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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
*stares sadly at the pin that is nearly all the way in, straight down in her shoulder* I knew I wouldn't make it through the night... at least it is nothing that will leave a yucky mark for when I see Michelle tomorrow.................... *sighs* Should I bother still trying? I mean... doing one thing doesn't mean I should give up totally... then again, if I keep trying, won't I just be like this again in two days time? *sighs* I need sleep. *starts making a playlist of music for her to listen to while she sleeps*
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
I agree. *continues with her play list*
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GodBen (The Magical Astronomer) - 00000011 Posted Apr 7, 2005
You should have thought about the orange penguin or pink elephant as I told you to.
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
I don't have that much conrtol over my thoughts when I am like this...
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GodBen (The Magical Astronomer) - 00000011 Posted Apr 7, 2005
OK, try this: Try to NOT think about a orange penguin and a pink elephant having a conversation about the price of blue ducks nowadays.
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
Ok, that I can do, but that's because I wouldn't be thinking about that anyway, and I can't even remember what it is as I am writing this.
Anyway, I'd love to stick around and talk about your helpful little tips, but I really need to sleep because I have to do lots of cleaning tomorrow morning and then get ready to go out, which requires waking up earlier than I usually do... so yes.... if you or anyone else has any advice on how to quit or whether I should even try anymore, just let me know and I'll read it some time tomorrow probably...
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GodBen (The Magical Astronomer) - 00000011 Posted Apr 7, 2005
Hey, it's your life. You can do what you want with it. The last thing I want to do is be like those bl**dy pro-life groups, trying to tell everyone how to live.
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T.B. Falsename ACE: [stercus venio] I have learned from my mistakes, and feel I could repeat them exactly. Posted Apr 7, 2005
Dani, keep trying, you made it this far and the less you do it the easier it will be to not do it
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Scandrea Posted Apr 7, 2005
It's all right 
tomorrow is another opportunity. We all believe in you, and if you need to rant, rant to us!
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
Well, it's now tomorrow, and I still feel like s***. *sighs*
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Scandrea Posted Apr 7, 2005
Dani, please don't get mad at me- I'm going to ask you a few questions.
Why do you want to cut? Do you need to see blood, or feel pain, or something else entirely? If we figure out what makes you do this, we might be able to work around it instead of you going through all this.
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 7, 2005
It's the pain, I guess... 'cause other ways of self harm that don't involve bleeding still work... although I prefer cutting 'cause being able to watch myself bleed kind of makes me feel I know it's real... if that makes sense. 
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Scandrea Posted Apr 8, 2005
Have you just tried putting an ice cube on your skin, or a spoon that's been in the freezer for a while?
...I dunno... catsup if you want to see blood?
There's always eating ginger or hot sauce straight, in a pinch.
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Cat-Eyes: No..... why.... ? Posted Apr 8, 2005
Ewwww, I hate ginger...
But that's completely irrelovent...
Dani, did you say you weren't coming to Inverloch? It's ok both ways, I'm just curious!
...Dante just fell off the chair into the wall... Strange kitten...
Call me or text me if you have any problems!
Cat
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Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} Posted Apr 8, 2005
Steph is sad Dani isnt online right now.
But Dani, keep going, this is one relapse! 
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Sponge Rob Squarepants Posted Apr 9, 2005
Don't worry if you give in babe...
The fact that you are trying and are still willing to try even after giving in counts for a lot..
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 9, 2005
Thanks. Your reassuring words mean a lot to me.
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Sponge Rob Squarepants Posted Apr 9, 2005
Everyone here wants you to succeed or at least is proud that you are giving it your best.. 
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manson_rocks - When all of your wishes are granted, many of your dreams will be destroyed. Posted Apr 9, 2005
You're so sweet.
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- 22: GodBen (The Magical Astronomer) - 00000011 (Apr 7, 2005)
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- 29: T.B. Falsename ACE: [stercus venio] I have learned from my mistakes, and feel I could repeat them exactly. (Apr 7, 2005)
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- 36: Horatio_Caine: {Princess Garnet Til Alexandros XVII} (Apr 8, 2005)
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