h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I think I am going mad.
I thought I understood someone, and what they had said to me, but obviously not.
Now I have a wedding reception to go to on my own. The bride is an old friend, a good friend, whom I have not seen in many years. I do not know her family, or her new friends, or anyone else who will be there this evening.
I will feel isolated and alone.
I had someone to go with, but they have other things to do and I am now all alone. This friend was the only person I am still in contact with that knew the bride as well.
My other friends do not know her at all.

Maybe it is me.

Don't worry, luv. Just a misunderstanding, thats all...unfortunate that it worked out this way though . Hope it won't be too terribly difficult for you, going on your own.

I have chickened out, am not going at all.
Can't face it on my own.

Aww, it wouldn't have been That bad, would it?

The problem is, I have not seen this friend since we finished school 10 years ago.
We sent the occasional card but that's all the contact we had.
I knew her parents by site, but that's all.
Her father has died and so has her mother's mother very recently, so it will be an emotional day for the family anyway. I will know no one else there. I don't want to hassle her mom cause of the emotions she will be feeling and I will be all by myself in this posh hotel sipping a soft drink.
I know she will miss me and be sad I did not go, but I can not force myself to do it.
I was going to get some flowers sent to the hotel with a message, but have decided to take some round to her house after they are back from honeymoon instead.
I know I am pathetic, but I am a little down at the moment.

I am spiteful I spose, it is her day, and I should be there, but..

I should go out and find myself a nice hunky guy and maybe this would cheer me up. He can come with me then to the next one, wont need to rely on other people then.

I am going before I upset some one else reading this entry.

aManda

Manda, sounds like you did the right thing, under the circumstances...proud of you for that *pat on the back*.

& a big too!

Thank You. You are kind.
I feel guilty now, but think it was for the best.

aManda

I'm sorry Mand... It's hard to know what to do when two people are pulling on you for your time and they both mean a lot to you... I sometimes wish I could be more than one person so I could make everyone happy.

Doesn't matter.

hey manda
here's a for you, too.
sounds like a bad situation
i wouldn't have gone either for the same reasons that you didn't.
i wouldn't consider yourself this though


Petey out

Hey peteY, how you been?
Not spoken to you in ages.

i've been ok.
but for the past few days, it's been kind of a downer because when i added traz to my celexa, i felt like it lifted my depression but now ,i seem to hvae slipped back down

I have had a bad couple of days.
Was bad Tuesday and after this mess with my friend, it kind of got worse.
Then today I was meant to be going out but then got let down, so feel a little naff again now.
The gym lifts me temporarily, but that's all it is, temporary.

I feel better for talking to you though.

the gym high is so ephemeral
but glad talking to me makes you a bit more
likewise for me.

i'm sitting at my office now. i have to go thru tons of names and put them in a log. i hate doing repetitive tasks... it just gets on my nerves

I was gonna ask if you were at work at the moment.
Remind me of the time difference between us.
It's 23.10 here now. I am getting tired, but can't be bothered to go to bed yet.

Yes, the gym high is good, but too short lived.
I could have danced out of the gym, but now, although that was only a couple of hours ago, I could curl up in a ball and hide away.



aManda

it's 5:19 pm here
hey, do you ever get really sick of watching tv and just feel BLAH and wish you could DO sometihng to feel more excited?

I rarely watch TV.
I like things like Inspector Morse and things like that, that is about all I watch. oh, and the occasional soap opera.
I spend most of my time on here. (sad I know)