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At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
njan (afh) Started conversation Jan 18, 2003
I don't know that I've ever felt anything like this before.
I feel like describing it as utter, utter dread; but that's only because the only anticipation I've ever felt that was this strong was felt in abject fear. I've not ever wanted something so much as this, and I've never had anything of this magnitute come this close to fruition, far less rise to the level of a planned certainty. I feel like the whole of a long-anticipated pilgrimage has been compressed into such a short space of time; I have less than a day's worth of time ahead of me, and every minute feels like an hour, filled with spiritual upheaval bubbling from the core of my soul, like an uplit geiser of boiling, bubbling, sparkling water.
Somehow, I'm being allowed to walk close to something precious, as a tombraider to the prized jewel in the center of a forboding mausoleum; certain at any moment to be blatted into oblivion. And yet I don't think that I will, and the prized jewel is tantalisingly close. All that I have to do.. is to wait. Scaryness.
My language is breaking down.
I'm waiting. 
..Here and now, long and loud
My heart cries out..
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
Saturn Girl ~ 1 of 42 (Borg Queen A761708) ~ Gollum's keeper + some ~ [1*7(0!+2)(0!+1)=42] Posted Jan 18, 2003
I guess this is what pre-date jitters are like on a larger scale... 
*hugs* Have fun!
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
Vip Posted Jan 20, 2003
Just trust. Things work. Things will happen. Breathe. Enjoy the anticipation for all it's worth.
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
njan (afh) Posted Jan 21, 2003
.. at the point you posted that, VIP, she was here already. And she's really rather lovely. (in fact, quite phenomenally so). .. but thankyou.. I did, and they are. I hope.
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
marvthegrate LtG KEA Posted Jan 21, 2003
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
njan (afh) Posted Jan 21, 2003
whoa.. .. y'ok?
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
marvthegrate LtG KEA Posted Jan 21, 2003
Quite alright. Just glad for the two of you.
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
njan (afh) Posted Jan 21, 2003
.. thankyou.
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
marvthegrate LtG KEA Posted Jan 21, 2003
After the experiences of my own over the last 12 months I am quite thrilled to see that two friends are finding something true over the ether and in person. It is very good to see that.
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
Vip Posted Jan 21, 2003
*can't stop smiling*
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
njan (afh) Posted Jan 21, 2003
*smiles*.. fortune's smiling on us as well, I think. 
*s to you both*
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
Vip Posted Jan 22, 2003
*turns to potholer*
Aren't you the tiddy-est, mini-est, ikkle-est bit jealous?
At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
Potholer Posted Jan 22, 2003
Being realistic, I somehow think my advanced years ruled me out of the running for anything outside the 'friend' category.
It is lovely to know that Nyssa is happy (and njan too, I guess...)
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At the close of day, the sunset cloaks these words in shadowplay..
- 1: njan (afh) (Jan 18, 2003)
- 2: Saturn Girl ~ 1 of 42 (Borg Queen A761708) ~ Gollum's keeper + some ~ [1*7(0!+2)(0!+1)=42] (Jan 18, 2003)
- 3: Vip (Jan 20, 2003)
- 4: njan (afh) (Jan 21, 2003)
- 5: marvthegrate LtG KEA (Jan 21, 2003)
- 6: njan (afh) (Jan 21, 2003)
- 7: marvthegrate LtG KEA (Jan 21, 2003)
- 8: njan (afh) (Jan 21, 2003)
- 9: marvthegrate LtG KEA (Jan 21, 2003)
- 10: Vip (Jan 21, 2003)
- 11: njan (afh) (Jan 21, 2003)
- 12: Potholer (Jan 21, 2003)
- 13: Vip (Jan 22, 2003)
- 14: Potholer (Jan 22, 2003)
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