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hey - im gene. Just thouight id say hello and how are you... all the usual. Pop in for a sometime if you'd like it?

Oh it's you! You're the Gene I was told about? Yes? Yasmin said you would be along to be nice to me, she thinks highly of you.
I'm fine thank you. How are you?
You can see from my space thing that I'm pretty similar to Yasmin, but I'm much shyer in real life, and I'm also horrific at using a computer.
Did you have a nice time at orchestra was it? I can't remember what yaz said.

Well, im not sure if i am the one she talked about but yeah we speak and she is lovely and everything... i think highly of her too. I miss her, shes not been on for a while. Glad your ok... im ok... im sure your not totally identical to yaz... so tell me sumat unique about u... yep orchestra was cool... full of cheeryness... and tears, but enuff bout them... xxx

You want something unique about me. Okay the most unique thing I can think that I have is that I watch people. I have been frequently told I should work for MI5 or MI6. I don't make judgements on people until I know everything about the situation. I don't jump into things. I am the background to Yasmin's flamboyance.

I know about you and Yaz. However, that is not to do with me in the long run. Yasmin is the sort of person who can get herself wound up in things. I don't use the internet very much and didn't even have an email account until recently, so I can't say anything about that.

Would you like me to say anything to Yasmin? She has got herself rather bogged down by you. If anything I think that she feels like a failure. That's the way she sees the world as far as I've ever been able to tell. At the moment she's having a lot of trouble with Sarah. I'm sure you've heard about Sarah. Yasmin lied to Sarah's mother, saying that Sarah was staying with her. She wasn't really, she was in Brighton with a 33 year old guy. Sarah's mother knew Sarah wasn't with Yasmin and has completely wiped Yasmin from their house. Sarah is in trouble and of course as you can imagine they are both in a typical fluster with lots of worry and arguing. I'm only telling you this because I'm sure that Yasmin has told you a lot. I remember being momentarily jealous of you at one point.

I don't really know if any of that made sense, and whether I've overestimated you and Yasmin.

P.S. This is the longest thing I've ever typed.

Watching is good... you learn to read a situation and dont make a mess before it happens. Thats a good quality...

Ok - u knowing what happened regards Yaz is probs a good thing. I know im in the wrong and im sorry for that. You can tell her that if you want. I dont know if she told oyu i had a termination 4 weeks ago and that was when the whole thing started. I got messed up in the head and got confused about alot of stuff. Im sorry for it. I should have spoken to her but i messed up. If you could tell her i really really care about her and i miss her id appreciate it. BUt obviously i cant do anymore. Shes not a failure - never will be. She made me smile at some of my worst moments. As for her having trouble with Sarah, it also sounds to me like shes not over her yet... not in a horrible way. Just that she keeps sticking up for her and she seemed to be hurt so much by her. If i have it wrong sorry.

If you want to know what me and yaz spoke about they'res a convo in both our spaces called 'Hey' (thrilling title)...

If that was the longest thing you'vetyped, you can only get better right?

xxx

I read the whole conversation between you, and I don't really want to say whether one of you is right or wrong. You both seem wrong to me. Yasmin seems wrong for messing with you at such a delicate time and exagerrating. You seem wrong for not telling her things and I suppose from what I've heard, talking about her behind her back in a public place. I hopped across and had a quick peep at that conversation as well, and I can completely understand what your problem was, but I can also see how Yasmin could be hurt.

I told her what you said and she just said that she had been embarrassed, and realised that she had pushed into your life too much and that wasn't her intention and she feels "dumb and crappy".
I also tried to talk to her about Sarah, but you know how stubborn she is about her. She can see all the things we tell her but still keeps going back. I doubt she'll get over her until she finds somebody new or she completely blanks anything to do with Sarah from her life. How likely is that?

I also suspect that if you REALLY want to still be friends with Yaz, then you ought to email her. She hasn't set foot (or finger perhaps?) in here since last week.

Thanks for all you've said there. Its relevant and i appreciate it. The thing is i feel sort of ick talking about all this on here. 1) coz its really up to me to sort it and i shouldnt drag you into it and 2) coz i dont want there to be another arguement about me talking about her behind her back.

Anyway, non of that is ment rudely if it came across like that. Regards her and Sarah though, piece of mind'll probs come in September coz she'll be back at school but sarah wont be there. Until then, she'll cope alright.

I have emailed Yaz. But there was no reply. Maybe it didnt get through coz the last thing i sent her didnt get through either... *worries*

Meanwhile, how are you?

I'm alright. About to go to the cinema actually. Dad has decided that after reading my copy of Empire he doesn't get out enough. I've also tidied up my room, and finished reading a stephen king book. What an exciting life I lead.

I asked Yasmin and she said she had had no email from you, but if there seems to be a problem why don't you email her at [email protected]. I dont know if you're on msn messenger but I think she's on there right now if you are.

She said she didn't mind you talking to me about her because I won't stick up for either of you. Also I'm usually sent in after she's messed something up.

Sarah is the only person who causes trouble I believe, so I'm sure everything will be alright.

Are you alright?

Stephen King's good... which is your favourite? melikes Apt Pupil most.... Im in the library right now... soon to trundle home and discover the joy of my messy room. My life is thrilling too.

