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Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 7, 2004
hmm... i see we seem to have lost this thread... and as i was about to go and drop you annother lone on your personal space i thought i'd just use this wonderful already existing thread instead...
you're not on right now, obviously, but i wanted to come and have a little chat anyway... althought i dont think i'll get any replies for quite a while...
today was my first day back at school. it was terrible!!! i rally hate school.
i got a fake tatoo at the fair yesterday.. its interesting but as soon as someone sees that they look away.. i mean while i was in town... for example i was in the grocery store and this lady saw my mom and smiled, she saw me and then looked at my arm and her smile immideately dropped... very interesting.
and i had to hasten to re assure my music teacher that it wasnt real.. he was very nic though he didnt say anything.. but i could see himn looking at it... you know?
anyway enough about that.... i didnt come here to complain that no one will smile at me in the grocery store... actually i didnt come to talk to you for any particular reason except that i wanted to talk.
the leaves on the trees outside my window are the most amazing and cheerful green color! they're so pretty... maybe i'l go out and sit in the sun now, and read my book... theres only 2 problems wiht that.. one is that wasps are everywhere, and the other is that i'll get too hot because of all the black...
maybe i'll go and put a little more black ink on my fake tatoo... its starting to come off a little...
anyway... nice talking to you... hope you're having a spiffy day!!!
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 8, 2004
Pity I missed you...
I thought about coming in to uni yesterday, but I knew I'd end up talking to you all day and I /really/ had to write an essay due in on friday... Not that I actually did any work on it anyway 'coz I'm slack, so I really should have just given in to temptation and come online... it would have been heaps better.
And I'm here today as well, instead of doing my essay. It's my fault.
Stupid crappy school. I'm so glad /that's/ over. For me, at least.
I always find it weird when people have that kind of reaction to tattoos. There's nothing wrong with them, as long as they're done nicely. I used to live in a flat where the landlady lived with us too - she was about 56 or so - and her son was one of the flatmates for a while as well. After he got tattooed she was going "Oh WOW! That's so cool dude!", and people said to her that it was weird that she actually liked her son's tattoos, to which she'd reply that if they were really crap designs or badly done or whatever, then she would have hated them. But they weren't, so she like them.
Mind you, she wasn't exactly normal I guess.
I can't imagine why people would care so much what strangers do to their own bodies... it's not as if it affects them in any way... perhaps it's some kind of psychosis that 'normal' people have, in that they want to be more interesting than they are, so they're jealous of anybody who is intrisically more interesting without even trying... dunno.
You don't do in for wearing /light/ black, do you?
You don't have anything in black but a nice light material, in order to sit in the sun under a tree? Like mesh or something?
I have no suggestions for the wasps... I'm going to stick with the flamethrower...
What's the tattoo of?
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 11, 2004
i wish you had come in.. but then agian i'm not sure that i would have been here.... I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!... mostly because it means i'm going to have way less time to talk to you.
i think people react to tatoos that way becasue..ok, how do i explain this properly....? umm... everyones looking for signs, so that they can stay away from the wrong people... and tattoos can be one of them, depending on how careful you're being... and then i suppose my being dressed all in black didnt help.... does that make any sence?
"You don't do in for wearing /light/ black, do you?"
i was thinking abuot that jsut the other day.... actually as i was carrying groceries from the store to the car, in the sun... i mean if goths liked orange then there would be so many other color choices, because orange comes in so many other shades.... but i've got a new pair of grey jeans, that would have been good for sitting in the shade wiht... and no, i dont have any mesh... but that would have been good. i suppose i could have gone out in my bathing suit... but it wasnt that hot.... and as i look back on it now i think that i did go and lay on a mat out there... but it was a bad idea... after a while i smelled this smell of pee, and then i realized it was the mat i was laying on... so i got rid of that fast... it was probably a racoon, or a cat...
but anyway i jsut layed on the grass instead, which was nice.
the tatoo's not of anything in particular.. its jsut a sort of pokey design that goes around my upper left arm. its pretty much faded off now, which is a pity because i wanted to see my uncles reaction when i see him on the 15th, that is if he even decides to come... he moved to china and i havent seen him in 3 years... maybe i'll jsut draw my own on....
