h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

well a couple of people knew I liked her, because I needed help to get to her of course, and turns out one of them was a bit of a blabbermouth...

Don't go back to the cutting thing.

I think not knowing what you want might be a bit of a problem. First thing is definitely to work that out. Once you know what you're aiming for, then you can start working out how to get the best out of the situation.

Keep on trucking

D*mn the blabbermouths. It happens my friend and a right bummer that is. moo.

Havent gone back to the self harm. i cracked a couple weeks back, but everyones allowed one crack right? I finally managed to cry last night so that helped abit. Went to bed and broke down listening to the Acid Song (Loudin Wainwright III)

I've never known what i want. Im not used to thinking about it, coz after all if what i want is the other person and they dont want me then i end up wondering whats wrong with me and feeling even worse. Which is why i will never be totally sure if me and dan were togev coz i felt wanted or coz i fancied him. So i dont pin my hopes on anyone. Did that make sense?

Cracking isn't a huge problem if you can keep the right attitude.

I think I see what you're saying. Its nice to know someone wants you and will be there for a good snuggle when you need it. Yet you can't be dependent on someone. Even if they want you to its not a good idea.

I would say...try to view it as the icing on the cake rather than something you absolutely need.

lol. well ive had monty python on repeat and the dead skunk song too so ive kept above water a little. hee hee

Grrr. this is abit depressing isnt it! Its like my endless pursuit for a bloke who's taller than me and doesnt weigh 3 stone less than me. lol. Now thats surprisingly tricky, lol.

Anyway - me and matt are meeting after school today so we can talk. He wants to forgive his b*tch (sorry ex-gf) and get back with her. If that happens then our friendship will end when i go to uni. I dont want that. But we cant stay friends if he's with her, i realise that. I dont want to go on having him lie about being friends with me. Now this has happened, im not a lie anymore and thats great.

What did she do that meant they split up? It sounds like he's in much more of a mess than you at the moment.

Well I don't know how much 3 stone less than you is, but I think I have to make a stand for skinny guys. Go skinny guys! There we go...did I mention I'm only just over 9 stone? Ugh.

Spontaneous affection

that was just what i needed. thanks.

She cheated on him with a dude called whitey... with a horrendous coke habit and generally thats it. Strange as it seems, he seems ok at teh moment. He was worse during the week and on friday he seemed his normal chirpy self. lol.

Hmmm just over 9 stone you can get away with. Im a stone heavier than you then. But aiming to lose it. There was a bloke a few weeks ago who was 8 and a half stone. Nuff said. Made me feel well miserable.

If you're a stone heavier than me then that probably makes you about right. My BMI is 17.0, the normal range is 20 to 25 for males, 18.5 to 25 for females. Assuming you're bigger than 5'3, you definitely don't need to lose weight.


You know you'll cut yourself again? The things people think they know can be very dangerous.

Make a conscious, deliberate decision not to be a victim. Don't make excuses to yourself, don't tell yourself its inevitable. Obviously it isn't because you're in control of and responsible for your own actions.

You should probably get rid of those knives of yours too.

Come, we'll do this together: I'll give up wanking for as long as you still feel tempted to cut yourself . Fair deal?

Hang in there .

Before I forget...

My BMI is 23.6 still too high for my liking. It cheered me up abit, but still it worries me abit the thought of being trapped in bed with a guy who's bones id break if i was on top of him and who bounces of me if he's on top. lol. that made you smile didnt it??

Getting rid of blades will never help coz you just find other ways to hurt. like burning, OD, even pinching yourself and thinks like that.

You make me laugh. Thats an incentive not to give up again hun - coz im vicious and i think it would be funny to deprive you of your male survival. lol.

But, but, but you're right near the middle of the range...

Sorry I should've phrased it better, it only lasts for as long as you're making the effort not to hurt yourself.

"We each have the potential to be our own saviour, or our own worst enemy".

lol... near the middle yeah, but its depressing coz im the tallest of all m friends with the biggest boobs and so weigh the most. Its well depressing. So i spose thats why. Dratted peer pressure. Same for you i guess, just the other way round.

What only lasts that long? If i dont hurt myself you'll give up certain activities??? How long for? Lol. you're sweet. I want one of you to take to my ball!

What was that from!?

How long for, well start with a month and we'll review it then. Are you up for the challenge? I've already been going two days .

I don't know where the quote was from, I wanted to say something along those lines and then it came to me. Must be soemthing from a long time ago.

lol. Well... I've not harmed since Tuesday, so ok... a month... keep me posted. I dont think you can do it! haha! lol. Deary mer this is gona end up like 40days and 40 nights...

That's 3 days . 10%...

Thinking about it I haven't gone a month without since I started all those years ago.

4 days...

6 days and still holding out.

Urgh, why did I suggest this? I am an idiot sometimes.

Woo, I've managed a whole week. You still keeping up your end?

Sorry hun. Did you get my email. Hootoo hasnt been letting me on. But im here now. Well done! I dont think ive given up what you've given up for more than a week since i started either... lol. Actuallyyeah i did when i had my termination, but aside from that... anyway - i havent harmed since last tuesday which would make it a week and a half!!! Also , maybe you can help me get round this. I dont feel sexy anymore and it gets me down and that must sound so stupid. But I mean i dont get turned on or anything and i feel... i duno. Sorry i'll stop whinging. Howa re the exams?? are you brilliant as ever?

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