h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I am just so cross with myself after spending years putting off committing myself to a job ,a house and certainly a partner and thinking I was jolly clever to do so I find myself stuck in a neighbourhood I am not particularly fond of and unable to shift because the children are so happy in school.Before I had children I was extremely adventurous and would always change a situation if it was going wrong or I didn't like it very much.That may well have been shorthand for running away from situations but it worked and life remained rich and interesting.The longer this situation continues the less I like this person I've become.I seem to have become incapable of finding joy in any situation and find myself jealous ,increasingly frustrated and bitter. Leetting go of the past used to be a relatively easy thing to do but I find myself going over things again and again.....wanting to justify where I am. It matters because up until now even when I had to live in a refuge with my young children for a while I was optimistic ,full of hope and made things work out fine...a few years down the line I seem unable to make the necessary changes to make life happy again and this is their childhood that I don't seem able to enjoy anymore.
There must be a way forward from this but I'm damned if I know what it is.

Hey Lady L, good to hear from you again.

I've just popped on here to check any messages so this wont be a long reply. I'm sending a tele- to the west country with your name on it but I think you may prefer a . I'll reply properly when I have a bit more time.

Liam.