h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm 14. I'm not supposed to be thinking about death. Yet I am. sometimes i'm curios, sometimes i fear it, but most of the time i think about it as something inevitable that is waiting around the corner of every idle building and its just a matter of time until it creeps up at me. (at this point id like to add that im not in any way a pessimist. im simply an overimaginative extreme optimist. in fact, im the most cheerful person in any given environment.)
this night i had a really creepy dream. it was like as if the world went wrong and everyone died except select few (including me) who survived. for some reason we were all somewhere around north pole. i noticed that the ice was really thin and it was really hot. apparently, the earth somehow left its orbit and was flying towards the sun and there was nothing any of us could do about it. then a bunch of aliens came (another subject i ponder upon maybe a bit too often for someone like me) and told us we'll all die within the next ten minutes. and now, the most important part of the dream:
i had to decide whether i wanted to be killed quickly by one of the survivors, or await "natural" death. i couldn't decide. then, one of the survivors (i didnt recognize any of them as people i came into contact in real life) went mad and started stabbing everyone so they wont have to die. my turn came. accrding to the dream, dying is a lot like a roller coaster ride: your body is in one palce, but it feels like its still somewhere ele. so i died and the last thing i saw was the aliens laughing and redirecting earth into its correct path, thus eliminating all life on earth.
that would probably make a mediocre sci-fi novel, but thats not the point. the point is that death, i think, is simply the result of human stupidity idiocy and inability to deal with things. but its inevitable because numans are to foolish to overcome their childish fears and trivial beliefs.

ps four words about suicide: for conceited retards only

Your comment about suicide clearly shows that you have never really felt suicidal. When seriously considering suicide, one usually feels that the detriment they would cause to the people they love by continuing to live, is more than the pain their loved ones would feel as a result of their suicide. Truly feeling this way is painful in the sense that your life is irredeemable; it is not selfish, a way to get attention, or (necessarily) jumped to as an "easy" way out.

I hope you never really understand what leads up to suicide. I also hope you won't rush to a wrong assessment of someone who is feeling suicidal.