h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

...a new journal entry!
Okay, it's update-time
I've been home now for nearly three weeks. When I left Passau, I still hadn't found a new tennant for my flat, but my landlord&lady found a student who took it on the 15th april. That was , otherwise I would have been bound by contract to keep on paying the rent.
In february I signed out of university in Passau. In the last week of march I found out that I could still enroll in certain courses of study in Düsseldorf university (which is only half an hour away from home). So I wrote to them, and I'm now enrolled as a student of chemistry. *Ahem* This of course isn't *quite* my favourite subject. But as I don't mean to stay in Düsseldorf, nobody needs to know . The Kindergeld my parents get in 6 months (I don't know if this kind of allocation exists everywhere ) is more than I had to pay to enroll, and I can keep my insurance-status, AND I get a free ticket for trains and buses in the whole area. So it was worth it, even though my CV will look more patch-work like than ever.
So now I go to uni every other day and listen to lectures that interest me. (Nothing on chemistry so far. ) Lectures here aren't restricted, so practically anyone can sit in the auditorium and just listen. I never take notes and don't mean to write any exams this term.
Which leads me onto the next subject: I still consider myself to be on recovery. I've been taking anti-depressants for nearly three months now, as Ed and JEllen already know. Thank you guys again for encouraging me , I was really alone at that time. My parents and my two best friends know about the medication now, but I don't think they *quite get it*, I'm not sure they realize how ill I was.
The meds are working okay, they help me to have the energy to face everyday life. My constant fear and tension have really subsided. I had several drawbacks, but all in all it's better that it was. The side-effects were bad in the beginning, but I don't notice any at the moment, except that I have gained some weight.
I have made an appointment in some ten days time with a new neurologist, here in town. And I've copied out a list of psychologists from the yellow pages, I'll try and get an appointment with a therapist soon.
Other plans are...searching for a new university for the autumn-term. And trying to live a normal life, I guess .

Traveller in Time also with patchwork on his Curriculum Vitae
"Many jobs require a lot of different knowledge. The main thing it will say is you do not give up and that is one good sign. "

Hi there!

It's a lot to take in, and I'm not sure I have any brilliant advice at this point. Other than hang in there, of course!

Hope things will start coming together for you. I've found that they often do just when I think they couldn't get any more ed up. Fingers crossed.

Thank you, it's good to know that there are friendly people here

Hi Susanne, great to hear that things are going better for you. I know it took courage to see a doctor etc. I'm proud of you. Great that your landlady found a new tenant in time too.

I've been going through a little down spell --- sleeping a lot, but I think I'll come out of it soon. I've also been dieting, and that is going pretty well. I've lost about 8 pounds in a month.

"What doesn't kill you makes you strong." Well done. You've made yourself into a stronger person.

I was thinking about you the other day. Good luck. Keep giving us updates.