h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

oops...... i forgot to sign out last night....i'm sorry about that...

you're so awefully distracting! even if you're not here! that journal was soooo long.... but of course seeing as you were the one who wrote it i had to read it! and reply!

i didnt sleep very well... i havent at all lately. i've been having trouble falling asleep, and i lay there for an hour at the very least, just staring at the ceilling.
i wish i'd dreamed of kittens. for the second night in a row i've dreamed of people being murdered....... not very nice, especially if you're watching it happen. kind of werid. and i dont even know why i dreamed it... its not like i was listening to/reading/ watching anything violent before bed, or even all week really....

i have a history test tomorrow, i havent started studying at all yet... i should do that... hmmm...

oooh! guess what!? i got 15/15 on my hamlet memorization. and on the act 3 test i got 25/25, the only perfect mark in his two english classes.

hope to see you soon
i'll tell you all about the lady and the job in the email i'm going to send you..... as soon as i do my work...
ok, history time! must do......

Weird. I wasn't /able/ to sign out last night; hootoo crashed again soon after you left. Or something like that, anyway.

Man, that journal wasn't going to be anywhere /near/ that long when I started. I don't know what happened!
Whatever it is, it happens every time.

Perhaps I can only properly express myself when I'm typing, or something. So it all just spills out.

I just spent ages writing an e-mail to an engineer I found in Auckland, who's interested in designing a chainmail machine for me. Oh god I hope he does.

And then I was going to write a quick e-mail to my dwarf, just asking him to add me to his group of people he sends his generic updates to, because I'm sick of not knowing which country he's in, or what he's up to. And I've been meaning to do it for a while. But somehow I ended up telling him all about uni, and the idea for the microlite and going to Canada, and about Ilya and all sorts of other things and... I think I talk too much.

Hehee! Fuzzy-fuzz-fuzz. Sounds like a fluffy bee!

Yay for you and your great marks! Well done!

you talk to much!? if you do i do.
i only know one thing, and that is that you could never possibly talk to me too much, in my opinion anyway

i know what you mean about it all spilling out when you type...... happens to me in all the letters i write to you, hope you dont mind.

i really hope it does that for you! good luck with that!!

i'm going to get myself a glass of warm milki'm hopeing that will help me sleep better tonight. i dont know... i really hope so.

too bad its so late already, i was looking forward to talking to you a little. oh well, cant be helped i suppose. i'm on for annother 38 mins.

hello

staying long tonight?

i've finished my law homework! yay!

I haven't seen you on yet today; pity.
I'm /so/ tired; I barely slept at all last night. Maybe warm milk will be a really good idea when I get home, too.

The chat with the engineer from Auckland went well; he seemed really keen on the idea, now I just have to wait for him to get back to me again.

Ah well back to the assignment.

hey! simulpost!
i didnt even notice. whoops.

well i'm here now!!! *waves arms*


good, i'm glad the talk went well. i really hope he will do it for you.

aww.... you barely slept? thats no good. i had trouble falling asleep, but i did get sleep. although i should give you the advice that if you decide to have warm milk you shouldnt have too much. i had too much before bed... made me feel a little sick...watch out, the milk is dangerous

good luck on your assignment what is it this time?

It's the Haskell assignment again. I'm really starting to run out of time; I wanted to have it finished this week so that I could have all of next week to do the other one, and I know I'm going to need it. But I'm not even half way through this one.

aww! jerms!!!

hang in there i know you can do it

*whisper* whats the haskell assignment?

http://www.cs.waikato.ac.nz/~mjeff/COMP313A/assignments/ass2.2005.html

wow.........
i...ummm.....wow..... yes, you're definately a genious.


i read it all, and i think i vaguely understand what it is you're supposed to do, but i havent a clue how any of it is supposed to be done....

thanks for the link it was definately interesting.
i like to see what you're doing.

you're amazing.

i'm sorry i cant stay up and keep you company, but i have to go in 5 mins.

goodnight jerms, i hope you sleep better tonight than you did last night.
i guess i'll talk to you tomorrow i'll be on as soon as i get home, so about 3:30 my time. i think i'll be seeing you a little after that...

you're on! you're on!! ...you're off...?

rats, looks like i just missed you.
with any luck you'll be back...

till then i'll read your journal


missed you!

you are not a virtual stranger!
well maybe kind of virtual...but well, i'm not thinking about that. besides, i'd like to think i could say you're not a stranger...


i read your journal.... you sound kind of sad. is everything alright with you?

i sent you a letter, i hope it helps.

hey jerms?
i love you my friend. if you need me i'm here for you. and take care of you.cuddle>

I'm stranger than you? Therefore I'm a virtual stranger. Or something.

I am so goddamn tired.

I love you. You're great.

I'm not okay. Need sleep. Need my head to not be collapsing every time I try to think about my assignments. Need to not be having panic attacks every time I look at the spec sheets for them. Need to not be running out of time to hand them in. Need to be able to find the lecturors so I can fill in the huge gaps in my understanding of the concepts I'm supposed to be coding. Need to not be getting sick. Aparrantly I need different vitamins to what I'm actually taking. But I need more money to be able to buy them, too.
I'm thinking about not coming back to uni next year, and maybe not next semester either. At this stage it's even tempting not to come in next week. I barely made it in today. There are two jobs I might apply for when they get released, and if I actually get one then that might be it for me for uni. Ever. But if I leave now, I won't come back and I won't graduate. And that will be another thing that I've started and never finished, and that would depress me too. But being at uni is playing merry hell with my stress levels, so I don't know what would be worse, really. Damned if I do, damned if I don't. And either way I'll still have a $50,000 student loan to pay off. It's better to leave the country and never return than it is to pay it back.
I'm so stressed I even seriously considered asking my parents if I can move back in with them again. And we're talking about the people who burnt everything I left behind when I moved out, eight years ago.
I need a holiday. And it's been less than a week and a half since the last one finished. Only five more weeks to go in the semester. Yay. Exams can't possibly be more stressful than this. I'll find out I guess.

