h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

*sounds of hammering, humming and the occasional can be heard from behind a door marked 'Do not disturb'*

I noticed my writing itch is slowly returning after having been rather absent for the last couple of months. I thought I'd write something about my personal view of what it's like to depressed or, to be more exact, about the sudden dip in my mood that I experienced when I started medicating. Obviously it's not all that unusual to actually feel worse before the medication kicks in properly and starts making you feel better.

I started jotting down a few words and expressions, but I soon noticed that my brain started twisting and turning some things so that they appeared a bit different than I had intended to begin with, and it also added stuff, some of which was completely fictional.

This entry will be about trying to describe the process of writing - or my writing, at least...

The beginning:

Trying to come up with a word to describe the feeling, it is like finding yourself in a... hmmmm....

'Bottomless pit'

Pit, eh? And how do you end up in the pit? Because...

'Someone pulled out the plug'

-P-ullled out the -p-lug - ooooh, aliteration? I like that - let's see if we can use that a bit more. So, someone pulled out the plug, and...

'I fell'

Good, good, fell... now, how about some more of that aliteration stuff?

'Head over heels'

OK, now we're getting somewhere. But should I use 'Somebody' instead of 'Someone'? And what to do with the bottomless pit? Let's put it all together and see what we've got so far.

Somebody pulled out the plug
And I fell
Head over heels
Into a bottomless pit

*tilts head, ponders* Nah, not quite... I think I'll use 'tumbled' instead.

Somebody pulled out the plug
And I tumbled
Head over heels
Into a bottomless pit

*attempts to decipher random notes hastily scribbled down on the backside of a reciept onboard a bus*

*squints*

Ah - I seem to have substituted 'bottomless pit' with 'black hole' so that I could use the pit in the next line...

*hums* Free falling...

Endless eternity
of free falling
into a bottomless pit

*ponders*

Landing... ledge... crash... jarring...

*struggles to combine the words and to find a fitting synonym for 'eventually'*

Finally
landing on a ledge
the impact jarring my soul

*squints at scribbles again*

No, sorry, that last line should have been:

with a crash that jarred my soul

Shocked by the impact
I curled up, hugging my knees
like a child afraid of the dark

Not happy with 'Finally' but what should I use instead? 'Eventually'? Naaah.... maybe 'Unexpectedly'?

Wow! Poetry in motion!

And now what? *starts pacing back and forth*

Stuck on a ledge... *groans, buries head in hands*

Cold... dark... affecting me somehow...

Long I sat there
surrounded by a darkness
that filled me with apathy

Fine, that's the darkness, but what about the coldness?

Numbed by a coldness

*tries again*

Numbed by a coldness
that...
that...

*grabs Milla's towel and chews on it frantically*

>>Not happy with 'Finally' but what should I use instead? 'Eventually'? Naaah.... maybe 'Unexpectedly'?

How about 'abruptly'?

Numbed by a coldness
that drained me
of any emotion

*jots down 'abruptly'* Thanks, Witty

Stuck for the moment - I need something - maybe a sound or something? - that makes the person on the ledge look up and see a distant light, rather like sitting on the bottom of a well looking up...

OK, so far, I've got

Somebody pulled out the plug
And I tumbled
Head over heels
Into a bottomless pit

Endless eternity
of free falling
into a bottomless pit

Abruptly
landing on a ledge
with a crash that jarred my soul

Shocked by the impact
I curled up, hugging my knees
like a child afraid of the dark

Long I sat there
surrounded by a darkness
that filled me with apathy

Numbed by a coldness
that drained me
of any emotion

Memories? Triggered? Images?

Images of a happier time

Light and laughter

...and basket weavers...



Sorry, lost the inspiration for a while, ignore this last line

*takes a sip of , slaps forehead, frowns, groans*

A sudden sound

Good, good, more aliteration... keep it going, my preciousssss

disturbed my d...
my d...

It's illogical, I know, but why can't 'coma' start with a D? Or hibernation?

Good old thesauruses - dullness!