h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

*a deep panther purrr emits itself from her throat, and she jusmps with surprise from making the purrrr*

*Softly strokes the back of her neck*

*starts to cry* x

I was going to ask how you were today...
*Cuddles her and hold her close*
Talk to me hun...

Love and Hugs...

*cuddles back, strong huggle to drown the pain* I feel so lonely and dirty and it still hurts and im still not bleeding. And they think i was gona have twins and my friends are all arguing about crap. I just want to curl up and sleep and never wake up. And i feel so cheap and used. xxx

Nothing to be sorry for my precious... *Holds her so close so she feels warm and safe*
I do understand... I also understand that you had to make a choice and you made the right one for yourself... It's hard and it's painful... You will go on and will get through this... You're not alone, I care and understand hun...

Thank you *feels warmer and safer* Thank you for caring... Everyone seemed so vague with it all. Only one person in RL actually told me i was doing the right thing and that's been hard... Thank you for being here! xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Of course I'm gonna be here and care... no need to thank me... I wish I could do more... You did do the right thing, don't doubt it and keep moving on...

This sounds like a weird thing to get upset abotu. I started to cry twice last ngiht coz... dan has only asked if im ok. He hasnt asked anything about what happened how they did it or anything. I dont think he realises the aftershock or anything, so i feel like im putting up a faceade to protect hiom, and no matter what i do, i cant let it go... *worries*

I don't know Dan, but if he's anything like this must be hurting him to... you implied that Dan thinks you are stronger than you really are, maybe he's putting on facade to protect you too... it something you should really talk about bewfore it tears you both up inside...

*hugs*

So you think i should tell him how its getting to me? I tried to last night... but i started crying instead. Dint make it through the conversation and went.. .(msn) xx

Weldone for trying but yes try again...

I'm going tomorrow so i'm presently trying to right it all down and give him it as a letter before i go. But its hard, coz i dont know how to start... *whimpers*

I hope you enjoy the Isle of Aaron, it's quite beautiful but the midges are vicious...
The letter doesn't have to be a masterpiece just something to get the essence of what you are feeling across...

yep - vicious midges. yeuch

Didnt write the letter. I cant do it. And he wont talk to me about it. I'll expalin more when im abi more up to it. Bt im a zombie right now...

OK Hope you're feeling more alive soon...

I saw daniel yesterday... it was different. Something changed between us. I dont know if its good or bad. He says he doesnt know what to say, and the trouble is i dont either. But it needs to be said. Yes? Aaargh. *worries* xxx

Something needs to be said hun, you mustn't just let it run around your head like this...

Im righting it all down so i can post it as a entry on here. I might give him a copy and see what he says. Should have finished it by thursday...

meanwhile my teachers think i need to call a help line and talk to someone in that way...

its horrible. Ive got pain cravings again and its taking everyounce of strength not to self harm or OD...

you are strong... you are loved... posting it on hootoo is a good idea...
If you want to call someone you can call me, I don't say much but I'm a good listener...