h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm glad the clock hands will fit in with whatever idea you've been pondering for a while. I'll see what other kinds of goodies I can sitck in the package.

I will wait to post the CDs, cassettes, and clock hands until after the first of July, then, because if I sent them now, they *might* not get there before the first. Better to wait till I know you'll be around to get them. Just let me know around the first if it's safe to post the package(s) or not!

Abbi, I have set aside copies of Opal, and also of K's band Tuffy UK. If you want them, for when you have your CD player reinstated.

Also have CDs ready to go off to Kaz and Moonglum.

Haven't heard anything job-related since I inquired of the lady from Field Trip Factory and of my staffing agent. But I'm still hopeful. Who knows if either of them was even in the office yesyerday or not?

Had a *really* bad asthma attack last night, it was embarrassing because we had a visitor and I hate making a fuss in front of other people. K ran out and got me a brand new inhaler (just in case the old one was getting near the end, the medicine can be a lot less concentrated then), and I feel much better today.

Taking it easy this morning, getting ready to list some graphic novels of K's and some CDs and stuff of mine I don't need on eBay, make some coffee, and ponder some song titles for Azahar's "most depressing song" thread. You know me, the more obscure, the better...

OOh, i didn't know about that thread; where is it? I've got a great one, any song that begins:

"Well, my dog died this morning & left me all alone

The finance company dropped by today & reposessed my home


...and continues with all such fun stuff, ending in "and I'm down to seeds & stems again too!"

has to be a prime contender i would think.

zdt

*sigh*

Me can't do beaches type stuff.Me tried.

Me refuse to put up with verbal bullying; despite understanding prime cause of vile mood, which isn't my fault.

Me has limits.

Me thinks me has reached them.

Me not be french shrink.

Me cannot be accused of not trying my best.

Me be very sad.

Methinks me move on; me be very fed up.

Sorry for all the ME but i have been rather overdosing on YOU for a while; not "you lot" but RL "you", hey, maybe that is ???

zdt

YE GODS!!! Literally. It's not often i am shocked, but this did the trick.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/4107524.stm

Er...which century are we supposed to be in?

RIP

zdt

(both your posts)
That is harsh ( both posts)

So sorry not to open your last 2 emails Terri.
I want to but there are attachments on them
You always say not to if they have attachments because you do not send them I have gotten some nasty viruses through them by not listening.

Sorry things are sounding worse than before.
Although not quite as bad as the nuns situation!
I hope you are sorta OK

Abbi, you can always copy an attachment to a folder and then scan it with anti-virus before opening. I constantly tell my mates, scan any attachment, even from people you know..better safe than sorry.

Sorry that the beach plan has not worked and you are fed-up.

The num story is horrific, so many think that symptoms are a sign of demons. In London 300 African boys between the ages of 7 and 11 have gone missing in 3 months. 2 have now been found, but it is believed that many may have been killed in extreme christian cults which are developing here. Yes this is the 21st century, hard to believe, and hard to believe its happening in London.

Yes, i saw a television programme about one poor kid who was eventually fished out of the river in sections....how gruesome. Let's hope he was dead before they started chopping him up...but somehow i doubt it.

Horrible dreams after i eventually staggered off to bed, all death & destruction, at one point i was bleeding to death (which has happened in the past, though luckily i have repressed most of the memories of what led up to it)

So feeling very drained today. Didn't eat yesterday either, apart from a few nacho chips. I will probably go back to bed i think. i have told ACP that the *only* way this is going to get sorted is for one of us to be strong & stick to our resolve; since he obviously can't manage this, it will have to be me. All i can do now is ignore him if he texts or phones, difficult if he actually appears though.

I need a break away from here. I will carry on investigating house swaps in Ireland. Maybe i will phone my good mate Paul (Irish musician), he might know of someone who could do with a break in sunny France; it's actually a good deal i am offering; i only want them to pay their share of utilities they use, plus insurance. Genuine tourists round here pay a fortune for accomodation at this time of year. But they have to look after Yoda & the plants.

zdt

Lady Pennywhistle, I picked up a shiny new Chicago postcard while doing my shopping yesterday, and will send it out soon.

Terri, I think you are absolutely right in your "Me" posting. You've gone above and beyond in your efforts to be "compromising", but you can't continue to compromise your own needs and happiness.

I still think getting out of France (even if only for a while) is a bit extreme, but it is a small town you live in, and maybe it would drive the point home to a lot of people there that you're sick of playing shrink/mommie/nursemaid/housemaid/chef for everyone when they're not showing any gratitude or giving *anything* in return.

PS- Yes, IGNORE HIM!!

Terri

Animal I recognise all the words but haven't the slightest idea of how to do that It took me forever to learn copy and paste.

Sounds like an excellant idea to do all attachements , even those from you Manimal.

I will look around and see if I can figure it out.
I usually need to be shown in person, several times
I still don't understand the difference between folder -file-document. I can recite what I have learned the loooooong hard way , like the real player.

I love the video aspect , saves on reading some things so I kept at it - for months. I am very stubborn, that's both a plus and a minus about me.
All in the balance
*endlessly working on it*

<<< I am very stubborn, that's both a plus and a minus about me. >>>

Join the club, abbi, join the club!!!

