h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

but I feeling very negative about existance and unable to cope with life again so if you're not used to morbid slant my journals can take now may a good time remove me from your friends list as I think this dark mood is only going to get worse...

I would never, repeat, never remove you from my friends list
I have deen to the depths and know how terrible they can be
I will be there for you in any way I can be


just keep putting one foot in front of the other
there are people out there that are thinking about you
you are special in your own way

Hel2

*agrees with Hel, though she herself can't claim to have been mired in the depths*

And you'll never disappoint me, though I *am* sad that you are again so down. But that's not disappointment in *you*

Hey you, im not staying on, so just a quickie to say, if you need anything just say xx Keep smiling you xx

I hate myself and I can't cope, I'm pointless...

no matter how black it is, stealthy man, it is never pointless
within that blackness there is meaning
It is just a matter of holding on to a point of light and moving
find something to hold on to and move
the voices in your head are not right
they may be part of you but they are not all of you
reach out
I don't know how to say this across such a distance but do not give up
you are worth more than the voices are


Hel2

i will not be remove u from my friends list...u hear me...

u r worth sumthin...gonna keep tellin u that

hugs n love

Zoe

Nothing I can do will change me, I'm scum, I'm worthless. I will die this way, sooner rather than later.

no
pandora closed the box before hope escaped
hope is the one thing we alway have.......
anything you do changes things
any movement
any thought
any moment
just keep allowing the moments to gather together
take each moment and use it to move to the next
there are many here who value you
just look at this thread and see
there is always light somewhere......

But they shouldn't value me... no one in RL values me has ever valued that must say something about what I'm truely worth... I'm a failure in everthing I've ever begun...
I've been depressed for the alrgest part of my life, I know nothing else...

The people you've known IRL are idiots then

How do you know they don't value you
you are generous (you gave me Hugo) you are articulate (just look at your contribution to this site),you are helpful (you are an ACE)you have many qualities
you are WANTED
we WANT you

as much as this sounds cliched (and I hate cliches) give yourself some time

hunni please dont be like this i care for you sooooo mcuh you cant even begin to imagine and if anything happens to you i wouldnt be able to cope you have been there for me and its gonna sound really pathetic (well thats the story of my life anyways ) but i really love and care for you,,,,,,,,,,

LoZ xxxx

I'm nothing, a vague shadow in pain, a waste of time and space. With an F'ed up childhood. I have no life to loose, but will I do it?!! I've tried before, but I could not even do that right... I wanna die I want to be gone.

no
I don't want you to
do you want to compare childhoods and see who has the worst?
we all have had bad days,weeks,years years even
they pass, as does all
the thinning becomes the fog, becomes the steel, of tomorrow
dawns anew forever, forever and tomorrow

k theres is nothing i can say that will comfort you and i doubt very much that i can make you feel beter,,,but you were there for me when i need someone to talk to,,you were there for me,,,,,please dont leave me now,,,,

LoZ xxxxx

I know there people with worse childhoods... Abbi Normal springs to mind...
It's not about comparing, it's about my ability to deal.
I trusted my real self and shared things I'd never shared with anyone before that someone now hates me... I find that hard to process.

im always here for you please dont go,,,, i really dont wanna lose another person i care for,,,,,,,,,

I can't live life for you LoZ...
sorry.