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tartaronne Posted Dec 6, 2005
>>It was such a relief that I could be pathetic and weak and exhausted.<<
Frenchbean, I found that out as well a couple of years ago.
It is the curse of coping women that we want to be both independant, reliable, a haven for others (kids, husband, other family, friends, collegues and perfect strangers) and weakness and 'help' are not in our vocabulary .
But I try to turn it around: If I am proud, satified and find it a privilege when I can help others and don't think lesser of them, wouldn't they be the same if I ask them for help?
Okay, okay it is still mostly theoretical but it is a beginning, not?
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frenchbean Posted Dec 6, 2005
You're right tartaronne. It's easy to theorise, but very hard to put it into practice.
I try to put myself in other people's shoes and then see how proud I am So many people are the same, but I do think it's a curse at times.
It takes people a long time to be allowed behind my pride, to see the real Frenchbean and I think they get quite a shock
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Ormondroyd Posted Dec 6, 2005
This sounds like the sort of thing I talk to my counsellor about each week. Gently, over many months, she has been edging me towards accepting the idea that I don't have to be perfect: that the will not end if I don't answer every request for help or succeed perfectly in every task, and that sometimes it's OK to admit to being tired and just relax. It's helping... a bit. When I get in from singing practice late tonight, I *may* just manage to watch a bit of TV instead of trying to write something. We'll see...
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Z Posted Dec 7, 2005
I've been lurking in this thread since it's started and not had the tiem to compose a proper reply to you. My heart goes out to you, and I am thinking about you a lot. If I was a praying sort I would be praying about you as well.
I feel a bit lost that I can't offer you anyting apart from a small picture of a .
Here you are!
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Hypatia Posted Dec 7, 2005
Hi Z. Thanks for the . *Hopes the hug is from Z and not Fluff*
Just knowing I have such good friends helps a lot. The anniversary of his death is sneaking up on me. It is on a Sunday, so I can stay home and brood and feel sorry for myself if I want to. I'm glad it doesn't fall on a work day.
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Z Posted Dec 7, 2005
Definately a from me and not Fluff (though Fluff, being captive breed hasn't really got the hang of squeezing food first)
I'm glad I can make a different albeit a small one. And you do have friends, deeply valued genuine friends.
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frenchbean Posted Dec 7, 2005
I still have a quiet day on the anniversary of P's death. It's an opportunity to reflect and to be alone and to be joyful and sad all at once. I don't answer the phone that day
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Hypatia Posted Dec 23, 2005
All of the 'firsts' are officially past now. the anniversary of his death was Sunday and his funeral was a year ago yesterday. So, we'll see if getting the firsts out of the way really does help.
I'm having a hard time getting into the Christmas spirit this year. I keep telling myself that next year will be better. I'm sure it will be.
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Hypatia Posted Dec 25, 2005
Thanks everyone. I'm doing fine. I can't honestly say I'm jolly, but I'm not miserable either. I had a nice visit yesterday with my brother in spite of him being a horse's patoot. And have tomorrow and the great nephews to look forward to.
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