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My bad accident
Posted May 20, 2005
Yesterday at 17.11 I was sitting in stationary traffic in the main road into Plymouth town centre from the suburb where I live. As I waited and chatted to my passenger and car plowed into the back of me at pace.
He hit so hard that despite having the hand brake on I collided into the vehicle in front so hard he almost hit the car in front of him.
I ended up spening two hours in various abulances and police cars whilst all the details were taken, and it looks like I have got whiplash. Didn't manage to sleep last night much, once the Ibuprofen wore off.
Also got back to find the Eds had banned Hoo but not Della over the DW fiasco.
Hmmmm....
I have to say that for the first time ever I dont think much at all of our TPTB, to say the least.
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Latest reply: May 20, 2005
Quitting uni again..... two time looser....
Posted May 17, 2005
Hmmm... some of you might remember me last year lamenting my failure to complete my second year at Uni and having to retake the whole year.
Whilst this has not been such a spetacular failure (I am pretty sure I have passed everything, just not very well) I have been forced to seriously re-evalutate my life. And consequently I wanted to post here as a way of just writing my thoughts down.
Three years ago I decided to go back to university after being pretty low for a while. I acutly disliked my job and felt very underpaid, I had no direction and no real idea about what I wanted to do with myself. Then on a fateful night in July I watched "Groundhog Day" and came to the conclusion that my life had effectivly become just like groundhog day.
I decided I needed some focus and direction in my life, and I noted that the only thing at work that gave me any satisfaction was training. I decided to go to uni and then train as a teacher. I realise now that this was slightly clutching at straws, as looking back being a secondary school teacher does not really appeal to me.
So I went back to uni, went part time at work and moved to the evening shift. Now little did I know it but this process was to answer my prayers as it were.
I had been involved with the trade union at work pretty much since I joined. I was on the workplace commitee and I also served (with limited succes it has to be said) as the Political Officer. Shortly after I moved to evenings the decision was taken to massivly expand the shift by recruiting up to 200 people. It was decided that the evening shift would need its own shop steward and I got the job.
And I love being a union rep, I passionatly belive in what I do, I get to help people every day. I get to feel self important and be the centre of attention 
I actually look forward to going to work pretty much every day.
In the meantime I started at University, and started very well. With the enthusiasm of someone throwing themselves into something new and interesting I did really, really well. In semester one I averaged comfortably over 70% (1st mark) in everything and was top of the year in almost all the modules I took. Semester two was not quite the success but I still did very well indeed, getting special commendation from my personal tutor, who started badgering me about my post graduate plans.
The trouble is even by the end of the first year I was rapidly loosing interest. Sure I was still interested in politics and still am, but not so intersted that I wanted to spend 20+ hours a week reading and writing about it. And as my interest in uni declined my interst in my work increased. Dramatically.
Over the first summer holidays I went full time and really enjoyed what I had to do. By the time I came back to uni in september I had basically lost interest.
In addition to this I had some pretty bad personal problems, I was badly in debt (I had not really reckoned on the financial implications of someone living alone in a flat attending uni whilst only working part time). The combination of my personal problems and my lack of interest in uni made me fail the second year. Pretty much completely. The misery at uni and home was in stark contrast to the fact that for the first time I was really enjoying my work.
At this stage another factor had come into play as well, the pay and conditions at my work had substantially improved, my salary had gone up by nearly £4000 a year and I was now able to take 6 weeks a year paid holiday plus bank holidays.
I think I made a really big howler by going back to uni. If the truth be told I *knew* I didn't want to and I wasn't interested but I was basically so afraid of dissapointing my family that I managed to convince myself that going back was what I really wanted, the truth is it wasn't all I had done was saddle myself with loads of debt.
I realise now exactly what I want to do with my life, I want to get fully accredited as a union rep (and equivilant qualification to a national diploma), then either serve as a national elected officer for the TU or get a job working for it. My long term goal is to work for the TUC and be invloved in training reps. Not only is my degree not helping me to do this it is activly getting in the way.
Because of college I could't go on any residential training courses, and I think the branch was a bit reluctant to pay for me anyhow given that I told them I was leaving when I graduated. It meant I couldn't go for any branch level positions I might want to do to improve my standing and gain experince.
I have decided that the best thing for me to do is go with my heart and do what I think is right and not worry about dissapointing others. I am 25 and it is my life, no point in being unhappy, getting another 6 grand of debt and ending up with a lousy third rate degree because I am not interested.
I have made sure I passed the year this time, so at least I have two years worth of credits in case I want to finish the dgree at OU later on, but for now what I want to do with my career.
hmm that feels good.
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Latest reply: May 17, 2005
My First Googlewhack!!
Posted Apr 20, 2005
Hooray!
As a consequence of my illness and resulting boredom I have discovered today my first ever Googlewhack.
"Grokster Synovial"
I am delighted! I saw "Dave Gormans Googlewhack Adventure" DVD on my desk and it prompted me to have a bash and after half an hour I got it. Wicked.
For the record I *highly* reccomend said mentioned DVD it is tres amusing.
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Latest reply: Apr 20, 2005
Ill, again god damn it....
Posted Apr 19, 2005
Once again I have succombed to the frailty of my rubbish constitution and I am once again really ill... boo.
I am stupidly bored with all my computer games so I went to Waterstones and purchased an Umberto Echo (I think?) book reccomended by Azahar and the LA Confidential books (the ones about Dudley Smith) reccomended by someone in Blickys "Why Should I?" thread.
I am really effing bored.... Being ill sucks.
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Latest reply: Apr 19, 2005
God Damn I am stupidly pissed...
Posted Apr 9, 2005
And I have to get early early for football tomorrow. Sh*t....
F*ck....
Hangover alert....
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Latest reply: Apr 9, 2005
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