) and I'm not going to fail after all.. so I say drinks are in order!

Well I'd better get on with this Citizenship essay It's not going to write itself (sadly )
ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: Myself whistling Norwegian Wood "...And I said I didn't and crawled off to sleep in the bath..."

Aw, it's okay - I often find myself watching 'Jackass' too - I think it's just to have the right to say "Ugh, what idiots!" and laugh out at all the stupidity It's slapstick humour gone over board... Some guys in my class (not the sharpest crayons in the box) actually offered me to film them doing 'Jackass'-inspired stunts, but I declined - and they never even dared

Hmm - nothing exciting ever happens in my class - chickfights, that would be something new. All that ever happens in my class is girls telling eachother gossip and boys always getting worked up over nothing, agree on a fight and then nothing happens. The last exciting thing that happened must have been when Kris smoked a cigarette outside the teachers' room.

I still can't stop laughing after last episode of New on News It was going to be mostly about dieting, but Knut Nærum had been in an accident and showed up wearing an eyepatch, and I think I counted 11 pirate-jokes being sent his way. In the end the host broke down laughing and it took 2 whole minutes before he got serious enough to go on Ah, I love when unexpected things happens...

Yesterday I had to stand two hours at the nearby mall to sell lottery tickets to get money for our upcoming Poland classtrip. How I hate it We had bad gifts, and people on malls are so nasty and rude. There was one guy though, who became the highlight of the whole week - he was old and very friendly, stopping up to chat with me about anything. He first thought I was a teacher and then complimated me for looking so mature. I then told him we we're going to search for remains of WWII, and then he told me really moving story about when he was five years old and he befirended a German soldier... He really made my day, and I was so happy he actually won a prize for the two tickets he had bought Makes me wish I had a grandfather like that.

Of course I got pissed again when I had done my lottery shift (mostly alone) and no one came to replace me I mean three persons are meant to be on each shift, and I knew exactly who were going to replace me, but they didn't show up. So what could I do? I was going to babysit for Maja and was allready late for that, but after half an hour I was replaced by Maria, who actually wasn't on a shift today, but was kind enough to fill in. I then observed one of the guys who WAS going to take over for me, sitting in the cafè. I would have given him an earful if it wasn't so that I was too tired, too late and had done the exact thing myself last time

Well, here's to your good grades - Congratulations! Myself, I'll see if my project on Nazism is giving me a good placement in the Society class

Well, better go now and help Tine unpack her last bits in her room
Toodles!

"Remember that there is nothing stable in human affairs; therefore avoid undue elation in prosperity, or undue depression in adversity."
-Socrates

Currently listening to: Some peice of pop inspired madness on the teevee.

*sigh* I don't suppose you heard? *sob* About Anthony? My dearest sweetheart... my darling. Why? Why? Why? 19 years Tilly! 19 years! *wail* My sweet darling bastard... how could he stab me in the back like that... I thought he loved me! I was his number one fan! I loved the man goddamn it!

I must move on, get on with my life... *sniffle* Yes, my tiring and pointless life. Suddenly I don't feel like it's such a big thing to get on with... Sadly I'm depressed again. And this time it's serious. I've been feeling pretty low recently and it just doesn't seem to be getting any better.

"There was one guy though, who became the highlight of the whole week - he was old and very friendly, stopping up to chat with me about anything."
It's people like that which really make you feel good isn't it Poor guy sounded very lonely, nice of you to talk to him. Knowing most people today they would probably just smile and ignore him. Goes to show, if you talk to people you find out the most interesting things. Par example, I found out from my English teacher several interesting facts. Here are two to interest you:
A whales penis is 12 feet long
There's a part of psychology that is about the way in which people choose to kill themselves. Womens attempts use knives which are found in the kitchen..

I might be going to Reading festival with a friend BUT it doesn't seem likely. We have to find a responsible adult to take us.. and I don't know a single one
ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: "Fixing a hole" from the Sgt. Pepper's album...

Yes, I saw a notice about Sir Anthony in the paper. Made me instantly wonder how you would take it, actually There, there, it seems like we're both getting experience in losing men - first the Prof. gets a Señorita to take care of, and now Anthony gets a spouse. Well, comfort youreslf with the wonder of so-called poster-crushes - you didn't actually have a relationship, so nothing is lost Okay, I can see how that's a lousy excuse, but it's the only thing I can think of...

