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Lua

Post 61

azahar

Lady, smiley - cuddle

You still don't know that they won't be able to get it all, so there is still hope. When will they be able to tell you?

Well, I know I'd be crying too. Either that or frozen solid. So I don't know what else to say right now except I hope Jake pulls through and I'm here if you want to talk (or will be here off and on).

az


Lua

Post 62

Kaz

Lady in a Tree, so sorry about what is going on with you and Jake. When Fluffy the hamster died, I cried for days, we finally threw some of her old wooden toys in the undergrowth yesterday and I cried again. Its been two months now, and not many people understand so much grief over a hamster. I know you have cats so much longer and that you can develop such a close relationship that what you are facing must be terrifying.

Try and be calm and send loving thoughts to Jake, like the spell az said which was beautiful. Close your eyes if you can and imagine him there healthy and playing. smiley - cuddle


Lua

Post 63

Lady in a tree

He's gone. My baby has gone from me. They found so much cancer in his tummy and it had spread. They said it wouldnt be fair to wake him up. Oh god it hurts so much. I loved him so much and now I'll never see him again. Thank yuo all for all the support. I hope all is fine with Lua. Just make sure you hold her if she lets you and tell her you love her. I said goodbye to my boy this morning and sort of already knew I was never going to see him again. Bryan has gone round to the vet now to say goodbye. I couldnt go. I want to remember him alive. I have asked him to give him a big kiss from me. I hope someone held him as he went to sleep.I dont know what to do with myself. I am on here rambling because I am now on my own - CHarlie (Jakes brother) ran away from all my crying and wailing. He got scared. Im sure he'll be back soon. He wont know where Jake is. I think we are all going to miss him so much. I'm going to stop writing now and go and have a lie down. I feel very tired now.


Lua

Post 64

logicus tracticus philosophicus

Charlie will know,but give him extra hugssmiley - loveits good for both of you. from henry.


Lua

Post 65

logicus tracticus philosophicus

Yes some one would have held him as he went to sleep.smiley - ok


Lua

Post 66

Coniraya

I am so sorry, Lady in a Tree. But he is now out of pain and he had enjoyed a loving home.

Charlie is going to be confused at the absence of Jake, so do your best to give him lots of attention.

smiley - hug


Lua

Post 67

Fathom


I'm so sorry, Lady in a Tree. My heart goes out to you.
smiley - hug

F


Lua

Post 68

pheloxi | is it time to wear a hat? |

smiley - hug lady in a tree


Lua

Post 69

Gone again

I lost my dog just over a year ago, and her surviving 'brother' is getting older all the time.... You'll feel very lonely for a while, Lady in a Tree, but it will pass. You don't forget, of course, but you can/do come to give thanks for the time you spent together, instead of focussing on the time your family member departed. smiley - hug

Pattern-chaser

"Who cares, wins"


Lua

Post 70

Kaz

So sorry Lady

I hope you are getting big cuddles from Charlie. Talk to him and cry with him. It will get better I promise. smiley - cuddle


Lua

Post 71

azahar

Lady

smiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddlesmiley - cuddle

az


Lua

Post 72

Ivan the Terribly Average

Lady and az - one each:

smiley - hugsmiley - hug

More available if needed, of course. smiley - rose

Ivan.


Lua

Post 73

Lady in a tree

All of you - thank you. My heart is breaking and I dont know what to do with myself. I lost my boy at 2 this afternoon and I still cant believe that he is gone. I have just looked at some pictures I took of him last week. He was so alive. He didnt show any signs of his illness until this weekend when he stopped eating and slept next to my computer all day and night. I thought he was down in the dumps. I was going to take him in to see the vet today anyway. I didn't know how bad it was.

Charlie is looking for him already. He won't come up onto my desk at all - I think he must be able to smell Jake there still - perhaps he smelt his illness and is afraid of it. I keep looking round expecting to see Jake lying next to me but he's not there. Charlie has had lots of cuddles - perhaps more than he would like to be honest. He doesn't understand why mummy keeps making his fur wet. smiley - cry

Thanks for all the kind words and hugs. They mean alot to me. I just wish I could hug my boy again. But I know I can't. I will come back every day to say hello and find out about Lua. I wish upon the star in heaven that is my Jake that your girl will be ok.

I may cry some more tonight. I think there are more tears inside that need to come out still.


Lua

Post 74

azahar

hi Lady,

I see you are online right now. How are you feeling today? smiley - smooch

I'm still very nervous about what I'll find out at the vet's tomorrow.

Meanwhile, I'm trying to stay as optimistic as I can.

And meanwhile, I hope you are able focus more on the good times you had with Jake and appreciate that you still have Charlie. Believe me, my heart is with you right now.

smiley - love

az


Lua

Post 75

Kaz

smiley - love to Lady and az, thinking of you both.

I hope az has some good news tomorrow.

Lady, just keep going, as much as you can. I did smile when you said about making Charlies fur wet, think how clean he will be. Be kind to yourself smiley - cuddle


Lua

Post 76

Lady in a tree

smiley - cuddle everyone.

Today is another day. It is the first day without my boy. Bryan said that he had a moment this morning when he woke up where he thought he had had a bad dream and then remembered it was all real. I woke up at 2am and cried some more. I have cried so much that my voice has gone. I went back to sleep eventually but when I was woken by Charlie asking for his breakfast it really hit home that it was only him and not the two of them nagging for food.

Today I just feel very numb. I have to keep telling myself that he isn't coming home. I got the courage to phone the vet and talk to the nurse that held him. She was lovely. She said that he was already asleep from the anaesthetic but they closed him up and took the tubes out of his mouth first so that he could die with dignity. He is staying with the vet until Thursday and then will be going for a private cremation. We will get his ashes back next week.

I want your news to be good tomorrow az. I couldn't bear the thought of you going through this. I am so grateful that I found your journal when I did. You have all helped me through this - you probably don't know how much.

Charlie is asleep on the bed right now and Bryan is out and I can feel Jakes absence like a knife in my heart. I knew that I had to come here and write - to be with virtual strangers that have become vitrual friends helping me through my grief. It is more of a help than I ever thought it could be. Thank you all again.

smiley - love


Lua

Post 77

Kaz

smiley - cuddle Lady in a tree


Lua

Post 78

Coniraya

smiley - cuddle from me too.


Lua

Post 79

logicus tracticus philosophicus

Keeping fingers crossed,whats going to be frustrateing is bet you the "shut down of servers" tonight 00:00 gmt " for whatever reason will probhably delay the news.smiley - lovesmiley - cat


Lua

Post 80

Mudhooks: ,,, busier than a one-legged man in an ass-kicking contest...

Here is a smiley - cuddlefrom me, too.


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