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I don't know what's with me lately...

I read friends' journals, good, bad, and neutral, and I often can't even think of anything to say, other than or , and sometimes I don't even bother to do that much... I'm not ignoring any of you--I'm definately lurking--I just don't have anything worth saying. I'm even not bothering to say much on IMs, though I do sign in... And the 'boring with baby stuff' I was going to do with Kam on the phone was remarkably short (though maybe that's because the baby stuff flows more with other parents, I've noticed--kind of a 'Did your kid ever...?' sort of thing.)

I'm not exactly being very talkative with those few (OK, one) that are actually trying to start up a friendship with me, instead of me pursuing... And I've not bothered going to those I've not talked to in ages, to see how they've been... Even though I miss some of them fairly badly.

Nothing personal, anyone--it's just me.

I don't know if it's just that I'm tired (you were right, 'Mom'--the growth spurt's lasting more than the usual day or so) or if I'm a little burnt out right now, or what. Hopefully I'll return to what passes for normal sometime soon. If not, please know that I still care--I'm just not expressing it much right now. At least I'm still feeling--if I go numb, that's when I'll worry. But I do think it's just mostly tiredness. The last few days, I've been tired but wired, so I don't feel like going to bed when I can... *sigh*

Please be patient--normal service will resume eventually.

Tis OK...

Amy, all anybody needs to do is read your
journal, and they'll understand where you're
coming from.

You set some very high standards for yourself,
but try thinking about it this way: if you have more
than ten minutes a day to tend yo your own needs
(as opposed to the other people in your household),
then you're doing better than some mothers.

That's for sure - I'm trying to recall this stage of the game with Amy+... was I able to take a shower? I don't even remember, I was *so* busy and exhausted.

The weird thing is, IRL I'm fine... It's just online that I'm strange... Which is one reason I'm not too worried, yet, as well as the fact that I'm not numb. Numb's not good...

Well, you've just been through one of life's
biggest changes. You seem to be adapting fine.

Paul's got a point. Your mind is on other things now ... not to diminish what you may have here, but what's happening in your real life is a lot more important. Priorities change. You should worry when you think more about this place than Faith.

"Priorities change. You should worry when you think more about this place than Faith."

OOoo who was that wise woman?
*looks over horizon*

we still you

'normal' 'strange' Thought 'strange' was 'normal'

*empathises completely*

Listen to Shea - she's exactly right.

Those of us of the motherhood persuasion *know* that it's expected that your entire focus will change when you're caring for a baby. I fully expected that you'd spend significantly less time on here - and not even *want* to spend as much time on here once you had a baby to care for 24-7.

This doesn't mean that you'll always be less inclined to post here - it's just that you understandably have a whole new set of priorities. The order of those priorities will change repeatedly as the years go by though. Right now, Faith is completely dependant upon you for absolutely everything. In a year or so, she won't be quite so dependant for absolutely everything because she'll be able to feed herself some, and move herself around the room, but you'll have a whole new set of things you need to do (like grow those extra eyes in the back of your head so you can see what she's getting into when your back is turned ). Still a few years further down the road, she'll be much more independant, going off to school for several hours a day, or playing at a friend's house... but of course that means yet another set of concerns, even though it will give you more time for yourself and the things you want to do.

Amy sweetheart, don't worry. You have a baby to look after, this effects you physically, emotionally, spiritually, everyway possible. You need to look after yourself so you can look after your new life.

People like me who are whinging and going through a bad time, are only whinging because we can, because we have a journal, because these feelings are better out than in. We know you are there, we know you care so much, but for now we are glad to see you put yourself first. Don't spend energy thinking of the right thing to say, spend that energy showing Faith how to grow up to be just like you, because we need more yous in the world.

Don't beat yourself up over this and don't worry yourself into a bad place... as has been said you've been through changes and have more to come... you're still a friend and people understand...

You've always wanted to have faith, and now
you've done it.

*Agrees with everyone else & puts the kettle on *



Amy, a from you is worth a thousand words

(We finally got something that'll pass for and it's a lot faster to type)

*gets up to wind Faith's swing*

Great pun, Paul, and it's more true than you know

Anyway, thanks, everyone. Yeah, part of it is the shifting priorities, but that I expected. I figured out what another part is, though, and if I get through my backlog tonight, and find the thing I'm going to refer to in it, there'll be another journal...

Amy!
You are doing what every normal Mum does
Don't be afeared, girlie Us Hillbilly Ma's have lernt long ago that raisin' them thar kiddies is durned hard work!
What I really mean to say, Luv, is that I certainly understand everything you're trying to say, even if the exact words don't come right now. No one can understand what it's really like to become a Mum for the first time (unless of course they have already done so), and even then, every experience is different for every person.
Long winded, aren't I
Take heart, Dear!