h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

It's like I'm incapable of interacting anymore

Been getting in really *dumb* fights with Tom lately (one was over taking vitamins, for goodness sake!) Online, I either can't come up with anything worthwhile to say, or I try to be silly and offend. (I didn't *mean* to imply anything with that one little comment in your fan club, AWK! I honestly thought it was funny) I'm getting tired of eating my feet.

Maybe I should go be a hermit for awhile. Wait, no, can't do that--Faith won't take bottles anymore, and being a hermit doesn't work if you can't be alone.

Right now, life sucketh

Amy, I'm sorry you took my comment in return as a sharp rebuke. I wasn't meant to be, although, you obviously took it that way. Lately, I'm having a lot of trouble around here with my big mouth too. If it makes you feel any better, I'm having the same trouble you are.

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Forgive me for being irritable about that particular subject (you saying something or other about practicing for breaking up fights between Faith and her siblings). You see, as the baby of my family (the youngest of six by 8 to 17 years) I've been treated as a child all my life. At 43 years of age, I'm *still* being treated as if I'm a kid with no sense. It's a subtle thing and probably not very important, but something firmly lodged in the back of the minds of my family and siblings. I'm always introduced as "my *BABY* sister", and I hate it since it's beginning to sound ridiculous. You inadvertantly hit one of my personal hot buttons to p*ss me off in a hurry, but I shouldn't have said anything ... none of this is your fault. I realize that you meant it as a joke.

For what it's worth, I'm finding this place less and less appealing all the time. Even when I'm playing around, trying to have fun and be entertaining, it isn't coming across well ... others (or me) are frequently offended. Frankly, my experiences here lately haven't been something I'll be reminiscing fondly about in years to come. It's *not* only you who is feeling this way, Amy.

However, if I might add this -- we're *all* being excessively sensitive, and we're being stinky poop heads ... that's what I think. Just because someone says something that isn't sweet and perfectly phrased doesn't mean we should run for cover, as I've often done in the past ... hell, I'm a primary offender! (Although a lot of that behavior was sheer terror at the thought of a RL relationship -- escape seemed like a better route.)

D*mn it! We all have value and are extremely important (YES, YOU TOO AMY!) - a person's (or even a group's) opinion or mood at any given time doesn't change that.

Don't be a poop head! Let's take our little lumps of poop and move on to a place where we can find soap and running water.




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I have said some *really* dumb things lately.

If anyone's in a downward spiral, it's me.

Please don't beat me up, though. Things just aren't coming out right, somehow.....

Join the club ... I've said a lot of stupid stuff too. You know what, Paul? None of it matters. So what? We're human, and as such, we're gonna do that from time to time.

What do you say we stop beating ourselves up? I'll be first in line.

*I'M IMPERFECT!* Know what? I don't give a happy horseflip! Deal with it.

anyone?

I guess what I'm getting at is this: I DON'T CARE IF EVERYTHING YOU SAY ISN'T ELOQUENT AND PERFECT! Go ahead and be your honest selves! I love all of you guys just the way you are ... not the way you think you have to be.

s

I'm sorry if I don't reply to more of your journals but I only join conversations where I feel I can be useful.

And I'm hopeless with words... and 'sensible' Know what you mean about the site loosing some of its appeal though, recently I've felt this too... for Amy... I don't know what else to say... as I said I'm not a great word person in some respects

Amy dear...


I know you don't have the best self esteem in the world (seems to be an all too common problem around here), and you are also suffering from thinking you've upset people when you really didn't, or in this particular case, feeling guilty for saying something that you couldn't possibly have known was the wrong thing to say in that particular instance, to that particular person.

As far as the bickering with Tom, I feel certain a lot of that comes from the stress of motherhood - you've gone from being a couple to being a family, with a baby who (no matter how "easy" she is), still needs a lot of attention. You've also gone from being a working woman who had contact with an assortment of interesting adults on a daily basis to a stay at home mother who only has contact with adults on a very limited basis. This is a *huge* change in your life, make no mistake about it! And it's a change that can make a big difference in your stress level, which can lead to bickering about silly little things that don't even matter. Sometimes just understanding what's happening can help correct the situation.

Lady Scott is right. You're going through a tremendous change, Amy. It must be very difficult.

To the 2legs impersonator:

Ok, who are you and how did you hack into 2legs account?!

Yes, I know it's really you, 2legs...



But my point is, when in the world have you *ever* been hopeless with words?! You?!!?

And "sensible"? Ok, now I'm beginning to wonder about a hacker on your identity again...

There's been some changes in the way this site *is* over the last several months though... I'm not sure how to describe it... maybe it's the influx of new "researchers" who came in after there was an article in some magazine or paper that described hootoo as one of the best places on the web. Unfortunately, most of those people just don't *get* the idea of being a researcher, or of this being a community, in almost every sense of the word, most specifically in the sense that we all need to get along. Some of them even seem to take great delight in instigating fights between susceptible researchers.

I don't know what to do other than refuse to fall into the trap they're setting.

... Yes, theres a problem at the moment still with one researcher keeping setting up new accounts, breaking house rules... Oh, its me alright I ain't that good with words though, sure I can wave them about and arrange them randomly and create all kinds of pretty patturns... but thats about it really Its when I've got to use them ina 'sensible' way theres trubble with how they sit on the page... or screen

*rolls eyes*


Now see, that sounded perfectly sensible.



Well, sensible for *this* place, at least!

It might have sounded sensible... but I can assure you that thee was aboslutly no meaning whatsoever in teh randomly chosen words I'm off to bed now... Night all

*consults handy dictionary*


Uh-huh!

*points to dictionary*


This here book says every one of those words has a meaning!

Have you been reading "Under a Bridge with Dick and Harry"
again, Lady Scott?

I don't remember that one.

I usually just read the Bobbsey Twins books.

*agrees with everybody on everything*






*well, probably not, but...*




*oh well....*



*leaves *

Well, the stress thing is right... Since Faith and I have been I've been pretty much sequestered--and it's been about 2 and a half weeks But Faith's been back to pretty much normal (except for the sleeping pattern, darn it--she was getting close to normal, and then we got sick) and I've had my happy baby back the last few days Since we've been sick, Tom and I haven't had our date night for the last 2 Sodits. I think that's been a lot of my problem--no breaks, and anyone with kids (or common sense, really) can tell you that baby=not fun. Anyway, I'm feeling a lot better, both physically and otherwise. My stuffiness is only feeling like you do after a hard cry, I don't think I'll be coughing a lung up when I try to go to sleep, and I got a couple hours break this evening when Tom took Faith and her cousin Bryan out to dinner and I stayed home. I actually got to eat until I was full without Faith either waking up and screaming, or screaming the whole time. I think in a couple days I can even start trying to get Faith back to a normal sleep pattern again.

Anyway, thank you all for putting up with me. I overreacted just a *little* in your fanclub, I think, AWK--after all, you ed and ed and such, which I didn't even notice until now...

all

*brings in a giant basket of mufflewhumps*

It's been *far* too long since I've given any of these out as anything other than welcoming gifts! Dig in everyone!

Quick message for all .......

Remember that "poop" in the proper place makes a great fertilizer.