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 13, 2004
"...everyones looking for signs, so that they can stay away from the wrong people..." Yeah it's annoying how humans need to pigeonhole everybody based on first impressions... But I figure if someone doesn't like you because you have a tattoo or wear black or whatever, then they're not the kind of person you want to know anyway, right?
"...orange comes in so many other shades..." So does black! Try looking at texture, rather than shade. And most goths will wear something grey or white or silver occasionally, just for contrast...
GrrPee! For a while I had problems with the neighbour's cats peeing in my shoes... it was terrible.
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 13, 2004
cats peeing in your shoes? that'd be really terrible!
"So does black! Try looking at texture, rather than shade. And most goths will wear something grey or white or silver occasionally, just for contrast... "
that sounds liike a very good idea... i'll try that
"then they're not the kind of person you want to know anyway, right?"
yeah i guess you're right, but it makes me kinda sad that people have to be like that...
whoops... i was so intent on replying on this post taht when the phone rang i picked up and said in a deep, monotone, dark sounding kinda of voice... ooops...
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 13, 2004
its ok he didnt seem to creeped out... he jsut asked for my brother... but he was probably wondering why i was laughing...
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 13, 2004
yeah.
i love to laugh..,.
hmm... theres a marry popins soing called that
i love kiddie movies.... actaully it was kinda embarassing.. the otherday my friend came over and we watched all sorts of kiddie movies. and i couldnt help myself singing allong to marry poppims, and a muppet christmas carol...
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 13, 2004
That's okay... a group of my friends and I (all goths) tend to go out into town on wednesdays... we spent three quarters of an hour sitting in a bar, discussing whether the Muppets are cooler than Fraggle Rock!
(They're both up there, but I still reckon Fraggle Rock is slightly higher on the 'cool' meter. )
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 13, 2004
wow! you like fraggle rock too!!!???
i love that show! i've got a bag wiht red on it... and a lot of fragle books! its so great!!!
i love the muppets too... i'm not sure i could decide between the two... but maybe fraggle rock wins by like.1% or something...
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 13, 2004
Fraggle Rock is the /best/!
When I'm rich I'm going to have all of Fraggle Rock on DVD.
And Red Dwarf.
And H2G2.
And the Goodies.
And Dangermouse.
And CSI.
...
A cool party game is to see who can remember the names of all of the main characters from a group; fraggle rock is a good one to use 'coz most people keep getting Gobo and Boober mixed up, so they come up with the name Goober and can't work out which one they're missing!
Also the names of all the Beatles works too... everybody remembers Ringo Starr and John Lennon, but usually not George Harrison or... the other one.
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 13, 2004
wow when i'm rich i'm gonna buy (on dvd)
-anything with muppets
-fragle rock
-red dwarf
-black adder
-star trek tos and tng
-black adder
i've never seen dangermouse... whats it about?
that sounds like a good party game...
oh! yay!!! you're back!!!
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 13, 2004
BlackAdder! Of course! I knew there'd be more that I'd forgotten.
Danger mouse is a really cool cartoon:
http://www.dangermouse.org/
Narrated by David Jason; he's perfect in it. Just like Chris Barrie in Red Dwarf, or Johnny Depp in anything he's ever done.
Check your e-mail!
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 15, 2004
thanks for the email
check yours too... its not the one i was going to send... but i still havnet found the cable... and then i remembered that i had pictures from a year ago from my cousins wedding...
i'll check out the ink later... its time for me to go and get ready for school...joy....
