h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

It makes me wonder why I am part of this site, when the bbc do not allow the help of disturbed/suffering people including children.

What irony - this IS a family issueI think all of you had-have families!

Quite true Abbi, and as it often the family which causes all the problems in the first place, it is doubly ironic.

Well, I don't know about you lot, but I for one now think there can be nothing less conducive to helping you find strength, context and understanding from an experience of pain and brutality than doing so in an environment where you're conscious of the risk you will be forcibly silenced from doing so, just as you were by your protagonist while they were busy breaking your arm, starving or terrorizing you in some other way. It's censure of the worst sort, Thou Shalt Not Hurt Here.

So to that end I'm withdrawing from the survivors' group for my health, I'm sure another group could be formed offsite but in my experience it'll only deteriorate into an anti-h2g2 cell and I'm tired of the ubiqiuity of partisan spite on the internet. I only ever wanted to spite my parents. This to me is all just the usual social bullshit.

I'll still be around, as they say you can never leave; but only to treat it as the fun and friendly internet resource they're so determined to ensure it remains. While they get together and self-injure with after after , and the irony just keeps on coming.

My email will remain on my page so feel free to get in touch; though I may change it soon, I just don't consider myself broken any more. Tired, certainly... maybe I'll go for cooldaddyexhausted . I'll leave it a week or two and think far too long and hard about it.

Take care out there and keep in touch guys. Barton and Candy, I'll be right over. Cindy, I'll be right here.

Waiting is.

You don't have to be broken to be a part of the survivors group. Its a 'one for all, all for one' kinda place. I don't feel broken at he moment either, which means I am in a good position to be there for other people. Your good days maybe someone elses bad days, its a bloody shame that you don't want to help anymore.

I used to self-injure, its helped me, its not a great thing to do, but neither is getting blindingly drunk. For some people for periods in their lives it has a place.

I do want to help Kaz, but by *email*, not here.

What I love about the survivors group is you post a message for help and whoever gets there first can start to help. It also means that those who can't bear to help right then don't have to worry because they can see that someone else is there.

That way of working cannot be replicated by e-mail.

Sorry Krispy, I saw you as an integral part of this group. My only help and support is now unravelling, its too sad for words anymore. But not too sad for tears, which is what I am doing now.

Okay, Kaz, you convinced me, I'll stay. But if we're to carry on here, we need to accept a fair amount of additional risk with every potentially iffy posting. There have been year-long arguments about the contents of some, traumatised people have been extra-traumatised by all the picking over it, and everyone got hurt, that was my main concern.

If its time for you to go then go. I will survive. I guess this was only a temporary thing anyway. I got very used to knowing support was here, but it can't last for ever. Especially as we know the italics are probably against us. Maybe I need to learn to cope on my own, I am not completely alone I have Moonglum. If its time for the group to disintegrate then so be it. Life will be more difficult as a result, but thats life.

Sorry Krispy I panicked, I don't want to make you stay by using emotional blackmail on you.

For 'emotional blackmail' I read encouragement to stick it out, gratefully accepted, and I will. It's not my time to go - it's my time to sit in a cold bath and reality-check.

If you're staying I'm glad you are prepared to fight for the group... If you are going then you have to do what is best for yourself...

I have no intention of letting the italics attitude towards the support I offer change what I do... I do hope nobody else does either...

That is what I meant Kaz
It is very much a family problem

I have hardly been able to get into the site.
I am glad it appears as if people are staying

I'll still be around. I plan to be on hootoo till they shut the thing down. And Krispy, Kaz, everyone, you're always welcome to email me too. I haven't been though the years of abuse some people here have, but I have experienced trauma, and my heart goes out to anyone who must deal with it.

JEllen

JEllen,

I don't think I have your email.
please email me at [email protected]
I'll email you back with my real email addy.