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Friday 17 December 1999
Posted Dec 17, 1999
All righty then. I think my prevailing bad mood has passed, and it seems to have done so with the re-appearance of the sun. Maybe I am inclined towards SAD...?
Work is going well (the internet server has finally been fixed,a nd I can get on with some stuff, which is a relief), life is good, if a little routine, and I am hopeful of achieving great things. I will try in future not to display too much of my displeasure at unavoidable misfortunes...
! Better yet, I will try not to have such displeasure at all.
Weather, as mentioned, is improving. The France-sized cloud mass that has been moving over the area for the last few days seems to be almost entirely gone. Blue sky is a blessing.
Have a good weekend!
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Thursday 16 December 1999
Posted Dec 15, 1999
OK, I've got the shits, and it's time for a rant...
Almost all the women I know are either married, divorced, coupled or in the throes of "getting over" the last guy they were with. None of the single ones seem to want to be with me enough that they have actually tried to get me interested in being with them.
I'm sick of it. The whole damn' pursuit is tiring and fruitless. All it does for me is make people smile - which is fine in itself but doesn't provide me with any physical satisfaction. I'm tired of being ignored by the people who can do most to relieve my distress (married and coupled women, interestingly enough, seem to find me fascinating, but it still doesn't get me supine).
I'm tired of waiting to be noticed, of being actively prevented from telling women how good they look and how much I want them. I'm tired of preventing myself from saying so much about the women who excite me. I'm equally sickened by the prospect of telling these women how much they excite me and having them ignore or belittle me.
I'm fed up with other people's expectations, I'm distressed at how little consideration I even seem to be due in the course of normal societal behaviour, and I'm disgusted that I can work so hard, be so nice, seem so friendly, listen so much to the trivialities which beset the daily existences of other people, devote so much time, attention, sympathy, understanding and friendship and still have noone who wants to listen to me, sympathise with me, try to understand me. I don't mind actually doing all these things, mind you, but there has to be something more to it from others than unending loneliness and superficial appreciation.
To put it bluntly, I'm shat to bits, and it's only Thursday morning...
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Wednesday 15 December 1999
Posted Dec 15, 1999
Does anyone else understand the joys of share housing? Finding that half your olive oil, all your juice and a large amount of your ice cream topping have mysteriously disappeared while you weren't there?
Sharing your space with a dog you don't want to have in the house, a "spare" person who's really not meant to be here at this srage, and a motorcycle in the garage which attracts trouble like the winds of pestilence?
The only sane times of the day are the ones when nobody else is up, and the only food which is safe from being pilfered is in your room.
Weather's been OK. although frequent, brief rainstorms have made life interesting for a while. Walking back from lunch in Woden today I was - for want of a better expression - "pissed on", by a guy who has clearly had a lot to drink while participating in an "iron man" contest. I spent about an hour sitting in my room at work with my shirt off (I did have an undershirt on at the time!) waiting for it to dry, while my undershirt sat on my body and itched. It's hot. After the rain, it's also sticky...
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Thursday 9 December 1999
Posted Dec 9, 1999
I'm tired, and bereft of inspiration. I'm really sorry, Shazz, but I'm still working on that article! We all know that linking is good - it's one of the best features of the internet, and one of the things that makes information so quick to spread using this fabulous communication tool (which is what the 'net really is - h2g2 is rare among communication sites that it actually generates and preserves, rather than simply swaps, information), and one of the things that is the modern manifestation of the bibliographer's art, and being good at it is one of the best features of the best 'net writing - but how can you say so and be funny about it? Thucydides did not trust his own judgements on the events he reported, but relied on the documentary evidence, and linking is one of the most effective and soon to be critical ways of doing that. How to say so, though?
The 'net has generated so much information, that the best links often make the best writing for the medium. How to choose the best links? Those that represent the most authoritative sources. Those that represent the most authoritative sources, in this context, seem to be - but aren't necessarily - the ones with the most links to other sites, all of which support what they say. The cleverest 'net writers can link to sites which say something completely in opposition to what they have been writing, but can generate new onformation nonetheless. h2g2 writers haven't yet made the most of this art, which is really what it is because it hasn't yet been quantified into a science.
Links are good, but in using them you must be careful that they say what you think they need to. You must also consider those that say something other than that - good research considers as many sources as can be found, after all, and even Thucydides understood this.
Wednesday and Thursday have both been displaying apparently monsoonal weather patterns over Canberra: heavy rain in the late afternoon which stops before evening. I hope bubster's puppies are OK...
I've got work coming out my ears, more Christmas parties than I can poke a stick at, a load of new articles to edit [any time now, guys!], a computer to work on, a couple of web sites to design, people to see, workouts to do, a bicycle to ride: and all I can feel at the moment is tired and lacking love.
At this moment, a joke which ends with the line "I am deep in despair." - except said in a West Indian accent - comes vividly to mind...!
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Tuesday 7 December 1999
Posted Dec 7, 1999
OK, so I'm obtuse. I got it sorted out. There is an "Options" option under "View" on my browser, and it will reveal the secrets to many things...
It never ceases to amaze me how easy it is to do something once you've figured out what the buttons actually mean...!
Weather remains calm, clear and sunny, and damned hot towards the end of the daylight today, but it's better than the continuous winter we've been enduring hitherto!
The POST rocks, and everyone seems to like it - now it's just a matter of continuing to fill it with good stuff. Ideas, ideas...
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