h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

To match your last quote I have another one:

The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of . . . (Pascal)


kisses,
sis

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big SIS

Im off to a party soon cant stay up too late though taking two teams for games in the morning.

Hug please!

Have not been well.


az

*gling* *gling* *gling*

It's Christmas eve morning - will you be stopping by for some over the holidays?

Hope things are going better for you now.




big SIS

have you checked your yahoo email?



sis

Hi

Thankyou for calling this morning it has added to whats been a very low key but nice Christmas.

Ive been able to see lots of friends and family with still more to catch up with soon. Having seen people from far and wide Ive was a bit bewildered by your call this morning and was trying to place the voice rather than process the words (I have this disability where I cant distinguish words somtimes even though i can hear the person).

off to do housework now.

More later

Yes well, chatting with a seriously tongue-tied blicky was kind of funny. I mean, imagine YOU being at a loss for words!

Noggin and I had planned to go out for a much-needed walk and see Eric's new paintings at the local Sunday street art-market, but in the end we've decided to be totally lazy and just hang out here.

Just wanted to say that you have a lovely voice. Bit of a Brummy accent but, as Noggin said, not quite the 'full jasper'.



SIS

check your email.


az

WHAT??? You're not with Liz anymore? And I had to read about this elsewhere while casually skimming through another thread?

Are you okay or do you no longer want to talk to me?


az

No nothing at all like that. Its just I didnt want to talk "about" it to anyone. Sorry its just the way I was feeling.

I dont enjoy talking about stuff like that not when Ive spent what feels like every wakig minuet thrashing it out with Liz already. Maybe it stings too much or maybe I just like a break from it probably its a bit of both.

Ultimately we wanted different things and our different ways of dealing with not getting what we wanted meant there was an increasing amout of friction in the home. I still have the same feelings Ive always had about Liz but there are somethings that have gone on in the meantime that I dont think we will be able to put behind us. Coupled with the fact that we are both stuborn in our own particular areas of interest then I think its better if we pul back before we go into complete meltdown.

Im blaming neither one of us we both have different ways and personalities and in the end (if this is the end and I really think it is) they made us incompatible.

I'll miss her but right now I cant see the benefit of dragging this out and falling out even more giving it one more last try.

There was a time not so long ago when I didnt feel this way but coming from how happy we had been the atmosphere was only making things worse.


I hope you will understand why I didnt talk to anyone, many family and friends when I did tell them said they had noticed but over the years they said they had come to know Id talk when I ws ready I dont mind talkking now but it has to be in my own time. Knowing you the way I do I think you will understand.

Of course I understand. I was just feeling a bit odd about having a monologue going on here on our thread and then when I read about you and Liz elsewhere I just felt . . . weird. Like maybe I'd been banished from sharing your confidences. Just a bit of an 'insecurity attack' I guess.

I am very sorry to hear about you and Liz. I wondered if something was wrong when you mentioned she was away for Christmas, which was one of the reasons I called you. Anyhow, it sounds as if you are being very 'mature' and rational about it all, but I'm sure it still hurts and probably will for some time to come.




az

We are trying to be mature but there is the odd outburst of shouting and the mop bucket got kicked the other day but nothing is broken so far and hopefully we will both get out physically intact even if we are emotionally bruised.

Yeah, all sorts of emotions coming out - mostly hurt and angry ones I guess. Which seems kind of 'normal' all things considered.

I think it's terribly hard to end a relationship, even if you both agree it's for the best. There is the 'tearing apart' bit that always hurts. I mean, after two years together so much of both of you is so entwined with the other. So feelings of loss and hurt are bound to happen. As well as sadness and anger, about what was lost, but this will pass.

I think this is why you see so many obviously 'bad relationships' staying together - they just can't deal with the process of separating. Which always hurts like f**k.

Well, I hope you both have made the best decision for yourselves.

and

az

I guess only time will tellif its a good choice.

from the other thread:

Id say its rational to believe you are a genuine friend.

Thank you

Oh heck, blinky!

You know I love you totally to death. Otherwise why would I make the effort, ya know?

Except it's really no effort at all. You are just very lovable and that's that.

kisses,
SIS

Just felt like doing that.



SIS

I was just coming over to your ps from my friends list to get find this page through you old messages then there at the top of your convos list



I see your in fime fettle around the place and was coming to say Hi as Im off to see my old mate and thought I ought to say hi and *visit* you too, even though I see you everywhere!

Thank you for the things you have done to cheer me up lately, theres no need because the things you do cheer me up anyway. Must dash.

my best to you and the welsh wonder

Hi bigSIS.

Nice to see you still looking out for Jez.


Been thinking about her too.


Hope you are taking the imte to look after yourself and Noggin is too. Always count how lucky you are before you start to get angry about things that are "wrong".

Im in the middle of moving out at the moment a bit of this abit of this a bit of a bit of and sometimes all of them together.

In the strange way it happens at times like this, me and the person Im seperating from are getting along better than we have for ages.

Im really understanding again what I liked about Liz but there are still enough moments of tension to keep me to the course Ive set and save us both from another failed last try.

We both tried hard and theres more each of us could have done but how much should you compromise your standards? I hope I have learned from this I hope Liz can take something forward too. Id like to be friends in a meaningful way but I think that might be too painful for us so Im just glad we dont hate each other now although there ahve been more than a few moments in the last few months.

take care

hi sweetie!

So, where are moving to? Aaack, the moving bit must be the hardest, since it's always a drag to move even under nice conditions.

It makes sense that you and Liz feel like you're getting along better these days now that the stress and tension of maintaining the relationship is no longer there. But I can imagine all the emotions you're going through - in fact I remember them quite clearly from when my ex and I split up in Bristol. Anyhow, a BIG for both of you.

Yes, I always remember how lucky I am to have Noggin in my life. Now neither of us can imagine ever not being together and when we remember our previous lives it's always with a bit of a . I mean, we both felt we were quite happy on our own back then, but it's so much better together.

We've been very busy lately working on our new biz idea (have you seen that thread?). It's been especially good for Noggin as it gives him something to work towards. So fingers crossed that we'll be able to get it going and make a success of it.


SIS