It's a large part of this current situation that both me & viking have stubbornness down to a fine art; the difference is; for me, i find it impossible to believe you can be in love with two people at the same time; Love people, yes, be "in love", no. And i just can't be doing with selfish stuff; hell, i get incredibly down at times *but* if a dear friend arrived asking me for help; i would drop everything, including my own probs & try & do so. Call me soft, call me stupid, but i would.

He knows this, which is why he desperately wants me to continue to be his "best friend"; but i honestly don't think this will work; we lasted two days last time before it became a total joke. It's all or nothing, and the fact he has to accept is that i have a handicap which makes beach stuff bloody impossible, i cannot make that go away; either he accepts the true Terri or goes back to The Ex and finally commits to her (ie: doesn't see me) or accepts celibacy (impossible it seems) or finds someone else (he seems to fondly believe there is a waiting list; he may be proved sadly wrong!)

I want my bicycle back, so have to text him on this; i suggested he drop it off Wednesday, when we both have appointments with social workers (that is gonna be a heap of laughs, ignoring each other in the waiting room at 9am, thank god, i have Patrick with me for moral support) but no, he insists Tuesday 5pm; presumably he has finished the tryst with The Ex by then.

The ridiculous thing is, i have just as great a need to get out of this place as he does, if he would only compromise a little so that it could be to places & situations i can handle, we could probably have a reasonable time. But he won't. It's sweltering crowded Spanish beach or nothing. No doubt he and The Ex are even as we squeak plotting how much suntan lotion to take.

*or she is giving him s**t for texting me*

Personally i think he should just take off on his own & switch the mobile off, but he won't 'cos of his kids. He could change the number if he is really serious though & just inform the family couldn't he? i assume this is technically possible?

God, i just really really want to get away, but refuse to abandon Yoda & plants, plus still don't know when the renovations are supposed to be happening, i was told "springtime"; er, it's mid june & baking hot, france closes down in July & August.....i have sent emails to landlady, phoned her "i am en route back from Poland" how much did that cost me???, she hasn't phoned me back.

zdt*feeling messed about by just about everyone in RL*

Just seen a post from Websailor, with a link to some vey good quotes, i really like these:

<<>>

*sigh* so often the borderline between trying to be a sincerely good person and wondering if you are being used as a doormat is a very fine one; i certainly haven't got it right & probably never will! But all in all, i would rather err on the side of trying to be as good as i can be; if i end up getting used, OK, at least i don't have to feel bad conscience wise, i did my best; i was maybe too trusting in other folk's innate goodness, but hell there are worse crimes; read the news any day of the week!

*example* which you will all go at!

Viking texted just then to say "are you going to invite me to eat with you on Tuesday when i bring the bike back?"

The nasty answer would be "you have GOT to be kidding sunshine, sod off!" but i said "if you want, Ok; you still have sausages here which need eating, but the melon i bought for yesterday will be dead!"

I could see this message in two ways couldn't I?

1) He is with The Ex & trying to make sure he gets a full belly for free at least once next week.(her don't do food stuff!)

2) Whether he is with her or not, he is looking for some sort of excuse to actually stick around and talk to me. For whatever reason.

If he is managing to send text messages, so far today about 6 of them, i doubt that he is actually with her, he is probably sulking at home; if he *is* with her, he is having to invent an awful lot of trips to the toilet!

*sigh* You can see why the French are experts at making films about this sort of situation really can't you? It's a weird mentality; what i can't work out is which role i am supposed to be in, wife or mistress??? Dunno how "bestest ever friend" fits into it all really!

(But "doormat" i will not be, neither will i do "roasting on beach")

zdt*individual*

You sound as though you are really fed-up this time, so maybe that will help you stick to your guns? He wants food on Tuesday, cause that will turn into a date and then he won't have to leave straight away. One way I find helpful to be strong and ignore texts is to switch my phone off, that way I don't have to hear them and be tempted.

Good luck with this

Hallo there. Just popping in for a quick nosey around.

You're certainly very compassionate, Terri, and good on you. I suppose one way of dealing with the downside of that is to decide how many times you will allow someone to take the piss before you tell them to sod off. Three times? Once? That way, at least you'll know you've tried and you've found out whether the person is worth the energy you're spending on them.

Can you tell people to sod off when you need to? It's not cruel to let them know where they stand with you, after all. But I know it can feel as difficult as stamping on a kitten's head.

Oh god, good analogy; yes, that's exactly what it feels like!

*tries to suppress image*

zdt

That is a good analogy Snailrind

So did you switch your mobile phone off, or is he still bothering you?

No, i didn't, no he isn't, but he *is* coming round tonight so we can talk things over in person; quite apart from being very difficult by phone, i don't want to spend money i don't have on wretched phone cards all the time!

I will update you after tonight Ok?

zdt*melting here; it is at least 40° today & set to get hotter*

Good luck with tonight, be strong and negotiate for the out-come which YOU want.

Merci! I am, i will, he knows this. He may be a complete idiot at times, but he has learned not to underestimate me i reckon!

Gotta my henna needs removing before i turn into a carrot!

zdt