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Life is s**t. And apparently it's my fault...

I'm not in the happiest of moods. In fact, I have some kind of illness, AND I'm incredibly unhappy today on top of it. Nothing to do with anyone but my s**tty life, my s**tty personality, my s**tty head. I can't do certain things, and no one takes any notice of the fact that a lot of time I'm pretty much dead. I hate having to post this, because I hate the attention it brings and the burden it places on people that care (I know you care, but you can't help can you?).And there's nothing I want more than to get out of this life that has been foisted on me. It's not a suicide cry, because there is someone out there that I couldn't possibly cut from me right now. But what I would do for a superhero right now to slice my from this world and take me away from it all. I don't want to live here, I don't want the pathetic excuse for a family I have, I don't want to feel like this. I'm sure this isn't my fault. I'm *so* sure, but when everyone tells me I am lazy and the pressure keeps piling on me...how else am I supposed to feel, what else am I supposed to say, do, react?

Miserable stuff.

understanding

What's up?

Everything. Mainly money problems...in fact, I am actually pretty happy aside from the whole money issue. Can't get a grasp on real life, and it's falling in on me. I feel complete bloody useless because I can't "cope" - if that's the right phrase to use.

I'm sorry, sat. :-\.. I'd say I remember someone.. *cough*.. saying something about circumstances not needing justification, and therefore just being. There seems to be no logic behind a lot of what goes on, we just have to deal with it (), not that that makes dealing with it any easier, more possible, and not that that makes it the individual's fault if he or she finds it hard to deal with anything. .. I'm realising I'm running to recourse I'm not going to find.

Once again, I'm sorry. ..

I now the feeling. I've had the bank screaming at me, lost my job, had my cards taken off me and am in debt. The likely hood of me getting a job I enjoy is minimal and it's so bleeding expensive to live at this side of the country. You're certainly not alone, but sure as hell doesn't help.

Njan, it's nothing to do with our subject in the emails, if that is what you were getting at. It's me and RL.

Im still waiting for that something to happen that I know will that will take me away from everything.

Dammit, I hate it when I click post to early.

But it probably wont. We just have to face it that lives dont flow the way we'd like them too. Which is s**t, tell me about it.

It's mainly that I can't get through the idea of having to sign on. I don't *MIND* doing it. I just...can't. Which makes sense to no one, I know. But I just can't do some things. A lot of things people take for granted, I just can't do. It's mainly because I have no physical support behind me. No stable background. I am a neurotic, white trash b***h that's read too many books...

CAn't say i understand the money thing... But I'm well familuar with the feeling useless... It so often feels that everyone you have to deal with is a b****y idiot and entirely incompetant, or just won't/can't understand you... (present company excluded obviously)... But I'll try to keep clear of giving you any sanctimonious c**p cause as I know that just doesn't help when your feeling like this...

I hate it when people start chucking around the cliches. It's like, my life needs sorting out, there is a constant flow of serious debt around this flat right now, I can't deal with life, love AND my neurosis' all at the same time. People posting crap like "I'm praying for you" makes me want to go on a bender and not come back I don't want to change my life too much. I just want some relief from the pressure and the debt.

SOMEONE GIVE ME A JOB!

Yeah, the cliches can be very annoying.... Well, I gues speople use them for the best of reasons, only they don't have that* effect... Any jobs for you to apply for on the horizon?

I didn't think it was, sat.

My recommendation? Go to Adecco recruitment - they're fairly good. Or Paterson, if you have a paterson in your area.. they're who I use. Reed are also good, if you have one of THEM in your area.. signup for temporary work and they'll test how well you use computers, type, etc, and they'll get back to you with work.. or, you can do what I do and ring them every other day. Gets better results.

The advantage of temporary work is, of course, if you don't like it, most jobs only last a few weeks at most anyway.

*Glad to see he posted something miserable and not something considerate*

Njan, if it was that, then I would have emailed you. As it happens, for *ONCE* it's not. And I suppose I shouldn't be too miserable about everything because of it. But I still am.

As for the rest of it.

Bob, it wasn't miserable. It just wasn't helpful either.

As far as I can see (from my own obviously warped viewpoint) there is nothing I could do. I don't feel like I am good enough for anything. Which everyone is bound to disagree with...

I understand the still feeling miserable about other things.

Why to the rest of it?

Because I panic just at the thought of it. I know *nothing* about doing that kind of thing. Maybe I just come across as knowing about s**t like that. But I haven't got the first clue about getting a job. My parents were pretty much permanently unemployed when I was a kid. No knowledge passed on. Me = dumb as a f**king post.