I'm getting a bit depressed too - I think it's mostly because we got tons of more snow yesterday - and otherwise I don't see any point in getting on with things. Everything seems pointless Plus my mother is going away for the weekend, so Truls is going to be here. I'm not sure if he's the kind of person I need around right now...

Well...
"I got to admit it's getting better
A little better all the time (It can get no worse)
I got to admit it's getting better
A little better since you've been mine..."
Music sometimes helps on my depressions though...

"A whales penis is 12 feet long"
Finally I've found an answer It's a question one often asks oneself, you know "Hmm, that makes me wonder how long a whale's penis is." With the likes of Keiko running (er, swimming) about you can never be to certain enough

You know, they're finishing this year's year book and though I admit that the text about me is indiscrabably boring ("Tilde is a nice girl who likes English and can play the trumpet...") I'm quite proud of the quote they've put up as my "most frequently spoken": "42!"

Well, I'll be home alone ("Aaah!") for this whole day, so I better start planning some kind of junk food-dinner for myself
Toodles!

P.S.: If you're bored and need a fun webside to check out, I can recommend http://www.metalandmagic.com - the Gothbat comic cheered me up, at least

"Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself."
-Henry Miller

Currently listening to: an episode of Bremner, Bird and Fortune I taped some time ago. Not the best episode, it's a spoof of 24. Bush, Blair and so forth are being ritually humiliated.. excellent
It is, in fact, so dull I'd rather listen to some music. So if you'll exscuse me a minute.... ok, back. Much better The Cooper Temple Clause 'Murder Song'

"as he sits on the moor
with his new found friend
who had shown him the way
to bow out at the end
with a dignity only
a murder can bring
with sweet violation
that versatile thing "

