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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
Bet it did
Not here to argue with ya...think we both as bad as each other chris...and im not gonna do the childish thing and say you've done this that and the other...Just that you a good person to know...no matter whats happened.
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
Dont bother with the good person thing Zoe I aint interested.
You was using me for the sex remeber so I no use to you anymore.
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
Remember that said.
And we aint as bad as each other,I wasnt using you for sex.
And I never lied about screwing other people.
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
See Chris...it hurts dosen't it...thats how i felt when i got the email...it's not nice when you feel the same way
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
No you never lied but who's to say i did screw someone else?
All you know it what i sent you
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
I see when the shoe is on the other foot...it's unforgivable but yet on the email you said i hope you can still talk to me...isn't it ironic...don't ya think a little toooooooo ironic.
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
No Zoe,It doesnt hurt it gets me mad that I convinced myself that you were telling the truth when really I knew you had slept with Kes.And you know what Zoe,That doesnt bother me.You see I knew that you had because of how you were when he went back.Worried about the neighbours and what they thought.I knew but I told myself that you wouldnt lie to me.What an idiot eh?
Well I hope it made you happy using me for sex,I think I would have used someone a little closer but hey if ya can make someone go all that way for you and convince them that you love em then why not.
By saying what you said tonight in your crappy text messages,it basically means that all you said about loving me was crap.All along it was crap.And guess which idiot fell for it.I was dreading telling you what happened on Fridsay night,because I really didnt wanna hurt you.I know I have done that enough.And it bothered me hurting you.But you tarnished all the respect and everything I had for you by saying what you said tonight.How many times did i say sorry in the email?
Ok I knew I deserved you not to talk to me and I was willing to accept that,but not what you did.It was cheap.It was low and just plain evil.And you know what Zoe,I hope you meant it.I really do.Because if you did or do love me,it is now wasted.
But it says at the beginning of this that it doesnt hurt.Thats a lie.It does.Not the fact that you slept with Kes.I can handle that.I would have handled it at the time.But its what you said tonight that hurts.But hey dont worry about it.I will get over it.I will go out with Katie on Thursday and screw the life out of her.Only this time I wont feel guilty afterwards.
Life goes on Zoe,And why waste your time talking to bad rubbish,thats what i am aint it.Life goes on.Get on with yours and leave me to mine.
End of chat.
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
No Zoe,you think I am hurt at you sleepin with Kes.I aint.
I dont care whether ya were screwing all night long,I aint interested.
Yes I did wanna speak to you still,because you know what,I love you.
yes I was wrong doing what i did on Friday,I admitted that,I was willing to accept the consequences of what I did.
I hope d that you would speak to me again Yes.
But not to say what you said.Thats what hurts.
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
Its sooooooooooooooo ironic i really do think, it's like rain on ur wedding day, its the free ride that ya already paid, its the good advice that ya just can't, take be who would have thought it figures.
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
What that I used you?
Yeah I thought that would get to ya...you know what gets me...i said to you Friday night go out and enjoy urself babes...more fool me eh...No Chris i never used you but...im soooooo glad it's f*cked ya head up.
Coz while you was away 'thinking' i was goin out of my mind woundering what was up...i thought sh*te i've done something wrong again...and im glad you've felt like sh*te all that time...Don't know if ya remember...but i never and i mean NEVER use people and i NEVER sleep around when im with someone but ur jealous little mind just can't cope with that can it.
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
Yeah i know how stupid love is...it makes you think that everything is possible and that when you not with someone it hurts the heart...and not been with them hurts more...in a way Chris i knew what you'd done...but i tried talking myself out of it...you know...no he'll have gone mad at M and been kicked out...but that was just wishful thinking
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
No Zoe,it aint f**ked my head up at all.
You just wish you had.
Sorry to dissappoint ya.
And the good news is you aint with anyone anymore so feel free to sleep with whoeevr ya want.Ring Kes and tell him come up for another session.Ring your next door neighbour.Ring D.Ring anyone,just not me.
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Chris...Trying to make sense of a wierd world. Posted Oct 7, 2003
Yeah well you got it part right.I didnt get kicked out I walked away cause i was sick of hurtin people.
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Researcher 233696 Posted Oct 7, 2003
So if it aint f*cked ya head up stop having digs at me on ya space...if you want me gone leave it
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