A Conversation for Death

what kind of crazy ARE you?

Post 61

Amanda

I am not psychotic, no.

Are you?

What a strange question.

Amanda


what kind of crazy ARE you?

Post 62

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short version
i am kind of psychotic.
it IS a rather strange question smiley - laugh

peteY!


what kind of crazy ARE you?

Post 63

Amanda

Dear oh dear.

smiley - laugh


what kind of crazy ARE you?

Post 64

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long version
i have a long explanation for everything. smiley - biggrin

psychosis is defined as
a break from reality [thought CONTENT is f**ked up]
OR
disorganized thought processes.

now, we both know that "reality" is subjective and there is no absolute reality, right? there are as many realities as there are humans, monkeys, etc... [whatever has a consciousness]

so, if there is no single absolute reality, then how can psychosis be defined? it's definition depends on deviation from such an absolute reality. but one does not exist. therefore, "psychosis" is not black or white, but shades of grey...

we are all psychotic relative to one another.

i believe that life's a bitch but whoever just won the lottery probably does not.

make sense?

all this psych stuff is really interesting. probably good for me since i'm a psychiatrist smiley - smiley

anywho, the cognitive distortions of depression run along the same spectrum as psychosis. that's my unconventional opinion on the subject.

have you heard of depressive realism? i think you and i have it!

peteY out smiley - ok


what kind of crazy ARE you?

Post 65

Amanda

Depressive realism?

Nope.

Please tell me more.

Amanda


Depression realism

Post 66

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hey, i wonder if all these conversations deviate from the original subject so much that nobody knows anymore what we were talking about initially smiley - laugh

ok, depressive realism is the flip side of the cognitive theory of depression

first the cog theory of dep states that smiley - blue folks, like us, tend to view themselves, the world, and the future in a skewed negative way and this leads to and perpetuates their depression smiley - crysmiley - wah.

now, depressive realism states that depressed folks, like us, actually see everything MORE ACCURATELY. and, we are depressed because everything DOES suck a$$! those nondepressed people aren't depressed because they have positively biased, distorted perceptions about themselves [they think they're better than they really are], the world [they think it's better than it really is], and the future [they think it's more hopeful than it really is]...

how's this sound to ya?

btw, how can you say you're not psychotic with a name like "maniac" smiley - laugh
hey, after my little "psychosis" lecture, would you say that you, too, are psychotic?

Petey out! smiley - ok


Depression realism

Post 67

Amanda

I might be a little psychotic then yes, going on your definition.

And I like your idea about depressive realism. It sounds like it could be quite right.
Maniac is a long story. I have used the name maniac since I was 18. And it just stuck.


Depression realism

Post 68

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i like "depressive realism", too. but, i think even more fundamental is my hedonic set point theory. Now, THAT is the TRUE determinant of whether of not life sucks and if so, how sucky life is...
it all boils down to your neurobiological state!
very humbling and very dehumanizing, but it is true, i tell you!

about your "maniac" name, didn't you say that it was b/c you had a really tough time getting your PC set up? smiley - laugh

and, about being smiley - blue. i take it that you share these ideas with me:
1. there is no meaning in life
2. everyone is selfish [altruism is selfishness in disguise]
3. life ends at death
4. we are here b/c of a random series of events
5. there is no one watching out for us.
6. the ongoing pursuit of happiness is perhaps futile, especially for people like us, who apparently have lower smiley - blue hedonic setpoints

petey out! smiley - ok


Depression realism

Post 69

Amanda

Consider this.

An extinction Level Event such as a comet.
Armagedon is on the TV at the moment.
I have not seen it before as I HATE Bruce Willis, although I loved him in Sixth Sense.

PeteY - about being smiley - blue . i take it that you share these ideas with me:
1. there is no meaning in life
2. everyone is selfish [altruism is selfishness in disguise]
3. life ends at death
4. we are here b/c of a random series of events
5. there is no one watching out for us.
6. the ongoing pursuit of happiness is perhaps futile, especially for people like us, who apparently have lower hedonic setpoints


Don't think there is a meaning although like a lot of people have said in this thread, it means what you want it to mean.

Not everyone is selfish.

Life probably ends at death. (Maybe)

Random events? erm.. interesting. Maybe.

I think something looks out for us. Maybe people who have died look after us. (see 3)

If we look for happiness, at least we have hope. smiley - laugh

Amanda out smiley - ok


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 70

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smiley - laugh

amanda: "Don't think there is a meaning although like a lot of people have said in this thread, it means what you want it to mean."
petey: AGREED. i think that whole meaning of life debate does tend to be overdone. keep rehashing the same stuff smiley - laugh

amanda: Not everyone is selfish.
petey: who isn't selfish? Gandhi? i think that we are selfish b/c of evolution. the nonselfish people didn't make it smiley - laugh

amanda: Life probably ends at death. (Maybe)
petey: i see that you have been beguiled by hasselfree's eloquent argument for re-incarnation! smiley - laugh

AMANDA: I think something looks out for us. Maybe people who have died look after us. (see 3)
petey: you're joking, right? i see that i'm gonna have to undo some of hasselfree's teachings smiley - laugh
hey, if dead people don't look after us, then what else could that "something" be?

amanda: If we look for happiness, at least we have hope.
peteY: lack of hope is one of the biggest determinants of suicide attempts. smiley - blue
have you ever thought about suicide? i have, but only passively. i made a flipbook of myself blowing my head off smiley - biggrin
some 12 yo girl thought it was "funny", so she copied it.
weird, huh?

peteY out! smiley - ok


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 71

Amanda

I have thought about suicide, but only fleetingly.
Never contemplated it though.

