h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

i realised I still need this thread going.

i made cheese on toast with chopped garlic on top for breakfast. I managed one bite couldn't taste anything and then felt I couldn't eat anymore.

I managed marmite on toast last night and tomato soup for breakfast yesterday...also this weird profiterole thing the local shop sell with intense chocolate and cream...but I think it maybe all artificial..I should probably get some vitamin tablets now as I'm eating so weirdly.

And I only sleep for a couple of hours before being wide awake again.

i know I sound quite moany..but I need to be.

Another 2 hours.

Tried that cheese on toast again. Couldn't even manage one bite. Spat it out as I couldn't swallow it.

I'll have to stick to yesterday's diet..and I've another of that weird profiterole thing in the fridge for later.

But Perrier water is okay..no taste though..but my favourite spring water..and naturally gaseous. I always prefer fizzy spring water..don't like the still stuff.

Off for music.

And they are talking on the news on the radio about people wanting the cane and the slipper being brought back into schools - lovely.

I spent my early years at primary school in fear of the slipper.

I'll never forget in my first year at primary school when a girl undid her shoe laces and did them up again during a group listening to to school's radio..that she got a smack from the teacher.

I now discovered I can eat crisps. i appear to have regressed to only being able to eat the very basic diet of my very early childhood, (things got much better later as the money started rolling in).

So it'll be baked beans on toast tonight.

Soft boiled egg with soldiers will be good

Also cornflakes

lemon meringue tart. I don't know how to cook it or can be bothered..hopefully they sell it up the shop.

I already discovered I can eat fish and chips.

Sausages should also be okay..

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This whole thing is really bizarre.

Email sent to me by my local MP Harriet Harman in the wake of the riots here. I don't have such a high opinion of her really even though I am a member of the Labour Party..she was so Blairite and did nothing to help when I was a shop steward for a previous job and we were threatened with sacking if we didn't sign new contracts.

Obviously this email is sent to all local party members. Wasn't really sure where to post..but here will do as it was about locals letting rip.

But this looks pretty good.


Dear Camberwell and Peckham Labour Party Member,

The riots were inexcusable and created untold fear and damage.

I want to make sure right lessons learnt from the riots.


I am taking forward work on seven key areas:

1. I'm listening to what local people say about what they think lay behind the riots. In particular I'm consulting young people. We need to make sure their voice is heard to answer the questions about why so many people got swept up in such widespread criminality.

2. I know that local business, particularly the shops, suffered in the riots. I'm calculating the cost to local businesses to ensure they get the help they need to get back on their feet.

3. Unemployment has been going up again in the last few months and the riots will have only made that worse - so I am campaigning hard against the closure of Camberwell Jobcentre.

4. Southwark Council has already been hit by massive cuts from the government. And now the riots are bound to cost the council as they try and put right the damage done to our local shopping centres and homes above shops. I'm demanding the government give the council the money they need for this.

5. I'm stepping up my campaign to protect police numbers in Southwark. More police over the last few years has helped cut crime and made people feel safer. In the aftermath of the riots, cutting the police is the last thing the government should be doing.

6. After the riots I spoke with court clerks who worked overtime to make sure people charged with riot related offences were brought before the courts without delay. I am tracking the profile of those charged with riot related offences going through the criminal justice system.

7. On a night of crime and destruction there were hundreds of good deeds - let me know the ‘good Samaritans' you saw. I want to ensure these acts of community-mindedness are properly recognised.


Please let me have your views.

Best wishes

Harriet

Managed one fish finger earlier. Tasted of nothing much.

I'm desperate for these herbs to be ready..but it'll be a few weeks yet..they only really get going at the equinox.

Gave one to the cat which it sort of half heartedly ate..and then kept pestering for its own food. But its quite purry which is nice.

What an utterly utterly pointless thing is human existence. 2 billion years of evolution of life..and the sheer incomprehensible vastness of space.

We have 3 score and 10 if we're lucky and we spend much of that time making other human beings unhappy and hurting them.

The sooner this stupid planet is nuked by a massive meteor the better.

Well eventually the sun will die..but by then we may have started polluting the rest of the universe. At least I'll be in an eternity of unconsciousness by then..and no more hurt to be suffered.

I'm so totally unhappy.

It's good to be honest about that and I'm not putting on this stupid mask of cheerfulness anymore..and just how bad things are..and how utterly pointless it all is.

It's a relief to admit that.

The tablets no longer work..and there are no other ones to try.

And there's no people to try.

I'm on the downward spiral now. I get onto spirals quite well. And they turn and they turn and they turn. It's getting beyond anything now.

From now on I'm going to get more and more honest in this journal.

I'm thinking why was I gone from home from dawn to dusk at weekends and in school holidays?

Because they were knocking me about at home physically and psychologically and they were doing the same at that school..well I lived in fear of it.

So I fell utterly in love with the countryside and the gangs of kids...mostly rough boys..that my mother hated..that I hung out with.

All the camps we made. All the butterfly and moth collecting, the fossil collecting, christ we even collected grasshoppers. And of course in spring were forever searching out birds' nests..and in late summer apple scrumping.

But then I did a few nasty things myself..like when I lassoed Mary Lusted for half an hour after tricking her into it..but then I was tricked into the garden shed by a boy and locked in there for hours.

But it was all part of the culture.

And my best friend was a boy from across the road.

But after we moved my parents would bring me back to visit about the only girl I was friends with..a nice girl in a nice middle class area away from the main area I lived. A girl who also went to the grammar school.

But then I heard after she went to Birmingham to study physics..she had a nervous breakdown.

Have no contact with any of these people now. But they are all in my head still...forever young.

And I just discovered its World Mental Health day on Monday 10th of October.

Oh yeah that's going to make so much difference. I think these type of things are stupid. They give false hope and are like something utterly pretend that people take these things seriously.


It's a joke.

I wish to god I bought more crisps earlier. I could imagine eating them now..but nothing else can I manage..yet I know I'm hungry.

I'm going to buy a load of packets tomorrow..but always just the plain ready salted is my favourite..except you have to add a ton of salt these days..because of some gimicky idea of low salt.

But the angry despair gets worse everyday..well let it..

And I shall just have to carry on writing or some sort of thing is going to happen.

Its getting too explosive now.

But *not* here. this is a safety valve for me..and I never ever want to hurt anyone like I hurt kea again. that is still killing me.

And I don't even have a clue if she has accepted my apology as she hasn't bothered replying. Or maybe she hasn't seen it?

Anyway that is just all part of the pointlessness of this horrible world we live in.

I think I'm soon coming out of h2g2 I think.

The people here constantly misunderstand me.

I care so much about some here...but I'm not going write about that in public in any detail.

I'll find someone to take it out on in real life if this is the way this place behaves to someone with such a fundamentally good and loving heart.