h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

Hey! I say you in Stealth's journal and thought id pop over and say hello! Im a panther as you can tell by the name. Ive also just got my GA wings, so im scooting about saying hello to lots of people and generally trying to be enthusiastic! !!!!!! Anyway - hello!

Hi there!
How are you?

I'm ok!!!!! You like Jack off Jill... i went to see them at Carling Leeds 2002. Was good... But other than that, dont know them too well....

The sun is shining, the birds are singing and there's a huge trafficjam outside now... im doing my ucas form...

how are you?

OK right now, I have to go and do work on Enduring Love soon but aside from that I'm good.
Ah, Jack off Jill are great, I think they've split up now though. I wanted to go to Reading this year but it was my GCSE results and my parents wanted me around ...

mmmm... i wanted to go to Leesd this year, but my mum didnt trust my boyfriend... who dumped me sunday anyway... *whimpers* so ur in L6 now? What are you doing?

ahh poor you you'll find someone new soon I'm sure...
I'm doing AS levels right now, english literature, psychology, history, religious studies.

mmmm essay subjects... thats probs quite a good idea... you can use you're imagination with that. I was a fool and did all science, so the only place i get to be creative is Biology. Which i want to do at uni. So, tell me something interesting about you?

ah! My mind always goes blank when people ask me that, rather like when I go in CD shops and temporarily forget which bands I like. Sooo ... I'm very fond of music. Muse, Placebo, Kinesis and Jack off Jill are included in my favourites, but there are very many, as you can see on my space thingy.
Hmm, so random biographical information - I have gone for almost 2 months without hurting myself, I write fiction and poetry, I am fond of persaonlity tests, I have a great relationship with my sister who is 12 and very cool, I am semi bisexual which everyone in my sixth form has just found out about; they're now looking sideways at Ellie and me constantly, which is frustrating, and also a guy in our year was very offensive today, but she attacked him.

Hi again, I just read some of your journal entries (sorry for the nosiness). Well done for stopping SI for a year, that's an amazing achievement. How are you now?

Music - the language of fools... which i guess makes me a fool, but scr*w that - i dont mind. Its my life...

Well done with the 2 months. Having been there, i know its a tough stage. Are you quitting or on a break? Dya mind if i ask why you do it? Personality tests can be great - but are you meaning places like 'theSpark' or tests like the one Stealth posted on his journal the other day? Me - im bi too, though currently single... *weeps* Im a bit of a nympho, thou i am proud to have been celebate for 4 months - too much info there, sorry... If you were in my space, you'll probs have seen why... oh well. Who is Ellie? Peps in my year found out i was bi at the start of L6 too... not a happy thing, but they're cool with it now. In an all girls school, these tings happen.As for boys - hit them beat them and kill them... (unless they're called Matthew... )

Hi there, well since music is the language of fools I'm a fool too, but never mind...
Why I did it ... hmm. Hard question, many reasons really, the main ones being that I felt incredibly emotionless and mentally "cold"; and that I was frustrated, upset. How about you?
The spark's funny but I like the enneagram, it's a personality typing thing that shouldn't work but does, strangely. I took a dumb colour one just now that was totally wrong, it said I was reckless and ruthless. Hmmm.
Ellie is my friend who a month ago became rather more than that ... it sounds extremely cliched but we were very close this last year when both of us had SI and depression problems, and the closeness morphed into something that appears to be perfect.
Who's Matthew? I whole heartedly agree with your hitting/beating/killing philosophy in Will's case. He is a [insert insult here]; although everyone was nosy about Ellie and I, he was the only one who was offensive. As he and Ellie are enemies anyway, when I got upset and screamed at him to, erm, go away, she made comments to him that have been construed as a death threat. It's very nice to be with such a potentially scary person.

Wahey - we're all fools together.. somehow. Why did i SI? A very long story, but a quick synopsis is - my best friend/boyfriend for 7 years raped me and beat me up and ruined my life. But i didnt realise how bad it had been until he was in jail, which is when i started. Its all abit complex. If your interested though, just ask and i'll explain in better detail.

