h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Hi Karen,

--do take the pneumonia possibility seriously won't you? Jazz has got it, he's not been a happy at all & the last thing you need is to get sick. (I don't practice what I preach either though, but partly NOT my fault, I'd been incredibly strong, physically AND mentally after coming out of hospital, to the extent was prepared to give it another go, but when I got too knackered packing/unpacking for the 5th time, he saw that as a sign of weakness, dependency etc. & called the whole thing off. (since then I've seen my doc & been officially declared "handicapped"; so no, I'm not bloody well faking it to get sympathy!!)

--good luck with the , I know what it's like! Have you got lambs draped over the radiators to thaw out yet? I found a drop of brandy in the milk bottle sometimes gave the almost dead ones a kick start; though you have to be careful you don't end up with alcoholic lambs!! I had an alcy chicken 'cos of that, rescued her from an icy canal, fed her weetabix & whisky & she got hooked! (great eggs though!)

Take care,
Terri

Hi all, and thanks for the support. It's scary sometimes, but temporarily better. There is a good side to all this, and it is that since he fell in love, my friend has been closer and more giving to me than he had been in the last four months. It's almost as if seeing me leave made him realise that I was somehow valuable to him, and he is a lot more communicative and open.

So, he's seeing somebody else, but in a way I suppose I should be thankful. The crisis is gradually bringing us back together. In twenty years we'll be laughing about this.

Terri...

I am writing a novel loosely based on my experience. I started it in an attempt to distance myself from it and simultaneously give it a better ending Then fiction got the upper hand and characters took over and it's not going exactly as it did in my life; but that's good, because I've already lived my life, and I'm not interested in re-living it again. At the same time, writing about my exes and my friend (albeit in a highly fictionalised way) is both a tribute and very good revenge.

I expect to have good days and bad days, and I expect to be feeling cr*p again from time to time, but I cannot and will not sit around waiting. I've got books to write, must find a publisher, must be famous. I have that potential. I'm not a great writer, but I'm good and I have soul, and that's all that matters. I will live to write and write to live, and cling to it with all my strength.

I'm sorry things are not working out. It's so frustrating. One does everything in one's power to be happy, and it just comes crashing down...

With love and gratitude,
G.

Thats the way it goes Greta, some good days then some not so good, so just make the best of the good ones. Your novel sounds like a good idea, I wrote 29 pages then got stuck? Well it was stuff that I would rather forget really, if you know what I mean. Still Im glad I crammed so much into the first half of my life, coz this second half is dull in compharason.
Smudger.

Yes, the writing is absolutely VITAL for me!! All my life I've escaped into reading & even more into writing about my experiences & feelings about them. It's always been the one area of my life where I've actually succeeded, yet have for some reason resisted doing ti properly. My journal kept me sane in the hospital & I've come out of this with an absolute determination to get the book going; even got the structure planned out, contacted people, wading through research in an orderly way etc. I've even opened a Bank a/c & got the flat proudly stating "writer" as my occupation, rather than being apologetic about it!

--why is there no smiley on hootoo? Nor a smiley?
--I'd have thought these 2 were essential with the kind of people you get on here. Shall I start a campaign?

()Terri

Absolutely. Keep it up, Terri. Writing will keep you alive.

Right now, I fear it won't. I badly need to talk to someone in reality, the bloody shrink hasn't got back to me (I thought you were supposed to be able to trust these people?) & has just returned & I'm expected to sit here & shut up. It doesn't seem to matter what I say, I'll say the wrong thing.

I've sent Karen an email asking for yours, if you'd be willing to let me have your phone number too, I could give you a ring, I think you're the closest geographically to France (got to think about the bills as well)

I just feel I've GOT to let out some of this pain; if I don't cry soon I'm going to lose it completely.

Terri

I am taking an antibiotic now. I also have a urinary infection (graphic. sorry)
Last night we lost four lambs Actually, I had to put one down this morning, because it was really suffering It seems the momma have been having more than they can handle, and just walking away from them One of the younger ones had THREE this morning, and they froze to death I feel bad because I couldn't have been there, but I couldn't get out of bed

Keep your collective chins up, girls We will all manage to get through this

I have to go to the little girl's room, so I will log off now.....
Take care.
Karen

Terri, I don't know if I can help you out of this but I will most definitely try.

Karen... sorry about the lambs. Please take care of your health first, though. Pneumonia and an unrinary infection are not to be taken lightly!

Hi Folks, Think I will bail out on this one, had enough medical terms when I was in the ambulance service and besides Im having more bad days than good ones recently,so Im in no position to offer help when Im down myself I think helping new born lambs would be good theropy for me just now, had enough death. I could go back and try to add to my 29 pages I suppose, but my hearts not in it.
Smudger.

Smudger, mate... what's going on? You really should put your musings in your journal, so your friends could see them straight away. If you put them anywhere else, we won't be able to read them in real time...

What's going on, really?

Hi Greta, Its just that Ive been waiting for 4 yrs. now to settle my claim for my back injury that I got 4 yrs ago. Now it looks like Im going to lose coz they have got better lawyers and more money, and I was told recently that my mobility will worsen with time, so Im just a bit angry, if you know what I mean?
Smudger.

Well, yes. Not nice. Not good. Very disheartening, in fact.
Feeling very unhelpful, unfortunately.

Still not to worry, Im feeling better now, How are things with you these daysI hope, by the way have you read my journals entiies yet? if so, let me know what you think! Its good to have someone to talk to dont you think?
Smudger.

Smudger~
Take heart, Luv.
Although I hate crummy euphemisms, sometimes things seem darkest before the dawn (Now, what fool thought that one up?)
I wish you all could come and experience this "Joy of Lambing" (Almost better than, though not quite, the Joy of Sex)
We now have two pigs that have dropped their milk, and will be whelping in the next couple of days. We'll have to get them seperated from the rest of the bunch, because the boy pigs will eat the new babies
The Momma pigs are not in the best humor right now, either One bit a hole in the seat of my daughter's pants two days ago, so I had to get her a new pair yesterday Found a pair that were originally $65, down to $13, so it wasn't a really big deal.
My car won't start right now. It's too frozen. The other day it was the equivalent of -48c. No wonder I got pneumonia
I have to get back to work right away, but everyone take care. Winter is almost over, and we will be getting on with the new growth of spring soon
Karen

and I thought I had problemssounds like you have got your hands full just now!I will watch out for your next bulliton
Smudger.

*waves to everybody*

*goes to read Murphy's Law*