Do you not believe in ghosts?

I think I do.

Amanda


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 72

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smiley - ghost
?????

no way! you do?! really?! smiley - yikes
so, you MUST believe in something like a "soul" that persists after our bodies decompose, right?

what makes you tend to believe in smiley - ghost?

petey

oh, btw, i'm glad to hear that you haven't really thought about offing yourself. however, if it came to that, i could give you some rec's... if you try it, you wanna do it right... smiley - laugh


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 73

Amanda

I have had a few 'weird' experiences which lead me to believe in smiley - ghost
It might be a soul I am thinking about.
I am contradicting myself again arn't I?
I think I do believe in something after death. Dunno what it is though.

Amanda


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 74

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no! please say it isn't so! i'm trying to find another human on this planet like me and susY smiley - laugh
check out my bio and you'll notice that you're in there smiley - blush

so, what were these "weird" exp?
and, where could a soul come from?
and, are you sure it isn't just wishful thinking about something after death?

what would it take for me to convince you that there is no such thing as a "soul" and that we should not expect anything after death? smiley - laugh

good grief, you might become even more smiley - blue if you hear too much of my thinking
smiley - laugh
and, what about those methods of suicide? interested, just for kicks?

petey


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 75

Amanda

Maybe smiley - ghost stuff is wishful thinking and my mind playing tricks.
I lost a brother and strange things have haapened since. Too many to go into, but things that make you wonder, that's all.

A soul could come from..erm..dunno.
Could our body not be a carrier for our soul.
The thing that is us, is not our body. If we were just a torso and a head, we could survive in this medium, so why not survive after death in another medium? ie, without a body?

I still think me and you are thinking along the same lines, maybe I am trying to think like we continue to make myself feel better.

Amanda out. smiley - ok


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 76

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hey, did you know that you could do this smiley - erm for "erm"? smiley - laugh
and, smiley - sorry about your brother.
i don't wanna get you more down, but i gotta be mr cynical here as always smiley - biggrin
i think that the "soul" is thought of as one's self awareness or one's consciousness, right?
now, all the evidence suggests that this is correlated with some physical event[s] or state[s] in our brain and, thus, depends on this.
for example, if you destroy too much of the brain, then the self-awareness vanishes, or so it seems...
it just seems that the logical assumption would be that the mind-brain connection leads us to the inevitable conclusion that when the biological substrate ceases to exist, then the "subjective" correlation also vanishes...

petey's depressing amanda, huh? smiley - blue


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 77

Amanda

I sometimes get fed up with the smileys. Can't remember what they all are. smiley - headhurts

I have opened a smiley window so I will put some more in here.smiley - tongueout

Spose you are right. If we get brain damaged and lose self awareness, we are no longer. I spose Death can constitute brain damage. smiley - huh

I am not depressed no. Don't worry.
I am watching Bruce Willis trying to save the world in Armagedon and talking about life and everything else online. What more could a girl wish for. smiley - silly


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 78

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i have a smiley window, too. so many options... i just wish i could use something like this smiley - nahnah
i laughed out loud smiley - laugh at your death = brain damage idea! i would consider death to be the ultimate brain damage smiley - biggrin
i thought armageddon was decent. i won't spoil it for you, though.
guess if it hits Earth...

hey, you're not depressed at all smiley - blue? is your prozac working that well smiley - biggrin

i'm still depressed on celexa smiley - blue


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 79

Amanda

smiley - nahnah I like that one!

I have good days and bad days.
The prozac is quite good. Restores 'normal' parameters.
Makes me shake though in the morningsm, that's a bit of a pain.
I think I may have seen the end of this film. It's starting to look familiar now.

Don't be too smiley - blue

smiley - blue is not good.

Amanda smiley - ok

smiley - cheerup For you.


has hasselfree been brainwashing ya?

Post 80

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"normal parameters"? smiley - huh what are you, an android like Data?
i think i need to try somethin' else. maybe ECT smiley - laugh or an MAO I
do you think that there's something that could help you in addition to meds? like therapy? get this... i'm starting therapy next week...how's that for f**ked up?

tx for the smiley - cheers

hey, i have some ideas about factors in depression, esp in younger folks. wanna hear it? sure you do. but, first, i have to know if you're single. smiley - laugh

smiley - cheers to you, too

petey out!


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