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Onwards and Upwards

Posted Mar 27, 2010

Well this is my first journal entry and as it is all consuming i've decided that maybe keeping this may help me get some more of an understanding of whats going on within my own head. Im not naive to the fact that i have severe depression and anxiety which is possibly been a contributing factor to the questions that are now being asked over whether i have bipolar disorder. I am wondering though if bipolar disorder is genetic? I dont think from what i have read up that there is any definitive link between genetics but my grandfather was sectioned many many years ago with depression when it wasnt as well understood and under went electric shock treatment!! When i discussed with my father (whos dad was my grandfather who had been sectioned) he felt bad about what was happening with me and wondered if it had been his side that had caused whats been up with me all my life. I reassured him that it was unlucky really just to pacify him and you cant undo whats been done- you are how you are you cant change your genes can you (well not back when we were born anyway lol!) There is also depression on my mothers side and she suffers quite badly from it also. Well all i can do is continue on from day to day hoping that when i wake i will be in a good state of mind and not want to spend all day in bed. Im awaiting my psychiatrist appointment when hopefully whats 'wrong' with me will be diagnosed or decided and i can get the help and correct medication that is needed. As it is i think my body and mind have become used to the meds that i am on now.
Anyways onwards and upwards is my motto!! I dont really like the onwards and downwards that can consume more time than the upwards.
I hope everyones well today and that there is some sunshine wherever you may be
Pixie

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