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 17, 2004
ah ha!!!
here we go!
ok. so a coupple of years ago my aunt gave me this necklace for my birthday... and its not really something i'd wear but its al shiney and pretty... anyways i found it last night in a drawer in my bathroom. and i really had to resist the urge to go and poubd it into a million pieces. a few months ago she did something i can never forgive her for. she made my mom cry... and that effects me alot becasue i love my mom so much, and when it comes to her i'm totally empathic. i can almost read her mind... but anyways its a little more complicated than that.... and i dont really want to go too far into it... lets jsut say that she said a lot of very very nasty un true things about my mom to her infront of their parents (who didnt stand up for my mom)... and my mom is still dealing wiht the emotional baggage.... anyways as far as i can see it i can a) smash the neckalce b)give it away c) throw it out or d) keep it.
i dont want to throw the baby out with the bath water... so maybe i shuld keep the necklace and not let it remind me of her...
and i think it'd be immature to smash it... i dont think thats a good idea. at the moment throwing it out appeals to me most. but maybe thats a waste...
i really dont know... typing all this out has helped me sort it out a little. so thanks jerms... i really appreciate your listeneing....
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 17, 2004
It's really no problem at all to listen... besides, I get to find out more about you, and that's all good.
Usually when people want to break some significant object it's not just about what that object means to them, but also it's a means of stress relief, and anger management. I think this is what Psychiatrists call displacement, although I could be wrong... basically you're sensible enough to know that you can't attack your aunt, so you transform the necklace into an inanimate symbol of her instead, which is why you want to break it.
Usually I'd recommend taking up kickboxing as an alternative, and another means of stress-relief. And 'coz it's a really good martial art (one of three I can't properly defend against, using my style of training).
Anyway... to read between the lines of what you said: "...maybe I should keep the necklace and not let it remind me of her..." Well that may not work until you either resolve the conflict with your aunt, or smash it and feel better. Of course 'out of sight, out of mind' also applies here...
"...it's all shiny and pretty..." The fact that you mentioned that makes it important... is it perhaps a metaphor for something else as well? Perhaps 'pretty, shiny' people? Maybe not, but I know there's a good chance /I'd/ feel that way.
My recommendation: Put the necklace away, somewhere where you won't see it for a while (like at least a few months, maybe years). Talk to your mom about it, too. It would probably help the both of you to talk about it.
Ideally, you'll both come to the conclusion that your aunt was having a really bad week, and shouldn't have taken it out on your mum but did, and that way you can both move on. Again, ideally, in a few months you'll be able to take the necklace out and see it for what it is, and not be angry.
Hope that helps.
Remember I'm always available by e-mail, even if I'm not online.
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 17, 2004
hmm.. i think i'll put it away... somewhere safe but far far away... i'd like to burry it in the back garden... but thats not practical.
"Ideally, you'll both come to the conclusion that your aunt was having a really bad week, and shouldn't have taken it out on your mum but did, and that way you can both move on."
hmm... not going to happen.... i never want to see her as long as i live...
umm... ok i'll send you an email aout it.... i've got to go to bed now
"Remember I'm always available by e-mail, even if I'm not online."
you have to be careful if you say that to me.... or you're in danger of having you inbox flooded..... well not really...
anyways i have to be in bed by the time my parents come home or i'm in big trouble.... so i'll send you an email about it... and then hopefully i'll see you sunday at 5:00. i'll be sure i'm here... hopefully you'll be here too...
night
Gub.
Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again. Posted Sep 17, 2004
"...you're in danger of having your inbox flooded..." Yay! I'd like to see you try... I have a 100Mb capacity... plus the filter storage...
Goodnight angel. Sleep well!
Gub.
Arisztid Lugosi Posted Sep 18, 2004
hmm... maybe i will try one day... i'll save it for when i'm feeling sad and you're not here to cheer me up... you sure you dont mind?
i did sleep well. so thank you.
and by the way... i thought about you before i went to sleep. so at any rate that little foreward thing works partially for you at least
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