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I'm getting sloshed on a bottle of wine right now, so that made me pluck up the courage to write a journal entry again.

So, yeah, my depression has come back. It's been going on for weeks on end and it doesn't seem to stop. I've got an appointment with the university's psychologist next friday, so I've got to wait another week (actually, I fixed the appointment a week and a half ago - pretty long time you have to wait, huh?).

I can do nothing but read, and do mechanical things like cleaning and washing up and things like that. Unable to do study or write or go out or even talk to people. *sigh* I hope they can help me, I had an extremely bad day about 2 weeks ago, I thought I was losing my mind. I want to go home so desperately - but I have to wait another 2 weeks. I'm missing a lot of things, I have a very strong desire to be at the seaside with someone - not alone, that would be useless. .

I can do nearly nothing for uni, and that gives me a bad conscience.

I'm going to bed now..Can I delete this tomorrow ? But maybe I shouldn't. I just don't dare to write this normally, but it's true. Man oh man, that was one bad wednesday 2 weeks ago, I thought I was going crazy, stepping into nothingness with my thoughts. I never want to experience that again. And since (and before, also) I've been telling myself "It's going to be alright, don't worry", I'm just trying to convince myself . I've also had some feelings of panic in these last weeks, that was awful.

It has to get better. I'm going to move away from here, though I don't know how, but I'm really going crazy here. Why should it be so hard?

My next journal entry will be more cheerful, I promise.

Hi Traveller. I just had to get that out yesterday. Fiddling around with my Personal Space is also a nice therapy. I'm going to make it a bit fancier...

Hope you are feeling better soon my dear.

Thank you JEllen. I read your journal about the move - on top of everything that stupid car crash, good that you and Micio weren't hurt!

wow - I love all the pots piled up in one of the photos...

opps I posted into the wrong entry of yours Suzanne, I was talking about that warehouse link that you posted, of where you got your interesting cups....

Sorry to hear you have been feeling down lately