*sigh* Yes, not feeling any better today. As you can probably tell by my choice of music... I don't see any point in doing anything today. I can just about bring myself to sit up and not fall face first onto the keyboard. Not only am I very tired but I'm exasperated at my desperate attempts to find Less Than Jake concert tickets
Christ! They're like gold dust! I can't find any venues which will let me and my friend in, after all we're under 16 so they're not too keen. Y'know... neither of us has had a rant in a while. Let me do the honors...

~~~~~RANT OF THE DAY~~~~~
~~Subject: Concerts~~
Why are bands so hard pushed for concerts? I can't find a single band that I like which are touring. Rammstein, The Cooper Temple Clause and Muse are my main concerns but as Muse are in Cornwall or wherever, putting their new album together for the Autumn and Rammstein are, well, no idea what they're doing, but obviously something as they aren't on tour. It's making it very hard to get an inkling of when they might be on tour.
The Cooper Temple Clause are doing very well for themselves, but a small problem which I've encountered is that they don't seem to like younger listeners So it's impossible to get tickets for them, without having to drag my father along, oh yeah, he'd love that *dry laugh* There goes my sardonic sense of humour again.
I've managed to secure tickets to a Coldplay concert, thanks to my friend Lucy, so returning the kindness I'm trying to get her tickets to see her favourite band 'Less Than Jake' which seems to be extremely hard, even if you do it online.
I have found two concerts which are in London BUT they are either 'No under 18's' or 'Under 16's Must be Accompanied by an Adult'.... neither of which are appealing
Why is it that the younger music fans are persecuted, when it's a well known fact that we're the age group that has the most money to spend. Surely they want to make money, non? Or am I totally behind in the times. That music companies no longer want to make music but give older teens exclusive rights to concerts. Surely it's not because they're concerned about our safety.
I suppose I'll have to wait until one of the vast numbers of online fanzines e-mail me, rejoycing in the fact that Till Lindemann has an idea for a new song, which probably won't be recorded, but we'll waste your hotmail space with these trivial little details anyway, even though we know you only signed up for tour details.

Hey, nice quote. I envy you, over here we don't get year books, we don't get proms, we don't get anything that seems to have made it's way to you guys from America. Schools over here are pretty dire

Ah well, you'll reach a peak in the depression soon. In the meantime, hide all the sharp objects in the house, lock yourself away in your bedroom with a copy of The Bell Jar and a bottle of water, turn up the music and stay in there until you feel better. That's what I do.. and look how I turned out

ta,
-Nate


ps. if you can stop strangling Truls long enough tell him I say hi.

Currently listening to: Myself humming the tune from 'Nocturne', I just think it fits the moment

A really spectacular thing just happened: You see, here in the study (where the beloved computer is) there is a panorama window covering one entire wall, and it gives a pleasant view into the forest on our estate (only it's filled with junk from the previous owner ) I was playing a computer game when I turned to the window, and I remarked, "Oh no, I can't believe the previous owners had one of those plastic baby deer-sculptures in the garden! Funny I haven't noticed it before..." When suddenly said baby-deer (not exactly baby - it was a young one, the equalent of teenager ) cocked its head and looked back at me. Have you experienced a plastic figure looking back at you before? Neither have I, and I realized it was a real life deer, standing only a few yards away from me! In my own backyard, for Christ's sake! I've never seen one so close before! It was just so harmonic and touching, and it wasn't even afraid when I fell out of my chair It was just so ironic too, because I was in the middle of playing 'Neverwinter: The Carnage' - I think someone was trying to tell me something...

Turned out I had a fun time with Truls after all yesterday - we went looking for CDs, played billiards and watched 'Gladiator' in his apartment. I had to look for backing-music, since I'm forced to compete in the school's upcoming annual talent competition. Okay, not exactly "forced", but a lot of people will get mad if I don't sing and strut my stuff. I like performing, only I haven't found a good song yet - Bog knows I can't sing 'Big Spender' yet another time - even I got my limits I can't say what song it'll be yet since I honestly don't know, but 'Lady Madonna' seems like a probable choice...

There aren't any mentionable concerts here neither at the time. Truls was recently on a Farmer's Market concert, but it appeared that half the concert was filled by the accordion-playing "Polka-king from Finland" I had to laugh when he told me that. But anyway, international stars never consider Norway You never hear the awardwinning singer go "Hey, let's drop the American tour and head for Norway! Who cares if they've only got two really big concert venues..." So we're left with our own musicians (Have you heard Kaizers Orchestra? They're quite cool) and Tom Jones

