h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I hope all of you have enough sense to read this, those who dont I'm sure i can track down

before I get to the main point of this thread I'd like to set down some rules

Please, no reposting this or a link to this in your journal. I dont need the pity/sympathy of people I dont or barely know.
No randomly chatting about idle topics and producing blog- if this goes off topic many people wont bother to post
No single smiley posts. If you want to say something say it, if you want to just say I can get in touch say it, if you want to just let me know you've read it just post a word or two. Seriously, pages and pages of smileys can get boring. I need entertainment. Go figure
If you want to say something but not here, leave me a message in my space with your e-mail address or something, I've posted mine in a journal before I think but since no-one wants to talk to me I'll give it out again if you want
In spite of all this, please do post something *lonely*
Last but not least, dont all glomph on cal after reading this. Not only is that my job, but he doesnt need the crowding ok?

The point:
I've been meaning to do this journal for a while. I didnt for various reasons we'll come to later. Most of you know (all of you *should* but some may not bother with all my journals) that I was diagnosed with cancer. In short- I'm not a healthy bunny. The honest truth is I knew for a long time the lookout wasnt good, but after going through long periods of denial, fear, and emotional instability I decided I'd be happier if no-one knew so that I didnt have to accept it. Having watched this plan cr@p out after people kept asking me how I was and I kept making up sh!t to cover my ass, and not doing it very well I realised the truth was better than rumours. I told cal *much cuddling* who had already guessed pretty much, which wasnt surprising really. He told Charlie *more cuddles* so that he had someone else he could talk to about that, and then a couple of others were told. Considering I didnt want everyone to know, everyone kept getting paranoid that other people had been told who would then tell someone else, and it was treated like a government secret.
So now, having been repramanded that I should tell my friends what was going on by two people, the truth is out. I'm dying. This is not a drill folks, I was told probably by the end of the year I'll be gone. How accurate that is god only knows, maybe I'll be here for a while maybe I'll be gone sooner rather than later. I didnt say before because I dont want everyone treating me like I was weak (I know I am, but I dont need reminding) and telling me shouldnt I get some rest and not really letting me have fun. Listen, if I'm going to die I dont want to do it having been wrapped up in cotton wool and not allowed to do anything for my last months!


Cant think of anything else to put
not sure there is anything else
Ah well *deep breath*
*postage*

-Jack

I know this is a shock guys, but lets make Jacks time here happy please

Well, this is awkward.

? ?

you ok?

Not really. This hasn't been a particularly good day all-round, and this is the icing on the cake. Although I suppose it does put my tiny problems into perspective.

he's not gone yet GB

I know, but it's quite a shock. I always felt immortal, now I'm not so sure.

I know it's a shock, but as I said, lets not all fall into doom and gloom just yet, he may well be with us for a while yet

Excellent. Eat, drink and be merry, for tommorow we... live for a few more years.

thats more like it

Yes, 'shock' does just about cover it for now. Jack, it's far too early in the morning - I'll be back later when I'm able to string thoughts together - but thanks for letting us all know the full picture.

He's gone for a rest himself Ivan

I'd like to say something witty or intelligent, but i can't just now.
Goddammit Jack! I hate it when you make me speechlees, i'm a female thats not supposed to happen!

's this moment*

*scoops up GB into a hug* think of it this way- excellant blackmail material for getting people to vote for me

*goes round hugging ivan and venus then sits down pulls cal onto his lap* sorry I wasn having a worrying fit I'll rest in a minute

you wasn't having having a worry fit? what you doing here then?

was? Wasnt? same difference *fiddles with a lip gloss thingy and thinks about putting it on you*

ok I'm ready

*applies lip gloss to you* hmm, shiny *cuddles* now I must break my own rules too much *cuddle* and I should probably go rest I doubt it'll suddenly become too lively here the rest of tonight anyway

must? mustnt? who knows. further proof that I *am* tired