My email must be messed up then. Grrr. I'll send a msg to Yaz in a day or so probs. Im abit rushed right now coz iv got to have a far amount of shrink time...erg. I am on MSN, but i tend not to use it coz my best friends girlfriend is evil too me on it and i have a strict no blocking policy coz thats not fair.

Im not really alright, but i wont bore you with it. I'll just curl up and whimper i think... *craves the pain*

That really doesn't sound good. You know if you do want to talk to me then I'm here for you. I won't take sides with anyone, I won't judge anything, and I have the advantage of not being someone you can hurt.

I like IT best, but I just read Firestarter.

Good luck.

dont worry. Im one of the cheerier ones on here most of the time... you might get an idea of whats wrong if you read my entries... or in convos with Yaz that you seem to have already read....

dont worry. Im one of the cheerier ones on here most of the time... you might get an idea of whats wrong if you read my entries... or in convos with Yaz that you seem to have already read....

Hmmm that doesn't make your problems any less important.
I haven't read any of the other conversations. I didn't think that would be very nice.

You sound rather bitter about Yasmin. Are you sure you want to be friends with her?

I thought I would just add for your safety, that I'm not one of those people who has loads of small personnal issues that I have to moan about. I don't moan usually so feel free to unload on me and never expect me to moan about relationships, or anything like that.

x

Its fine - i like to listen so seriously i wouldnt mind if you did start moaning...

I dont find it easy to off load to people. I dont know why. Its abit easier on here because its sort of anonimous - i can get out at anytime and i dont neccessairily have to meet these people just yet.

I'm not bitter at Yaz at all. Sorry if it came across like that. Im never sure how i come across here. Its probably all wrong. Well, it must be coz of the stuff with Yaz...

*whimpers*

awww you poor thing! Don't worry. I just wonder if you really want to be friends with Yasmin is all. I doubt that you come across wrong, and you can't say that an example of that is with Yaz because you really did mean all those things in the way that Yaz took them (at least i think so). I do reckon that if you want to still be friends with her though, it's going to be quite easy to get her back, just takes a little work (contradiction in terms sorry).

You never have to meet me so it's alright. How are you today?
I'm just fine although my parents are jointly being strange against me now all because they're trying to buy new tiles for the kitchen floor. I never knew it could be so much hassle!

Sorry you've probably got lots of things to be dealing with at the moment. I know I just sound like Yasmin's messager kid but I thought you ought to know that she's getting a bit....backwards again. I don't know how long she's been here and whether you knew her back then, but she gets very very angry at nothing and then ends up punching holes in walls and things. She hasn't been like it in a while, but did it last night and had a panic and had to get everyone to talk about lots of nice things. Unfortunately only Sarah and I really realised what was going on.

Sorry just thought you ought to know. I wasn't sure if you've talked to her yet or not.

Are you alright? What's going on in the world?

Aaagh... sorry - ive been on uni trips the last few days so ive only had a chance to post short msgs on here.

No i hadnt spoken to Yaz about that before. She said she had problems simialr tot he self harm thing but she never said what. Ive not spoken to her yet. But what you said made me think maybe i should say something to her sooner. Give her a big hug from me.... and lots of love and kisses.... *worries*

Im geting there. M faith is coming home to me, and ive fixed my guestbook and discovered more peps wanted to talk to me just that my guest book was messed up. So i dont feel so unloved anymore...

Saw my boy yesterday for the first tyme in 2 weeks... im terrified of having sex again now... hmmm

*embarrassed*...

I'll catch the train today and go give her a hug and pepper her with kisses just for you. It only costs me £2 return if I say I'm a child so it's not a problem.
She is starting to run off the rails just a bit.

I'm glad things are starting to look up for you. Although I don't really know you I do care, and want you to be happy.

What sort of protection (a .99 pistol ) have you using with your boy? Or was this a one-off where you didn't use any? Because normally you should be fine, as you know. Sorry I know that doesn't really help reassure you.

My boy's taking me out for dinner tonight! We're going to have Italian.
Oh and the neighbour's cat just wandered in and ate one of my crisps. Now how odd is that?

Awww thank you sweetness… id appreciate that! I hope she knows I still care for her… How would you say she’s run off the rails? Anyway I can help?

Things are ok now. I don’t expect them to stay that way…. But for now I’ll be peachy and perky.

Aagh… the questions get personal! (actually that doesn’t really bother me – I’ll answer things as personal as you like…) Anyway – protection. I cant go on the pill before you ask – history of infertility in the family. I want to get a coil fitted but I’ll do that before uni in a year or so. Now we use the usual – mr. condom and his rubberyness…. Yuck. The thing is – it wasn’t one of those 1 off times… we used a condom. It didn’t split and he didn’t even come * scared of boy’s v potent pre-cum*. It was a miraculous conception… so to speak. Not is a bible way though….. No – im scared coz we were careful before and also coz this has brought back a lot of the fears I had before I was with him. Im not sure I fu read the bit I said to yaz about before. Anyway – im back to being very insecure again. Jumpy wen people touch me and also the guy who messed me around before gets out of jail in one month.

Tell me about ur boy? Age, looks, name, how long you’ve been togev… all the usual? U sed u had a girl… did it overlap?Cats like the salt on crisps… or is it odd that the cat walked in? s rock the world…. Yeyyyyyyyyyy!