Well, my depression seems to be clearing up though - now I got 'Nerewinter' and a deer encounter of a close kind (that almost sounds dirty ) I still don't feel like studying for tomorrow's chemistry test though (Carbogydrates Schmarbohydrates ) But I don't think I will EVER feel like studying for chemistry.

And so she goes forth and continues playing the carnaging game

Toodles!

"I have decided that suicide is completely out of the question. I refuse to end the suffering of others... No, I must contemplate homicide and end the suffering of one... me."
-Anonymous

Currently listening to: Pink Floyd "Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time, plans that either come to naught or a half page of scribbled lines, hanging on in a quiet desperation is the English way, the time is gone the song is over, thought i'd something more to say..."

*sigh* I'm feeling low again. One could go so far as to say depressed. Yup, so whats new. God, there's nothing to do... nothing to say... I'm too tired to attempt anything which could be seen as humour. Sheesh, nothing seems important any more.

If I were a sensitive and caring young girl I would have cooed at the romantic image of an innocent candy eyed doe, but as I'm not a very sweet and caring child (I blame the Tv generation) Sweet as it sounds, I was shocked to discover that your heart warming tale did nothing but ignite a flicker of sentiment. Could it be that I'm loosing all feeling in my heart? Now that is worrying.

Well as I'm an insomniac I had better go and do something which will provide me with entertainment for the next 10 hours until it's time for school. And doesn't involve the computer as I have just been kicked off... c'est la vie.
Ta,

-Nate

Currently listening to: 'Down let me down' with four Liverpudlian guys... This is text I can relate to; "Don't let me down... Don't let me down... Oh, don't let me down..."

Well, the conspiracy of keeping Tilde in a miserable mood is getting more advanced I woke up today, the sun was shining, the smell of spring was in the air, I got money to buy some books for, and just as I was hurrying down the street to get to school, I slipped on some ice and first probably broke off my tailbone and scraped up my hands on the gravel that was placed there to make it securely non-slippery. I had to go back home, clean the bleeding sores and use half a box of bandaids Then I got late for school, and I couldn't even complain about my bleeding, because a guy in class had broken his hand... They won't even let me have the satisfaction of wallowing in self-pity! I'm feeling better now though, because SPRING is here! The demonic ice had already melted when I came back, but I think the neighbours got a little worried when they saw me laughing maniacally, pointing to the ground and yelling "Hah! Take that!! Water to water, I say!"

"Could it be that I'm loosing all feeling in my heart?"
Nah, my guess it've just taken some freetime Wouldn't you get sick of doing the exact same job each day for 15 years? Some offtime is required, I say, and in the meantime you better be satisfied with your clockwork replacement..! It starts to gradually slow down after a couple of weeks, but your regularly-employed heart should be back by then I reckon...

What am I driveling about? No idea, but I kinda like it...

Maybe you need a new hobby of some sort - my mother is currently trying to convince me to go to a Silva-course (helps the self-confidence, stress and such) but I made an ultimatum I'll probably start with buddhist-meditation instead She's so concerned with my relaxation I get all worked up... He he he - get it?

Well, I better make myself some sort of dinner and continue with studying for tomorrow's religion exam Hope your mood clears up soon

Toodles!

"A fool's brain digests philosophy into folly, science into superstition, and art into pedantry. Hence University education."
-George Bernard Shaw

Currently listening to: a copy of the soundtrack to Baz Lurhmans 'Romeo and Juliet'... heck, I didn't buy the CD! I just copied it for the good songs... The best part of the film was Tybalt and the music. Sadly the lovely classical part wasn't included in the soundtrack, maybe they thought it wouldn't appeal to the youngsters eh? Funny, all the people I know in my age group seemed to like that song the most.

A hobby? Hmm, I was actually toying with the idea of having lessons in self defence. Or maybe taking up boxing, I'd enjoy that, great stress reliever. But I put it aside. It's GCSE year and I'm swamped with work, in fact I've just spent 4 hours solid, working on my English. I guess it's for the best that I didn't take up boxing. It wouldn't do others much good if I started getting even handier with the rookers! I must admit, it's starting to get embarassing when my friend can lay me one on the morder and get away with it. *sigh* Maybe I should just take up knitting, but then again who would trust me with needles?

The four hours had productively been spent typing out my essay entitled "A Comparison of the Opening Sequence in the Films 'Romeo and Juliet' by Franco Zeffirelli (1968) and Baz Lurhman (1997)." We had to watch the opening sequences again and again and again.. and again, until our eyes bled, the only thing that made it bearable was that Tyblat took off his shirt in that scene Well.. I am actually quite fond of that film now.. although don't tell anyone!

