This is a Journal entry by Milla, h2g2 Operations

Milla has the blues again.

Post 1

Milla, h2g2 Operations

Just have run out of the fun. I don't think it's medical this time.

Just too much energy being poured, and it feels wasted. Is it worth the effort? Does it matter that we still exist here? That some of us try so hard, and put so many hours in, and care, and feel that so many of the discussions are confrontational, putting wedges in. Or actually not trying to be, but so many of us are so tired, and so worried about the site and it's future that we take just about any comment as criticism, or aggression, or acidic teasing, when it's actually not? I know I tend to over-interpret just anything these days.

I don't know.

I feel bad for not writing entries. But I'm not a writer, and it doesn't really feel like something I want to do.

I feel bad for not actually browsing entries very often. I wish I had a hundred hours a day and the energy and the power to bring to life all the ideas we had a year ago. But right now, I think if I tried, I'd just get complains that the work is wrong, incorrectly done, the wrong colour, smell and not enough quirky.

Maybe I should just stay away for a few days.

smiley - towel


Milla has the blues again.

Post 2

Websailor

Sounds to me you are very tired and over sensitive. I must be lucky but I never come across anything unpleasant on h2g2.

Maybe a rest is in order. Please know you are very much appreciated.

smiley - goodluck

Websailor smiley - dragon


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Post 3

Milla, h2g2 Operations

Thanks. I am very tired, it's true.
And I'm so happy you haven't come across any sad places here.
smiley - towel


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Post 4

Vip

I really, really, understand. smiley - hug

Sometimes, taking a break is very important. If we can't cope without you, then we need to have more volunteers.

smiley - fairy


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Post 5

Milla, h2g2 Operations

We need more volunteer contributions as it is. There are entries being published at a lovely rate, but lots of hopes and ideas we had a year ago that would be so lovely to make happen. Big plans and hopes that we had in the Magrathea workshop, but we haven't had the time or energy or hands to do.

Maybe I do take a break. If I can manage to stay away... smiley - hug

smiley - towel


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Post 6

Rosie

Don't feel sad, don't feel bad...

You volunteer your time ....

and this is appreciated by far more people who say nothing,

than those few who voice their negative opinions.

Have a rest, enjoy the rest .... smiley - hug



smiley - cheerup


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Post 7

Milla, h2g2 Operations

I don't think I've seen anything but support for me. And that is a very beautiful thing, that I shall remind myself about more often smiley - smiley

But there is too much other quibbling going on. That* makes me sad.
smiley - towel


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Post 8

Beatrice

Milla, I know exactly the feelings you are experiencing, and I have no words of wisdom. Just know that many people really appreciate you and your input, and will always be there for you.


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Post 9

lil ~ Auntie Giggles with added login ~ returned


Milla, take a day or two for yourself. We will all benefit from it smiley - hug

As for confrontations, fallings out, etc... They are part and parcel of h2g2, don't let them get to you.

Some just thrive on it, whereas others prefer to find lighter threads to enjoy for a while smiley - smiley

August is a weird month in HooToo smiley - whistle


lil xx


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Post 10

Malabarista - now with added pony

smiley - hug


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Post 11

psychocandy-moderation team leader

Not sure what, if anything, to say.

So smiley - hug and smiley - tea for now.


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Post 12

Pierre de la Mer ~ sometimes slightly worried but never panicking ~

What Rosie said in posting 6 smiley - ok

Do like the sundial: Only count the light hours. There are far more of those than dark ones here in the glorious land of noohootoo smiley - smiley

smiley - pirate


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Post 13

aka Bel - A87832164

Been there, done that, got the t-shirt.

smiley - teasmiley - cakesmiley - hug


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Post 14

Titania (gone for lunch)

smiley - chocsmiley - strawberries

smiley - hug

Have you tried a spike mat (spikmatta) to help you relax? I bought one after one of my colleagues told me about how her husband became so relaxed that he fell asleep on it. Sure, it hurts a bit at first, but as the pain ebbs out, one becomes wonderfully warm and relaxed.

Have you slept enough?

There are some tips in this article (in Swedish):
http://www.kostradgivarna.se/2012/08/hur-ska-du-lyckas-ta-dig-genom-skarselden-och-fa-till-din-nya-livsstil/

And no icecream smiley?smiley - raisedeyebrow


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Post 15

8584330

smiley - teasmiley - chocsmiley - hug


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Post 16

Milla, h2g2 Operations

smiley - hugsmiley - bravesmiley - hug

Thanks all. You make me happy.
I don't sleep enough I think. Or, I know I don't.

Ti, I have a spikmatta, but I forgot about it. And it's possible I don't eat right. I don't like cooking. I turned out a decent meal last night, but I think too little protein. Mostly veg and cheese. But boy, grilled aubergine is tasty!

And now, I shall try to work some.
smiley - towel


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Post 17

Vip

Perhaps we either need to send out a call for more volunteers, or put a few ideas on hold. Burn-out is no fun at all. smiley - sadface

And I can vouch for eating better. Once I started cooking for smiley - cupid I've actually been eating properly. smiley - wow

smiley - fairy


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Post 18

Rosie

....what the smiley - pirate said in post 12....smiley - ok

or get-like-a-duck....and let all the silly bad words wash over you like water... smiley - chick

smiley - cheerup


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Post 19

Witty Moniker

Just stopping by to offer a smiley - hug.


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Post 20

Milla, h2g2 Operations

All smiley - hug accepted and appreciated smiley - smiley
smiley - towel


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