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Away for a bit...
Posted Dec 6, 2005
Hmmm not been on here in a while - my friends introduced me to another journal website, where I can fill every corner with my emotions. They think it'll make me happier, because it's like I'm telling someone how I feel, without actually talking! And they can check up on it every so often, just tp make sure I'm not contemplating killing myself etc etc. The latest thing is they think I'm gonna start chucking up my food. Gross! I think anyone that does that is stupid, because it is such a waste of food! Oh yeh, that and the fact that they are killing their teeth! My teeth are too perfect to chuck it up!!!
I think people who want to lose weight should do it properly. Why mess with stopping eating, or throwing it up once it is down? Just get on a proper diet, and do it that way. I have seen what anorexia can do, but some people seem oblivious to it. OK, if you honestly are ill, and it gives you control, then fine, nothing you can do really. But please, something that really does my head in is people who try to lose weight by not eating, when they aren't actually ill! Talk about attention seeking. There are people out there who need the help that doctors give, because they are generqally ill. Those who stop themselves from eating because they can't be bothered, or they are just trying to lose some weight cos they might be a bit tubby are craving attention, nothing more! You can tell who is truely ill - they don't go round saying: "Heehee, I didn't have any lunch today!" Grrrrrrrrrr!!! It has annoyed me for a while. And anyway - stopping eating slows down your matabolism, so you just pile even more weight on. Worth it? I don't think so!!!
You've seen what it can do, it's a big thing. Don't do it if you don't have to. Get a proper diet, get a life and get some sense. Please.
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Bellyflop...
Posted Nov 18, 2005
OK, first of all, it is FREEZING!!! I can hardly type!!!
That out of the way, the whole single, not single, single again situation has been cleared. It turns out that Danny didn't fancy me in the first place, but wanted to like me, because he thinks I am an awesome girl etc etc. Therefore, he thought that flirting with me would help him achieve the feelings for me. Fat chance!!! You can't teach yourself to like someone - it just happens...
And also, I still love Jonathan, so life is screwed up... Danny got it out of me yesterday, and boy, did it hurt when I confessed. I cried so hard...
So yeh, I'm one confused bunny!!!
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Games and forfeits
Posted Nov 11, 2005
OK, my party is coming up soon, and I need party games and forfeits...
Hmmmm...
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Single, Not Single, Oh, wait - lemme check - yup - Single agen!
Posted Nov 5, 2005
Ok, I don't know whether to start with "He asked me out!" or "We split up..."
The reason? Danny, the lad that I fancy the pants off, asked me out yesterday at school! I was so happy, I couldn't stop smiling!!! And then when I was talking to him on MSN, he told me that he did drugs, but he was giving them up, and he has only done them twice. And I believe him.
My darling mother, who read the conversation over my shoulder, does not. And has made me tell Danny I am not allowed to date him, unless we go out in a big group. In other words, she has banned me from goin out with him. So I went from being single, to having a gorgeous boyfriend who I fancy the pants off, to being single again, with the added bonus of a control freak mum! Bloody brilliant!
So, plan of action? I'm not going out with Danny, I am seeing him. In other words, we go out in a big group, and whilst I am with him, we are all over each other as if we are going out, but with no strings attached! It not the best, but I really fancy him!
Mum also said that in a couple of months, if Danny has definately given up the drugs, I can go out with him. So 2 months of "intensive flirting" (hmmm I wonder if that includes him kissing me...) and then hey presto, we are an item. Perfect!!!
It will have to do I suppose...
And Danny is all for the whole "seeing" each other, so I am actually very excited. I have never done anything like this before, and I am so curious to know how it goes... I hope he does kiss me...
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Just about...
Posted Oct 23, 2005
The dreaded month is nearly over. Yes, it is nearly a month since Jonathan dumped me, and it has taken this long to get over it. I think yesterday was my final crying night. Everything just crescendoed insidde of me to a complete maximum... and all spilled out last night. My mum is not helping at all, because she keeps asking if he has contacted me, and when I say no, she keeps rubbing my back and saying "awwwwww..." She says she is being sympathetic but no way is she. It smacks me of sarcasm. Plain blunt lowest form of witt sarcasm. Damn her!!!
So yeah - I think the crying has stopped. Just in time. Because today was the end of our 2 weeks not talking. I'm going to wait and see if he comes online or something to talk to me, because I don't know what to put in a text. Before it was so easy - "I love you so much..." and now it's like "Errrrrm... Hi?"
To top that off, I think something is going on between him and Rachel. She doesn't mention him to me at all, and when I ask her what she is up to, if it involves him she goes really quiet and doesn't say anything. Either they are going out, or she was the cause of him dumping me and she feels guilty now. Hmmmm...
If they are going out, I will flip. What he did was bad enough, but then for her to say yes to them going out - that would be a blow too far. I would kick up such a fuss, and if I ever saw her, or him, I would kill them. Or simply just beat them up. The possibilities are endless. Beating up Jonathan might be hard - he is so tall compared with me, but Rach would be a breeze!
OK, bigheadedness over now. Hmmmm...
Nothing more to say!
Toodlepip!!!
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