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Post 41

cinnamon_spider

Define what's wrong. smiley - cuddle


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Post 42

U521150

i dont know! thats part the problem, theres no real reason for it you see, i shouldnt take things like dreams so seriously, i KNOW that, but still the fact remains that i keep on imagining you with someone else and crying and feeling slightly sick.
and since its pointless, it is, the only explanation for it is is that its my mind again, its being dysfunctional and trying to get attention from you, not that i dont get enough already, but if thats the case then i'm SCARED, i am.


did you like the balloon pig?


i just want to have a wholesome loving relationship with you but im getting in the way.
sorry


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Post 43

cinnamon_spider

I loved the balloon pig.
We do have a wholesome loving relationship.
It doesn't matter that you feel that way, it's fine. Honestly, it's fine. I love you.
smiley - kisssmiley - kisssmiley - kisssmiley - kisssmiley - kisssmiley - kiss


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Post 44

U521150

smiley - brave


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Post 45

cinnamon_spider

You're so lovely, "I can't see me loving nobody but you"
smiley - loveblushsmiley - smooch


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Post 46

U521150

*strange, freaky expression on face due to lyrics of most emotive song being used*
*starts crying again.*
I love you too.
*the cryings nicer better this time.*
that song, that song, oh-
I love you so much. I honestly do, I don't know why I get to feel like this badness when I have you right here with me.
smiley - love


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Post 47

cinnamon_spider

How long were you crying for? The bad crying, I mean.

The boy was quite good-looking, but you got him too, and me!
I'm sorry, trying to cheer you rather tastelessly. smiley - cheerup


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Post 48

U521150

About forty minutes, but it took a while to get going.
see, THAT'S WHERE I WAS CONFUSED -
sorry, agitated, *not in that way*, as earnest as Ellie can be-
you didn't say that, it was all innocent and you the narrator was just *thinking* that, we refer to that phrase all the time anyway, but no its not your fault. i didn't understand!
*stomps feet in petulant small tantrum, frustration at self's stupidity, embarrassment,decidedly-not-rainbow-sheep-sheepishness*
I'm sorry, I don't really want to hear about him. smiley - erm
*sigh*
*distracts self*
I'd rather you started liking, Ali for instance! (ooh! Ali! smiley - winkeye Auwrgh auwrgh auwrgh!)


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Post 49

cinnamon_spider

I'm sorry, I should have made it clearer. The smiley - sheep is cute and so are you.
I love you my dear. Have you stopped crying now?
Pectopah. I can't believe Andrew said that.


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Post 50

U521150

can you make it clearer now, I still dont understand...when, what, huh? I DONT GET IT.
I love you too. Darling. (*strange half-smile thing*, slightly Cassie-off-Buffy-like)
Thank you.
I can't believe I liked what he said!
smiley - winkeye


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Post 51

cinnamon_spider

Basically. This dream. I'm sorry I ever mentioned it. I kissed this guy, you came in, were upset, I felt sorry, then the three of us decided it wasn't worth getting upset about and we could all share each other. But in the dream the liason wasn't experienced by me. OK?

The only time you could get me to do that would be with Matt or Lestat. Not Ali. Sorry, but no can do.


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Post 52

cinnamon_spider

I'm so tired, Ellie.
I have to go, I'm sorry. Call if you need anything? Or at least text.
You worry me, my darling.
I love you.
smiley - kiss


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Post 53

U521150

i love you too.
It's okay, there's no need for YOU to be sorry about anything.
I'd like to call you but I probably don't NEED to, I'll leave that up to you.
xxxxsmiley - kisssmiley - smoochsmiley - loveblush


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Post 54

U521150

hello!
how are you?
smiley - kiss


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Post 55

cinnamon_spider

I'm all right but vairy tired, rather too tired to read Blood Canticle. smiley - yawn Ah, it's cool but I don't like Lestat as much! Trauma! I don't know, I just much prefer the style of the other Lestat-narrated ones! What can I do???


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Post 56

U521150

darling, darling, it's okay!
I know, I didn't like it as much either...smiley - wah
And no Louis, it's sooooo traumaticsmiley - winkeyeheh heh heh...
No other vampires except Mona and Quinn and Maharet, for that matter...I prefer it when Lestat's got someone else to 'react to'. If you know what I'm sayin'!!!
Heh heh heh.
Poor baby, here have some of my (meager stores of) energy. (I fell asleep on the bus, was so tired smiley - sleepy, but am more awake now. Have some energy!
Look what you do to me:
Me----->smiley - sadface...................You------> smiley - magic
Turns to:
Me----->smiley - smiley---->.......smiley - run...........smiley - magic
Then:
...............................................smiley - smooch
smiley - lovesmiley - lovesmiley - lovesmiley - lovesmiley - love!!!!
I love you.
(how nauseating!)


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Post 57

cinnamon_spider

I, er, see.
I love you too, if that's what you're saying.
Why heh heh about no Louis? Poor Louis! Yes, the thing is I don't find Rowan, Michael, Mona etc as compelling as the other ones, like David etc.
I bet you'd like to compell Lestat if you know what I mean!!


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Post 58

U521150

smiley - winkeye
heh heh heh about remembering the bits...i'm interested in about Lestat and Louis, if you know what I mean!
I agree, they're not that interesting. Perhaps if we had read *Lasher* etc, the other Mayfair books...that or they're just not as interesting.
Tonight, Spike episode! Buffy's just found out he's eating people. Ah, in this one he cries at the end! You've got to watch it! Poor Spike!
What would you do if Spike turned up in the next Anne Rice novel? smiley - biggrin
I do love you, that is what I'm sayin'!
You see?
Glacier!
Doesn't work that way. Hmm.
smiley - kiss


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Post 59

cinnamon_spider

If Spike turned up... I would be confused.
Interested?? But Lestat/Louis isn't that dubious... it's back in the days when physical vampire contact wasn't nice that they have their relationship.
Dad's on a mind/body/spirit kick, he wants me to go swimming! Ach!


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Post 60

U521150

Poor thing! You can come to Sidmouth to go swimming, I want to see you in a swimsuit...smiley - tongueout (that's me drooling, by the way...)
True, it isn't that dubious.
Mmm, spike topless in leather trousers! I'll show it to you some day.
(You're more lust inducing than even Spike. Arhhhhrahhrh, your body. Mmm-mmm.)


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