I spent yesterday evening on the verge of a nervous breakdown. My art homework was taking me for ever and it still looked rubbish and eventually everything got on top of me and I started emitting noises Yup, noises. It was a half laugh, half cry. I didn't know whether to burst into tears and start blubbing or burst out into fits of laughter. It was very weird I have to say. In the end I cried and then laughed for a bit, but not at once and then I went to bed. Best nights sleep I've had in ages and that isn't saying much!

I got lots of stuff today Just goes to show how popular I am:
A tape of 'Romeo and Juliet' from Sarah
The CD to borrow and copy
A Bart Simpson magnet
A picture of Tom Hanks from Vicky
A picture of Jack Nicholson x100000 from Vicky
and
Some rosary beads from Lucy, which is very sweet and meaningful (which is surprising for her )

Wow. It's Comic Relief tommorow. The month of the year when d-list celebrites implore you to give money to 'good causes.' I think the idea is nice, but I don't actually know everywhere the money is going. I'd rather give money to a cause that I approve of, and a cause where I know how my money is being spent well. If that makes me selfish then call me lobster.
As much as I loathe Comic Relief I have to say: Our school is being very mean about it. They don't seem to realise they could make a lot of money for Comic Relief by holding a non uniform day tommorow. Think about it, nobody would want to wear school uniform, the normal cost is a £1... well over a 1,000 students... You do the Math... they seem adamant that they don't want to get into the spirit of things. Well, I'll be a rebel and wear a red hair tie... yes, red for comic relief and yes I know it's against the school rules but you only live once

I'm exhausted I haven't had a good nights sleep in a month. So if you'll exscuse me...
Ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: Some very folky songs of Simon and Garfunkel and some of Paul McCartney. It's just the mood I'm in

Hey, seems like you're doing the exact English task like I did a couple of months ago! We too had to compare those two versions, although it wasn't a very big task - more like "which version do you like best and why?" so there's no reason for me swapping essays with you

Hmm, I get those strange moods too, mostly when I'm alone and there's something I'm struggling with. No secret I'm lousy with dealing when I'm under pressure... So I usually put on some classical music and curls up in bed - I usually feel better after that.

Surprisingly, I'm in a scandalous good mood today. It's Friday, the sun is shining and melting all the horrible snow, there's deers and squirrels and all kind of cute things living in our backyard, I've ordered a new book, PE actually was fun yesterday, I've finished my English essay, News on News will be on tonight... Life is sweet!

I'm also being in such a good mood to spite the world, who has not been treating me kindly lately - I'm seriously beaten up First, my back, right thumb and left leg hurts like crazy since I slipped on the ice, and yesterday... Well, let's just say I fought the floor and the floor won, so now I got a limp on the right leg as well. Have you tried limping on both legs? It's pretty funny actually.

I'm also extremely pleased with my English essay which I've worked on all day - the task was writing a story about a person around 2030 who's getting discriminated. While all the people wrote about aliens and flying saucers I wrote a bitter story about a Russian immigrant living in the slum parts of Oslo as America invades Russia and the mindless Norwegians, always supporting the power-crazy USA, casts him off. And what do you know? The main character DOES NOT, in fact, die in the end. There's a first time for everything, right? Actually, there's worryingly little murder and death in the story. Although the main character's brother assassinates a politician, but that's only mentioned once. - And the main character burns down a supermarket, but that's in fact after it has closed and there's nobody there. Can this be, Tilly's writing style is getting more humane?

Well, I'm going to walk around the house grinning now, so you'll excuse me...
Toodles!

P.S.: I'll give you one more thing today - a !

"Analyzing humor is like dissecting a frog. Few people are interested and the frog dies of it."
-E. B. White

Currently listening to: Garbage '#1 Crush' "I will burn for you, feel pain for you, I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart, I'll tear it apart..."

It never ceases to amaze me, how creative people become to avoid doing something. You can't help but wonder if common sense went completely out the window when you hear the things people have done to avoid doing work in our French class. And I'm ashamed to admit that I have done possibly the most stupid thing to avoid working.
I wasn't really in the mood to work so I was half heartedly messing around with my hands, picking at a scab and so forth (disgusting I know) I then started rubbing a cut I had across my finger. I started pulling at it, and was slowly turning it into a groove in the skin, I don't feel pain like you mortals do, and was working it.. making the hole bigger and bigger. It was bleeding like crazy but I carried on. When the teacher came round I was covered in blood and grinning inanely
"Sorry Miss, I tried the work but I couldn't do much as I can't hold my pen"
How stupid is that. Sure I didn't have to do any work and I managed to amaze several people concerning my high pain threshold, but it was irresponsible and immature *snigger* I don't want YOU doing anything so stupid

