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Thanks for letting us know Wilma

MMF hope you're feeling better about things soon, don't stay away too long, we miss you!

Once again, MMF, many thanks for a superb pre meet(as usual) in Kew and for the very unexpected and much appreciated birthday greetings and .

It surely was one on my best birthdays ever Thanks to all others that cheered me. I'll find a good place for that card here in the Lair.

it's all true, MMF !! brilliantly organised! Even to the tiniest detail. Not only will I remember Kew gardens for several years to come, but the bus driver episode as well!!

the bus driver incident was organised, wasn't it? .. or ..

Well, whatever

Thank you all for your support!

I can assure you all that no-one is to blame for my current demeanour, and no-one caused me upset except for my own short-circuited brain.

Someone was upset in Kew by something I said, that led to a photo that I was involved in and I feel that hurt, and I take responsibilty for that as it shouldn't have happened.

The following day I arranged something that someone obviously wasn't attuned to, and I wasn't listening and went ahead with anyway!

Depression is a case of beating oneself up about something that doesn't necessarily exist, yet it is hard to define perception and reality. I can only say I am sorry to the person concerned.

I did enjoy myself tremendously, and I miss all of your companionship, friendship and chat with a heavy heart.

I get so much enjoyment and pleasure out of organising the afternoon events, I actually feel an anticlimax when it is over!

Please believe me when I say that I really do enjoy organising them, and hope to continue to do so, and can only put my current feelings down to heat, tiredness, and the sheer pace of the weekend.

No-one need feel responsible for my mental status. It is purely self-created, if not induced.

I will be back amongst you, my friends, especially as I have no-one else to converse with, and nowhere else to go! Yet I am unsure whether that shpould be construed as a threat or warning!

I know I shall feel severe post post-remorse for posting this this evening, and hope you can appreciate my synapses are not functioning sensibly, but I you all, and appreciate your support, as I did when I gave up smoking and had your support then.

I will be in touch with each of you individually, when I have shaken this off.

I just dare not post anywhere. at present, where my postings could be misconstrued, until I feel better able to express myself!

Please, I don't want any of you to take any of this rambling to heart, or feel blame. My brain is short-circuiting, and it is all purely my perception, not reality! And I sort of know that, but cannot identify with it at present. It will happen! Honest.

Just give me time. Please. I shall be around, sort of, but am too worried about being contentious. This feeling creates a sense of paranoia, I know, from past experience.

s and s with mega-apologies to one and all, and thanks for your forbearance.

Please ignore the ramblings above as I am not thinking straight, but hope in some way I have explained my behaviour.

I Hate it with a passion!!! .

I really wish I could cry! Unfortunately I have done too much of that in the past. It solves nothing.

A very much humbled and MMF



*PS. This probably shouldn't be posted now, but it is how I feel currently, and I know I will have serious regrets over this later. I just hope I don't create more angst than I already feel. MMF, and thank you for your compassion!*

you
thinking of you

You're not alone!

*sending my regards and best wishes*

Depression really is the pits, isn't it! Hope you feel better soon.

Sorry about that, MMF.

I've emailed you.

* sends virtual chicken soup and a previously unknown King Arthur book*

You should be riding a wave of post-meet euphoria - it's a shame it's got you like this. Many thanks from me, too, for all you did - especially as I, again, required special organisation because I couldn't be with you at the arranged meeting place and time.

It was a such a cheerful afternoon and I'm sorry it left you with a bad aftertaste. Hope you get over it soon.

Prompted by RF, I shall be trying to throw something together in Heidelberg in the autumn - so watch out everyone!

Have a and a (n*sc*f*? Wasn't it? )

Thinking of you and sending you

W

.. ?? n*sc*f* ?? naaahh.. the man needs an .. well deserved I'd say.

Thank you, all of you, for your kind thoughts and wishes.

I shall be back soon, just give me time.

I love all of you very dearly and I am really sorry this has happened after such a special Meet.

You are all very special people, and you all deserve a for supporting someone when they are down, and being so understanding.

I daren't post more, as my ability to post sensilby and coherently is shot.

I shall occasionally, and hope to be back to normality soon.

If anyone wants to e-mail me, please feel free.

Address on my PS. I will appreciate, and will reply if able.

Thanks again for your understanding.

Mega s, s and es, and , etc. for the lads.



MMF

Check your email box! And thank you for replying, green

I just wanted to pop by and add my thanks to you, MMF, for such a wonderful afternoon at Kew.

It was fab to be guided gently around all the best bits and deposited gently at a tea house just when I needed it. Really made the day extra special.