Whats the enneagram? Post the url, coz i think ive missed that one.

Well, I hope it works out for you and Ellie then. Things often stem from that sort of thing. My last gf was my best friend, Tara. She was a doll, but it didnt work out coz she was still with her bf and they got engaged and had a kid, but oh well.

Matt is my bestest bestest friend ever. He's just left school and is studying Music. He's bi too, and i want to marry him. As you'd guess, his gf isnt too happy asbout that, so i've had to back off.

Did you get revenge on teh boy? Make him look like a fool and he'll stay back.

*sympathy* you poor thing! Sounds a bit inadequate, sorry. What happened? (if it's OK for you to talk about it) How are you now?

There's info on the enneagram at www.enneagraminstitute.com, it has a short test to see which type you are but a better test is on www.similarminds.com.

Well, Ellie grabbed Will by the neck and cut off his air supply ... then he was trying to get sympathy and I screamed at him, and she threatened him. Always good! He now skulks around rather fearfully.

Dont worry - no one ever knows quit how to react. Im ok about that now. It was long and drawn out, so im not really sure what you want to know. My first proper b/f since then dumped me the other week. But that was hell even more so... read A1104049 That explains what gets me down since. The other part, you'll have to ask more on.

Just taking a trip to those URLs to find out what happens...

All boys called Will are mean. GO ELLIE... say hello from me!

Does this make sense?

Enneagram Test Results

Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 50%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 3 Ambition |||||||||||| 46%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 42%
Type 8 Hostility |||||||||| 34%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 4w5.
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 4w3.


type score type behavior motivation
4 20.5 I must be special and unique to get what I want.
6 19.5 I must be obedient and loyal OR on-guard and skeptical to get what I want.
2 17.5 I must be helpful and caring to get what I want.
9 17.5 I must be peaceful and easy to get along with to get what I want.
5 16.5 I must be knowledgable to get what I want.
1 12.5 I must be perfect and good to get what I want.
3 11.5 I must be successful and achieving to get what I want.
7 10.5 I must be energetic and entertaining to get what I want.
8 8.5 I must be strong and in control to get what I want.

Hi, I just read your entry about the abortion... honey what you've been through's heartbreaking, it kind of makes me a bit ashamed cause I never had that sort of thing happen to me, the SI wasn't for any "real" reason other than I wasn't really happy with myself. What's the other stuff? If you don't mind talking about it, that is.
The enneagram results show you're pretty much either 4 or 6... Type 4's cool (well I would say that, me being it!), they value uniqueness and genuineness in everything/everyone, believe in individuality *very* strongly. Introspective, sometimes shy but sometimes flamboyant. But prone to getting immersed in their feelings. Type 6s are on the lookout for different possibilities and are sometimes paranoid but very loyal. Either with people or against them, either strongly for an authority or against it. Sometimes anxious about themselves and their environment.
Does that make any sense? It's more complicated than that but it's hard to explain in one go!

hey doll - im gona be away for abit this week, so i'll reply when i get back... thanks!

Scr*w that - i'll reply now - i have just enough time. It shouldnt make u ashamed hun - im the idiot for getting into that situation. And its not the reason i self harmed - i gave that up before any of that. But thanxs anyway. The other stuff is that my ex used to beat me up and he raped me and stuff. I dont want to go into detail incase you dont want to know about it. It gets gory.

Going on that - id still say i was either. Can i be both? Thanks for explaining that to me - i got tres confused...

Hope you had a good time at the orchestra thing - what do you play? I'm always in awe of musical people since I know just enough about music to understand the greatness of their talents.
Hmm, you can be a combination of types on the enneagram, but generally one stands out more than the rest. (Four and six are two of the most similar) I'd suggest you have a look on www.enneagraminstitute.com, that has info on all the different ones.
Tell me about what happened, if you feel able to - don't worry, I won't I'm used to people telling me stuff.

Im a cellist. but i sing too. do you play? or are you do u just listen. mmm music is my life.

hohum. Ive not much time, but a quick recap of what happened is this. my ex raped me and beat me up a far amount. DId i say that already. its hard for me to say without specifics to answer...