I need to be able to sleep.

well thank you.

is there anything at all i can do to help you? does writing you emails for you to lookforward to help you at all?
really i'd do anything for you, if you think it will help i'll even call you.
are you gettng my texts? i know you cant reply, but if you're still getting them i'll keep sending them.

moving back in with your parents? i dont know if it would would be better or worse. i know you dont like them, on the other hand maybe it could be a good thing.

i dont know about not finishing uni. or finishing it for that matter. i know that you are smart enough to do it, but i want you to be ok. its very very important. and i know that uni stresses you out alot. i want you to know that no matter what it is you deside to do, stay or go, i love you totally and i'm very very proud of you.
i'm so lucky to have you, and i'm so proud to say i know you, and proud to think you consider me a friend.

if theres anything at all i can do to help you let me know

See? Like I said, you're great.

I always look forward to e-mails, whether I'm too busy to read them straight away or not. E-mails from you are great.

Don't bother calling me this week; only because you'd have to be calling at like 3am or something to be able to catch me awake and out of the lab. For about the last two weeks I think, I've spent no more than about 20 minutes at home and awake in one go. Apart from when I can't sleep and lie in bed for hours wishing I could sleep. But apart from that I'm either getting changed, leaving, arriving, or at the lab. And sometimes sleeping, if I'm lucky.

I'm not sure about the texts. I assume I'm getting them, but I don't remember just now. Nothing personal; I don't remember anything at the moment. I can't remember what I had for breakfast, I can barely remember what I had for lunch not ten minutes ago, and I'm struggling to remember what my flat looks like. My brain is dead. D-E-D dead.

Luckily I've managed to get a lot done on the main assignment since my last post; but now I have two questions to ask the lecturor, which I absolutely need to know to be able to work on this assignment much more. And the webmail died, so I can't e-mail him. And he's not in his office; there's a note on the door saying he's in G.1.07. He's not. I went back again and wrote 'Lies!' on the note.
So now I'm going to assume the answer to one of the questions and hope like hell I'm right, else I'm just making more work for myself. And then when I run out of stuff I can do without knowing the answer to the second question, I'll either hope like hell he's replied already, or go back to working on the other horrible assignment. Which is so big, hairy and ugly that the lecturor is considering removing quarter of it; we've been working on it for about three weeks and it's due in on monday and most people are stuck on question two. Out of four.

So yeah. Still stressed. Not as much as I was before, although I'm coughing more now. Cross fingers I can actually sleep tonight, that would be awesome.

Hugs!

aww... thanks jerms you're great too.

i'm glad you think my emails are great. in that case i'll keep sending them to you. did you get the last on i sent? "may you walk in fields of gold"? i'd write annother this week but i work from 7:30-at the very least 8:05.
actually *looks at clock* shouldnt reply to this.....*sigh*

so unfortunately i cant be with you today here on hootoo and i cant write you either. but i'll try and text you this morning.
but i promise to save $50 from this job to call you when you have time for it.

dont worry about not remembering its ok but it makes me worried that you dont remember things like what you ate 10 mins ago, or what your flat looks like. but if you can still do things like work, type, know who i am, and look for your lecturor i think you're still sort of ok, and i wont panic yet.

i'm glad you got alot done on your assignment since that last post.

my fingers are crossed for you sleeping tonight, actually you should still be sleeping right now. i hope you actualy are.

ok, behind schedule. must go run to get ready for work so i'm not late like i was in my nightmare yes, i had a very stupid nightmare about work

love you, take care of you

Thank you!

I'm feeling heaps better today; I got at least four hours sleep last night. Yay!

Yes I got the e-mail... I like random e-mail titles! I assume yours was some song lyric? It arrived just before one from my dwarf with the subject "Mooing in the wind."
I'll reply to it when I have some free time, probably early next week I imagine.

Silly work; why can't we all just get paid enourmous wads of cash to just hang about hootoo all day instead? That would be awesome!

I'm taking care of myself, wherever possible. It seems you are too, but have a hug anyway, 'coz it's a hug and therefore good whether you need it or not...

you're welcome!!!

i'm sooo glad you're feeling better! yay 4 hours sleep!

i'm glad you got the email yes, the title was from a song. "fields of gold" by sting. it was what i was listening to while i wrote part of it, and then i just thought the title fit as it was a nice thing to say.

yay! a reply! i cant wait, but dont worry if you dont have time for a little while, i undersatnd

oooh... speaking of emails..... i'll write you a long one about my scary voting registration officer experence if you like and probably other random things too. i'm glad you like my random emails from me. when you said that you didnt feel with being with any of your friends lately i was afraid it included me, and so i was worried you wouldnt like the emial

i agree! silly work! i'd love to be paid to hang around hootoo. it'd be great. there isnt alot i can think of i'd much rather do.

glad to hear you're taking care of you
i am, but as it happens your came at just a time when i needed one. someone wasnt nice to me and what with how i was feeling at the time i just about wanted to cry. stupid work.

glad i get a little time to talk to you

Yay! You're online! At the same time as me! *falls over backwards*

Tell me all about the job if you want, but I may not be able to concentrate; the air con is bung and it's about fourty degrees or something horrible.
Plus my program is being weird and telling me that 43 divided by 293 equals 0.

And now you've signed off again.

Hope you sleep well gorgeous!