Apart from that small episode of self mutilation today was pretty dull. Red Nose day went with a bang, all the first years went crazy and sprayed their hair red and the like. I seemed to be the only person who made no effort at all. Well, that's not true. I did put a Led Zeppelin patch on my coat and it had a bit of red on it...

"Can this be, Tilly's writing style is getting more humane?"
I hope to Bog it isn't! If you start writing humanely now, in twenty years time you could be writing books with sentences like "He held Jennifer in his big muscular arms and whispered sweet nothings in her ear"! I couldn't stand it Tilly! I couldn't stand it! Kill someone off before you turn soft! Niceness is weaknesss! And don't you forget it!

Haha! The girl outside fell off her scooter! Hahaha! That's teach her not to do that sort of thing in high heels. She's waiting for her brothers friends to show up so she can flirt outrageously, that's why the little slut is all dolled up. And she's only about 10! My Bog, things just aren't how they used to be. Kids should be running about in t-shirts, trainers and trousers! Not mini skirts, crop tops and high heeled shoes! It's rediculous!

Well I'd better go and get out of my school uniform and into something red, my 'Self Preservation Society' top should do the job.
Ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: Some talkshow on the telly...

Okay, sorry to say this but eeeuuch! I don't like French either, but I get goosebumps (not the good kind) thinking about that. I feel nauseated even when I get a tinsy scrape on my skin, plus I'll probably recoil in pain if you even toss foam towards me... I don't think I would have made a great close-combat warrior, you know. I don't look good in protection gear (or those helmets), I'm mighty ticklish and I even lost when the livingroom floor attacked me

What exactly is this Red Nose day? It sound rather interesting, but there isn't anything like that here in Norway... It isn't some annual sacrifying of Rudolph the Reindeer, is it?

Well, the world finally succeeded in ruining my good mood; My uncle Bjørn lost his battle with cancer today, and died this morning Why is it people always pass away when things seems to be getting better? We had just been told he was recovering from the chemotherapy, was eating well, and suddenly this? I feel rather depressed, but it's a bit strange too, as I really haven't talked with him for at least a year, and then only on Christmas and other celebrations. The thing I mostly think about is that I'll never get to talk to him again. Not that we ever had anything important to say to eachother, but I would like to have the chance... And my grandmother hasn't yet been told that her son has passed away...

I think I'm going to listen to some classical music now, and I think I'll be fine in the morning

Toodles.

"Americans are benevolently ignorant about Canada, while Canadians are malevolently well informed about the United States."
-J. Bartlett Brebner

Currently listening to:

Aww Tilly. I'm so sorry It would be stupid to ask if you are OK because you obviously aren't. I'm really sorry. I'm terrible with these sorts of things, I never know what to say And anything I do say sounds insensitive and tackless... so, should I just quote? Maybe it's for the best:
"Good night, good night! parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say good night till it be morrow."
-William Shakespeare

(And if that too was tactless too then I'm sorry, I apologise in advance, even though I did think it through carefully... but as usual, I'll mess it up and come out looking stupid)

Gee! I wish it was an annual sacrifice of reindeer! That would be much more interesting than what it actually is. Yes, red nose day is one of our many weird charity things. Like Children in need... these sites explain what stupid stuff we get up to:
http://www.comicrelief.org.uk/
or
http://www.rednoseday.com/comicrelief/index.shtml

I'm sorry. I guess it's my turn to give you a well deserved Speak to you soon.

Ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: Some jazz I put on...

Well, thank you. No, you're not tactless at all, I assure you; I know how hard it is to treat people how've lost a family member, so I just'll say thank you for your understanding and quote. Shakespeare fits for almost everything I'm feeling much better now, and it seems most of my family is dealing with it well. The only thing I'm worried about is the upcoming funeral - I really don't like that. I've been lucky and only attended one funeral before, and that was my grandmother's... I couldn't help but feel it didn't represent her, if you know what I mean - it was so sad, yet she was such a funny person. I think when I go, I want to be buried New Orleans style - when there's a party afterwards with jazz and fun, to celebrate life.

"And if tomorrow's the End
I won't have waisted today
I would have lived as I was dying"

I always start thinking so much about death, and now I've realized that waiting for things is meaningless. I immediatelly started to think of my old teacher, Per Hall, who helped me through the darkest depression of my life, and yet I've never thanked him for it. I just kept hoping for a perfect time I could finally thank him - but it's been nearly three years since I last saw him, so why wait? I've started writing a letter, telling of all my thoughts, and I'm as we speak on the 5th page and still writing

