h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I wish I could just be ONE person like other people. I don't even know what sex I am half the time...well emotionally. And that's not to get into science and art even. And love and hate...

This stupid society expects people to be all one thing.

But there'll always be poetry which expresses all this stuff best of all.

Robert Browning you're already off the bookshelf and into the kitchen..hopefully that cat will turn up...its been around about 10 times today.

it'll soon be living here..its owners must be noticing a difference in it.

I don't like it when I can't get my own way. But that's like a 3 year old talking I suppose.

I feel a bit softer in myself. But hell its hard living with so many people inside you..so you create an ego to try to control them all. And it can be quite power hungry.

I'm so glad I watched that Bronowski again...and its that pond I found with all those bone fragments..

I don't know what's going to happen. (Not in a bad way...but just in a way

I will give kea and if that's what she wants

And I'm stopping this posting mania for a while.

I feel quite broken up in myself now...that's a relief.

Thanks for posting that Bronowski thing anhaga the other day. I don't feel so coherant..that's cos of the broken up feeling. It feels so much nicer.

Maybe she can't really explain what I did or wants to for now. That's her choice.

But I know I caused a lot of hurt with my behaviour and feel truly sorry for that.

The Ascent of Man made a big, big impact on me in my early teen years.

Did you know that (among other things) Bronowski was a big Blake guy?

No I didn't.

But it was just so incredibly affecting watching that clip...over the past few days I've watched it several times.

And it was the most incredible thing to find that pond. When I visited which would have been many years later it was actually outside the main area..and I stumbled upon it almost by accident. But it seemed to me to be the most powerful thing.

There's a museum with vast amounts of people's glasses..and vast amounts of everything.

The big camp Aucwitz Birkenau is really just that main entrance you will see with the railway line running in..and the landing point. About one of the actual shed places are left...and the actual gas chambers are blown up...apparently the SS wanted to hide the evidence.

I had my Sony Walkman..which I had playing a Mahler symphony for part of my all day walk, (he's jewish) I felt quite numb in many ways its just so overwhelming.

But that pond found by accident made it personal somehow.

And I realise I have that thing in me that can be so arrogant and desirous of all knowledge and control when I watched your clip again and again.

I feel extremely emotional. It's very complicated for me because I only went to Auchwitz because of the relationship I had with the Jewish guy..and now suddenly a new thing connected with it, because of your link, has affected me.

Bronowski being into Blake is good to know...and as I keep saying Blake had his first vision up the road from me on Peckham Rye. Its been common land forever I think..and still an important place for people to go.

Just nearby is something called Troy town..well a street name. I discovered that it was originally a place where a labarythine pattern was cut in the turf, and people did some sort of dance.

Sorry I've been a little absent lately -- this week has been crazy busy and will continue to be so. I've got to get this article thing finished (started).

Basically two weeks to the deadline and so much else to do as well!

You haven't been absent in my mind.

You're always around.

Keep up the good work.

Just heard on the radio my favourite drama, Downton Abbey is back at the weekend..not sure if this really the best thread for this....but there is defo a let rip quality to hearing this...

Feeling a lot better in myself still but still very not focussed in terms of energies,,still not sure I'll be well again but I don't care so much. Had Heinz tomato soup for breakfst..one of the few things I can still get some pleasure from eating.

pretty cold but clear blue sky and forecast is good..back to bed now though.

And christ I realised most of those herbs are male which are useless..and you have to get rid cos once the females are fertilised it stops them.

Hopefully I caught in time before pollen released..but they were a bit big to deal with...so I've cut down and put that old sleeping bag over them.

Actually should weigh down with stones or a fox or that cat will pull it off.

Brilliant autumn day here. Sparkling and sunny.

It could be paranoia on my part but I think kea keeps yikesing my posts.

Nothing horrible is aimed at *you*. Only good things. If you only knew.

I need to start posting more music here I think. But not aggressive in the slightest..or it could be quotes from literature I really love...or anything I really like.

I'll go away and think.

Okay since I keep going on about Robert Browning..I'm going for a bit of that..although its hardly appropriate for here in England this time of year...but still.

From,

Home-thoughts from abroad.

Oh to be in England
Now that April's there.
And whoever wakes in England
Sees, some morning,unaware,
That the lowest boughs and the brushwood sheaf
Round the Elm-tree bole are in tiny leaf,
While the chaffinch sings on the orchard bough
In England - now!


Not the whole poem..but enough for now.

I'm doing some Henry Reed later..and some music..maybe some Ravel?

I love this change in direction here. It's brilliant.

And kea I really hope you read this because I get the impression something awful happened to you in real life..and I'm doing this for you..well for myself as well of course, because its creative to change direction like this on such a thread with that title.

I like the contradiction. I always like contradictions.

But you may not be reading it which is a shame. But still I like doing it so much..that this will carry on.

Defo some Henry Reed later. There are two poems of his that are right up there for me.

And it was the Jewish guy that got me into Robert Browning.

I think I've changed my mind about this. It feels like a bit too sudden extreme change of direction and a bit artificial somehow.

I'm closing it down just for now.

But I may set up another thread to post poetry stuff.