h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Not a good sigh...

can i make it a good sigh? ? ? *affection to make all better again*! Remember the of goodness that only you can find in yourself!

Really don't respond well to patronisation or false affection...

its not false or patronising, i just dont know how to show that i really do care without being there to show u...

sorry if it came across like that. I'll curl up quietly now if u want...

I don't know what I want... apart from someone to curl up with, someone to make me think life is worthg living...
All these kisses and cuddles they don't come across as sincere...

Well, i dont know what i can say or do then... i want to help. Believe me i do.

The kisses and cuddles are sincere, maybe im just giving them out to easily and i shouldnt give them as much. but its becasue i care.

Steph will return, I'm sure she will. Just hold on.

I don't believe I'll ever hear from Stephanie again... If she still loved me she would have found a way to let me know what was happening by now...

It just feel like you're trying to use smileys and false affection to "manipulate" me... I don't know how to explain it...

I don't think anyone can care about me... I'm just not worth it... It's why no-one wants to talk to me...

ok - i wont use those smileys so much. I dont want to manipulate u. I dont manipulate people. Its not my way. All that would come from that is grief. I want to be your friend - there for you when you need me. Even if you want me to stop talking to you, i'll still care about u. But i hope that doesnt hapen.

People do want to talk to you sweetheart... i do for one. And so do alot of other people. And the people you liev with must talk to you. WAht are they like?

Chin up love
xxx

Things aren't so friendly at the shared house... I don't really talk to the other tenants that much... Laurna is boring... Hannah isn't friendly and Sean is away... I talk to Paul, my Key worker abit and we get on OK...
I don't really trust anyone that says they are my friend at the moment... Only four people wanted my phone number when I moved a month ago only one has used it and AMy couldn't wait to get off the phone because we really didn't have that much to say to each other...

I'm just a sad and pathetic lonely person that will never have any real friends...
And don't give me 'Chin up'...

What do you want me to say then? I do care, but you wont let me.

'Chin up' is just an annoying thing to have someone say to you, or at least it is for me...
Sorry... I don't think anyone cares as much as they'd like me to think... Or at least not as much as I need someoene to care for me to trust them...

Ok - dont trust me. Thats your own choice. But i respect you, and i hope thats mutual

I'm not worthy of any respect... Though I wish I was... It's not a choice not to trust...

Its not your choice that i respect you, but please dont put yourself down so much.

*sigh*

*worries*

What are you worrying about?

if i'll ever be close to anyone again without crying at really bad times... my boy and i were doing stuff yesterday and i started to cry for no apparent reason...

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