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*happy dance*
Posted Oct 11, 2002
I rock..I rockIrockIrock! I got a 96% on a test I almost didn't go to for fear I'd bomb it embarrassingly. Makes up for an otherwise b*st*rd of a day. 
Gives herself a crate of 
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Silly Beans of Thought
Posted Oct 9, 2002
Having much success potty training, and having mixed success trying to teach little Nyssa to communicate with words and not regress to frustrated screaming. It's hard to be three.
Tentatively, I'll say that the prospects of my coming to the Jan. meet are very good. I'm always loath to say things committally, because sh*t *always* comes up in my life, something you might know if you know me at all. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really the peace-seeking person I think I am, what with the crap I draw to myself.
I'm caught up with school..now if I can only just get myself willing to leave the house everyday. Maybe there's something to Seasonal Affective Disorder. Now, if I don't get out of the house for some restorative fresh air, that's my fault, but I do have a much harder time battling depression this time of year. It's the second winter since Ray died, so hopefully I won't fall apart like I did last year between Thanksgiving and Christmas. My grades really can't handle that again.
This weekend I'm going to try to shadow with a respiratory therapist, to see if it's something I can deal with. If so, most likely I'll be moving to Oregon in May. I love western Oregon - Green, rainy climate, redwoods, rocky beaches...I love it. I wonder if after living there if I'll be able to return to Idaho as I intend.
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All better!
Posted Sep 25, 2002
We just got back from the doctor, and Joseph's lungs are all better! 
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HooToo Neglect
Posted Sep 22, 2002
In case anybody has both noticed and cared that (and maybe breathed a sigh of relief because) I've not been around much, it's because my little Joseph was hospitalized this week with viral pneumonia. If you pray, send out good zen vibes, etc., please do your thing for his poor little lungs 
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I love you all.
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I'm sooo tiiiiiired and *sob*
Posted Sep 19, 2002
I have to stay awake, so I may as well catch up with H2G2 since I'm not going to get anything remotely academic accomplished. The reason I'm up is that my little boy is very sick and I have to take him to the hospital at regular intervals so he keeps breathing . I just feel horrid and ineffectual, and stupid because I'm in such a state when I really have no reason to indulge my self-pity. Maybe being tired has something to do with it, but do you ever feel like sobbing and telling the world to just stop everything and nurture just you for a moment? When did the universe decide that I'm old enough to raise my own humans and too old to still cuddle on some father figure's lap? Maybe that's why I always liked the idea of Jesus, even now that I'm not a believer..I just really like the imagery I concoct in my head of dying, running through a brightening tunnel, and leaping into Jesus' lap and just being rocked for a millenium or two. I guess I'm still just a little girl.
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