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isn't it?
Posted May 18, 2005
So you found me
in that place,
that means nothing,
compared to your disgrace
ive moved on,
can't you see that?
you arent my lord and master
any more
no more,
no more!
i dont deserve your scorn
any more!
so you wanted to find peace?
wanted to relax and find your place?
you know i dont want it any more
don't you?
doubt is a bliss you cant despoil
any more
any more!
oh my baby
you tried so hard
it hurts doesn't it?
it is about time isn't it?
adieu adieu parting is such sweet sorrow
take your bile
it is hard to swallow
isn't it?
isn't it?
you don't own me
you don't control me
you don't deserve me
goodbye
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The Beginning of the end
Posted Apr 27, 2005
The first of my finals exams begins in 50 minutes.
Well here goes...
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Latest reply: Apr 27, 2005
My winter how have you come so soon?
Posted Mar 3, 2005
You came to me that night
I still remember
a secret love
we never told
I remember you
silouetted in the moonlight
my heart crashing
against my ribs
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you are a poison
Time, you are a liar
Truth, you are illusive
Instinct, we are one
I looked around
fearful of the sound
of footsteps
outside your door
Downstairs
the voices murmured
you bent down to me
we embraced on the floor
I miss you
I miss the times we had
Memories, you deceive me
Time, I wish that moment had lasted forever
Love, I never forgot that day
Confidence, where are you now?
I remember once we went to the park
walking for hours
in sunlight, providing
a warmth I no longer feel these days
My winter how have you come so soon?
Autumn how did I skip you by?
Summer days I've surely not spent you yet?
Spring dew turns to frost and the plant struggles
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Latest reply: Mar 3, 2005
A few things
Posted Mar 3, 2005
My rose has withered, it will never bloom again, the soil is dry, time has come to die Ayreon
Well that emotional well being and upswing didn't last long did it? Still easy come easy go I suppose.
Well what is there to say?
1)Still on my own
2)Lonely
3)Scared of the future
4)Had a knife pulled on me last week
5)Had 3 gorgeous 17yr olds handcuffed to me for a hefty part of a night
6)Spoken to my supervisor who told me nowt of exceptional use
7)Apparently I'm amiable, genial and shambolic, I've good ideas but I need to communicate them better. Nothing I didn't really know
8)It was a mistake me doing a humanities subject(too late now I guess)
9)I'm not going to do a masters next year as planned
10)I might do it at some other point
11)I've an essay to do and seminar work and no time for a proper relax
12)I'm annoyed with the council for losing my exemption forms again and telling us we've nearly £600 to pay them
13)Holly is coming to stay soon (well last I heard)
14)I really wish I was somewhere else right now
15)I don't know if I can hack it anymorerun run the past is gone, it cannot be undone, run run the future is here, our fate is drawing near Ayreon
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I find it funny
Posted Feb 21, 2005
Everyone keeps asking if I'm on drugs
Is everyone that used to me being such a dark and depressed whinger? Do people think it is impossible for me to have positive emotions without drugs?!?
Oh well
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