h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

okay... ...maybe

thanks for that

i AM getting better...

...just need more time.

... .just so those who have been following this don't worry overmuch...

he is still being my friend

i just made a neato drink with organic pineapple/coconut juice and apricot brandy... kept adding brandy when there was still room left in the glass after i used up the last of the pineapple/coconut... juice...

it has gone down very well with ice added... a real tropical delight...

and englishy guys still are my weakness...

i have recently been informed that my feistiness made some girlfriends uneasy so this is the last posting on this thread but first...

closure... here anyway... who knows if i will take it to my journal....

i probably will...

sooooooo... my englishy guy born in new zealand, brought up in England, with family in Australia... and a propensity to pronounce some words with a scottish brogue... is moving his newest flame into one of the ohanas here on the property...

he doesnt know i know but i know

i am not sure how to deal with this... i am smitten you know.. and its my first smittenness in a long long time...

i could evolve

i will try... i have my paintings that i am stretching the canvasses for...

i have the land to care for... the clearing out of the junk dead stuff and planting of hopefully native plants... if not at least non-invasive tropicals that are lovely... and that fit...

i have my counselling to do... my therapy... my journey into sanity and well being... my movement into awareness and nowness and nonpastness and nonfutureness...

i have maui to get to know... and hopefully the other islands...

and i have my goal... to build a live in art studio somewhere... where just yet i do not know... where i can contribute to the human endeavor.

i am pretty sure my counsellor will not allow me to RUN AWAY! which i so much want to do...

and i have such a rich fertile fecund creative innovative imagination that it is so hard for me to know when i am just making stuff up or really picking up on what is really happening... but...

i have my painting...

so that will have to do for now...

that will do.