You know, I actually feel pretty great I still have the chance to make up for all my past!

Sorry if this seems like a long and meaningless posting, it's just that I've just come to realize this...

Well, to talk about something more out of the ordinary, let me see... I've not done much except shopping for lamps all day - this new house is just too dark and I think that accounts for several of my latest depressions - but after walking through lamp shops all day I think I'll never feel darkness embrace me again. I have a weird fondness for lamp shops - I once lived next to one, and I loved how it seemed to light up the whole street - and inside it's always so warm and chilly on the same time Yessire, I love lamp shops...

Well, it's appearantly getting to late for me as I discuss the meaning of life and lamps at the same time without batting an eyelid (I've always thought 'batting an eyelid' sounds so groteque. Say 'batting' and I think baseball... Ick ) So from all of us, to all of you; G'night

Toodles!

"Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life."
-Bertolt Brecht

"There is no cure for birth and death save to enjoy the interval."
-George Santayana

Currently listening to: Audio slave 'like a stone'.. I'm in love with this song at the moment. I'm not an Audio slave fan.. but you have to make an exception for this song.. "In your house I long to be, room by room patiently, I'll wait for you there, like a stone, I'll wait for you there, alone.."

Death is certainly the most awkward of things to tip toe around. Truth be told, I have absolutely no idea what you're going through. Not only because I have no emotions but because I haven't lost immediate family in a long time. Send my condolences to the rest of your family. I'm really sorry

I've got to say, this has possibly been the most enlightening conversation I've had in a while. It's got to be said I don't get this sort of quality conversation with my friends. With them it's all rubbish music, makeup and boys.. oh and Monty Python

Well I'd better go. I have some Syliva Plath to read and it won't do it all by itself...
ta,
-Nate

Currently listening to: John Lennon's 'Imagine' - I'm trying to overcome my dislike of this song, after a teacher forced all of us youngsters to sing it over and over in class when I was about 7... You can't do that to a kid! It's a pretty song, and everyone knows you can't like songs you've been taught at school...

Well, to say it like it is, the passing of my uncle hasne't effected me very much, really I kinda never thought of him as a family member, although that sounds harsh - it was more like he was a friend of my parents, and I hadn't much contact with him at all... It's just death generally I get down at, not the passing of my uncle

But I agree, it's exrutiatingly difficult to behave around grievers, because you have a very little idea of what they really feel... Some years ago a girl in my (now former) class lost her mother, and before she came back from the funeral, my teacher (God bless him) gave us the advice that if she wanted to talk about it, we'd talk about it and if she didn't, we wouldn't. - I think that advice helped, because then we all managed to behave naturally around her. I can't imagine losing my mother ...

"This has possibly been the most enlightening conversation I've had in a while."
I agree I feel us two manage to talk about the serious matters a lot more easier than I at least can with my friends. Maybe it's because none of us would care to start a conversation saying "OMG!! I'm out of mascara!"

Well, school is starting at 10 AM (Norwegian time) today! Oh bliss Usually we start at 8:30 but today we just got a classtrip to the VG building (VG is Norway's most sold newspaper) So for once I can relax, eat well, find nice clothes and listen to some relaxing music before school So nice..!

Although I got a major task I've been holding off all weekend, and now I only got a few hours to do it so why on earth am I on the net anyway?

Toodles!

"You see what power is - holding someone else's fear in your hand and showing it to them!"
--Amy Tan

Currently listening to: Audio Slave again, I don't plan it that way. It's just every time I log on it comes on MTV. It can't be helped.

It's refreshing to escape from the mind numbingness of my apparently apathetic friends onto h2g2, where I can discuss anything that I want to talk about with you (within reason) Our conversations have ranged from politics to teddy bears, from cannibalism to Micheal Ball (to pick two completely randomish subjects) and Clark Gable to the meaning of life. Pretty varied I'd say...

Y'know. I haven't said anything in bad taste. I'm sure you won't mind if I say something that I've discovered, and this IS inappropriate, so I apologise in advance:
Murderers, on average, are 7.5 years younger than their victims.
That were only a taster. I'm full or morbid facts, you only have to ask. But you obviously don't want to hear any more right now.. so I'll let you off my stupid very boring facts.. just this once

A girl in my class lost her Father a few years ago. It was harder for her because it wasn't natural or accidental. He committed suicide by hanging himself from a tree I tried really hard to act normally, but I know what you mean. It's very hard especially when you don't know them that well.

I'd better go, I'm being forced off the computer I'll never give it up.... noooo!

Ta,
-Nate