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Post 1

tanzen

The first person I ever told I suffered from depression was my boss.

I told him because he told me off for making phone calls. I told him sometimes I needed to talk to friendly people to feel better.

He went and dobbed on me to the next boss up.

It occurs to me now that my boss probably isn't so nice.


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Post 2

Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again.

Yeah I think you might be right there.
smiley - hug Be strong mate, and have the courage to stand up for the right to be treated with dignity and respect... and that right does /not/ involve getting in trouble for making a damn phone call.

smiley - smooch

BTW why are you still online? I hope you're at home, at least. smiley - erm


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Post 3

tanzen

Yeah, he's not a big concern of mine before.

It's just funny to spend *years* not telling anyone, because you're worried about stigma or backlash, then you finally tell someone...and all you get is stigma and backlash smiley - laugh

Since then (all those months ago) I figure it's best to just be as artless about it as possible...if other people have a problem about it, they can go see my doctor smiley - winkeye

W**k's just finished mate...now I'm just waiting for Mum to give me a lift home smiley - cheers


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Post 4

Jerms - a Brief flicker and then gone again.

The biggest pity is that depression is seen to be more contagious than it really is; it hinders people from offering the help that would get rid of it so well. smiley - erm

I'm off in a second too. Yay my program's finished! Well... finished enough.

smiley - ok
Night! smiley - kiss


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Post 5

tanzen

I love it how he won't even really talk to me any more, like he's scared I'll break or something...he used to have a go at me all the time before that smiley - roflsmiley - rofl

Congrats on finishing your program smiley - somersault! The Boy programs...it's all greek to me...smiley - erm


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Post 6

Ivan the Terribly Average

This seems a good moment to mention that I have the depression thing happening too... I'm a big fan of the little white pills the doctor has given me - I'd sooner not be taking them, but I can definitely feel the difference.


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Post 7

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

I'm lucky that my boss has a husband who suffers from clinical depression and is on incapacity benefit so she has some understanding of the problem


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Post 8

tanzen

I have a bright shiny new prescription that I have left unfilled for the last two months or so...part of me would rather be sad and aware of it...the stuff he's put me on in the past has done my head in too much smiley - erm


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Post 9

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

I've given up on the anti-depressants I've been prescribed as I couldn't notice any effect they were having (and neither could anyone else). Given my bouts of depression usually occur between October-March I may well have SAD anyway which isn't treatable with anti-depressants. All I need now is to get a smiley - doctor to agree with my diagnosis.


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Post 10

Ivan the Terribly Average

My pills (a cheap rip-off of Prozac, chemically) have stopped me being miserable all the time - now I'm just miserable at w*rk, where everybody else is in the same boat... The deal with my smiley - doctor is that I'll stay on the pills for a year, or until I get another job, whichever happens first.


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Post 11

tanzen

Well with any book I read, I will give it to half way, toil through it if I have to, but it has to take me the rest of the way itself (there's only one book I haven't finished using this process, so I consider it a good one smiley - ok).

Similarly with pills, I will give them a month to kick in, but if, in the 5th week, I can feel no change, I will give them away...

...the last lot he gave me kind of turned me off for good...I had terrible nightmares, messed up sleeping patterns, and was obviously more edgy and anxious during the day...which is why I am loathe to fill in this new prescription...

What I *need* to do is find my old family doctor...I think he'd be able to help me smiley - smiley


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Post 12

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

thats the thing
with most of them you have to be on them a while before they have any effect and I have rarely managed a week without missing a day or 2, organised I'm not, so the smiley - doctor could've got the right 1s for me, who knows smiley - erm


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Post 13

tanzen

Ahhh...what is it they say about misery loving company smiley - laugh

Oh well...smiley - musicalnote as long as we've got each other...smiley - musicalnote

smiley - cuddlesmiley - smooch

(I'm singing theme songs from 80s shows...I think I need a smiley - coffeesmiley - laugh)


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Post 14

Arisztid Lugosi

smiley - cuddlesmiley - smooch
well... we all love you tanzen!


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Post 15

tanzen

And I love you guys too smiley - cuddlesmiley - smooch

*still can't get that song out of my head though smiley - laugh*


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Post 16

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

hiya Arisztid smiley - smiley
*glad he doesn't know that song*


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Post 17

Arisztid Lugosi

hey bc!smiley - hug
whats hip and happenin'?smiley - cool


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Post 18

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

smiley - erm you're asking me this smiley - laugh


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Post 19

Arisztid Lugosi

of course....

wellsmiley - erm...perhaps i'll ask tanzen...


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Post 20

Blackberry Cat , if one wishes to remain an individual in the midst of the teeming multitudes, one must make oneself grotesque

smiley - ok you're welcome to try but Tanzen has a very individual opinion of whats smiley - coolsmiley - winkeye


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