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Fifth fractionation, now 10 grays of radiation in total. 10 more fractionations left to go.... so, a third of the way through radiotherapy.

Feel so..... dunno. no idea how I feel really... fed up I guess... tired; from fatigue due to radiation?; or just from spending every day, all day, going to, back from and being treated in, hospital? for.... 6 days? dunno... probably a combination, of both, with probably still some chemotherapy fatigue thrown in for good measure too.

the heat doesn't help, as, thinking about, it, neither do the hot flushes; having the menapause sucks. having menapause whilst undergoing four months chemotherapy, then weeks of radiotherapy, probably sucks even more.

Even quicker in radiotherapy suite today. fell asleep almost straight away, after doing my wriggling to get myself settled in the mask so I could breathe....

A wee bit... sort of on hearing a voice.... and waking to find myself locked in a mask, down on a metal bench... but only lasted a second until I recalled where I was - I did way too much meditation on the bus to hospital, I think, so was way too relaxed by the time I was put into radiotherapy bondage hence I fell asleep so quickly and ... sort of lost track in my head where I was

Very eary in outpatients; so empty!; they don't opperate outpatient services/clinics on the weekend; this was a special case, as they had to run everything for radiotherapy, so they could catch up on the entire day, wednesday, when the machine was down

Almost late to get to hospital though all my fault. embarasingly...

We were walking to the bus stop, plenty of/on time. and. err. no idea why. I ... had an accident yeh. TMI or what - and no, I can't even recall if I've ever done such a thing in my entire life

so had to ... slowely walk home, so I could .... change, clean myself up, find fresh knickers etc

Not sure what caused it.... maybe the new laurazepem (sp?) tablets i've got for sleeping, or... perhaps just a combination of that, the four pints of Adnams last night, and a can of Guinness, and, perhaps residual affects of gastrointestinal affects of chemotherapy; I may have escaped all the vomitting and nausea, more upper gastrointestinal affects of the chemo, at the time, and since; but during chemo it certainly affected my lower gastrointestinal tract.... useually of the constipation nature (yeh, was on senna tablets, two a day for basically th eduration of chemo).

so. another fairly uneventful day of radiotherapy. so peeved not having the weekend off though, as I was promised; so much stuff to do here, which has to be done before the second week of RT starts. so I'll need to do all of that tomorrow. for now. I'm just too tired. - currently doing a load of towels that need washing, so only clothing to wash tomorrow just... so knackered... - partly I know that is just the heat, which always knocks me out... but...

I'm just at a loss for words, but man (woman?) you lead too much of an interesting life. Not that I expect it to be more sane, just a little more relaxing seems adequate.

I don't know if I've mentioned this before or not but my mum, after her treatment for breast cancer, was given Anastrozole to take for 5 years. One of the side effects is hot flushes which she got with a vengeance. She was offered acupuncture to help, a treatment consisting of one session a week for, I think, about nine weeks. At the end of it she no longer got the hot flushes.

It might be worth a look into if you still have them once your treatment has finished.

I've watched my mum and my husband go through cancer treatments and it always struck me as a bit like adding insult to injury that there are so many stupid little side effects that make life so unpleasant. With my husband, it was indigestion. With everything he was going through, that was the thing that really made him suffer on a daily basis.

Deb

/Stuff happens... I just and get on with stuff, best I can... yeh, OK, was a bit of a a ... month or so back finding out I couldn't ejaculate anymore but... so what.... - guessing that may return if my hormones level out a little more to the male side of things - but, take positives where one can... - getting up to a b-size bra cup size is a major bonus as far as I'm concerned - sure they never mentioned the free sex/gender change, as part of the treatment...

Mind, whenever I mention to W about me having a sex change.... he just asks;

"from what to what?" which... pretty well sums me up really

Being all mascalin today and putting up new curtain rail. whilst having menapausal hot flushes! - getting ultra light headed/fainty feeling too... no idea what that is

Whilst there is still weird left to discover... I feel its my duty to contihue uncovering it

if people thought I was bad, before now.... they oughta realise the post-cancer 2legs really doesn't give a flying figleaf about what anyone might think or say I'm so far past living anyting like a normal, that its off the map that I exist on. nonnormality is the future; the future is more weird, more surreal and more, more. trust me. I'm gona be so aweful soon once I get my energy back proper

I trust you. This last post of yours alone proves you right

hoh yus! the new 2legs is s supercharged 2legs..... take away all the illegal drugs, and uncover my true inner real conscious..... and realise its far scarier than anything I achieved by use of mind altering substances this time next year, when I'm doing my mixed martial arts, adn training to be an erotic/berlesque dancer... then... then the world will see at last