h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm sorry if you thought I was actually upset They could've made the smiley just for me. If it's any consolation, this isn't the first time I've forgotten about the fact that tone-of-voice doesn't come through-- A634060 (both the links on the bottom line) (though I've less excuse now, as it's been over 3 years since then!) And now, Croz is one of my best friends on here, so beginnings don't have to mean all that much...

Anyway, I'm looking forward to meeting you next month

Oh, Holy Hell in a Handbasket, Amy!
I knew you were joking!

If anything, the problem is that you didn't know that I was, too!

Although not really, because all my friends think of me as something of a nerd, and I've kinda been weirded out lately by hearing that Hunter S. Thompson killed himself. He was a fav. of mine.

Anyway, that's just kinda who I am, sorry about the big collossal mix-up, something we can laugh nervously about years from now, anyway.

So see you around... in the sense of read and write; and if nothing else,

See ya in Stumptown!

...why didn't that italicize?

italics
crap! I've completely forgotten how to speak guideML!

Back to the tutorial...

GuideML doesn't work in conversations

Don't mind me--I'd been a bit (weirder than just being a h2g2er, that is) with hormones, and I guess I'm still walking on eggshells to keep from looking like I'm snapping at folks here...

Anyway, glad that's sorted

Shall we start over, since neither of us were upset to begin with?

I'll take that for a yes

Been meaning for ages to actually stop by to say hi, but my head's been up my rear for at least 2 years. Of course, if you've had time, you've probably read my whines anyway.

Though, actually, with limited internet time, I'd be surprised if you do have time to read stuff from someone you don't even know *I'd* rather talk with Lady P than me, and I'm not in love with her *waves to lurker*

I was going to say more, but I got pulled away because Faith basically has no fear, and it took awhile to comfort her, so I forgot. Must not have been very important *shrugs*

*gets to shovelling out dust and cobwebs*

http://pics.livejournal.com/mjolley/pic/0006rxw6


Heya Amy! Geez, sorry I never got back to you. Umm, blame limited internet time for that. ...yeah, that'll do.

Actually, I've really had quite a change lately (hi, Yael!) Yeah, she's never very far away

Actually, I almost always do read all the lj posts I see. I just don't reply very frequently.

Don't really know you.
So howzabout we change that, too?

...and sorry about the pic. I've been sending it to everyone, because I've been laughing at it for about an hour, now.

My stomach hasn't hurt this bad since the end of June Barbecue!

mmm, egg salad... keep out of sun. Oops.

Great pic

Yep, I keep caught up on journals too--and since I tend to lurk some, I even figured out to whom you were referring when you first announced you were in love in your lj (helps that I knew who the non-jerk regular anonymous poster was/is)

I used to be a bit more outgoing online (very shy irl, but h2g2 helped quite a bit with that, actually...) but there's been a few things that've made me more tentative about reaching out on here. The biggest, can't-blame-anyone-unless-I-really-want-to-be-churlish reason is that it turns out that I must've had some post-partum depression. Enough to screw me up, not enough for me to realize that there was anything wrong until my hormones finally straightened out (I knew I went a bit nuts with the lactation-menstruation combo, but I thought I was 'normal' the rest of the time, at least when not sleep-deprived) And of course, since you've read my journals, there was some situational depression, too, what with losing my stepdad last year (just as I was getting straightened out from the ppd...) And ther was the stretch of time leading up to his death as well, but I'm not going to go into that right now, because if I go off on that, I'll be up all night, and I need to get up at 8, plus I've both extra kids tomorrow. The one thing that you haven't already read is why *specifically* I haven't been reaching out to new folks, as opposed to just being reticent, is that, for quite a while (pre-preggie), it seemed that most of the new people I was meeting were suicidal and/or self harming. I got very involved with one girl in particular, and with her now-ex-fiance. It got to the point that, if I hadn't gotten pregnant and realized that, while it was bad enough to put myself through the stress I was going through, I had no right to subject someone with no choice in the matter with all the byproducts of stress (ie, PaperBaby) and so started distancing myself (I explained the reason to Suz and to Kam, and they both understood, and agreed with me, so at least I didn't go on a guilt-trip over it) I probably would've ended up having some sort of crisis myself. I actually started up my lj to have somewhere to vent some of my feelings about that whole situation where no one involved would see it, feel guilty, and be pushed to yet another suicide attempt. Yes, I realize that sounds rather dramatic, not to mention conceited, but at the time, that's likely exactly what would've happened. Not exactly the healthiest of friendships... The ironic thing is that the person I was more concerned about that happening with is now onlj, and I've friended her there--mostly because I only ever posted a couple things in that vein, and it'd been a very long time since I needed to. Heck, since she's no longer on h2g2, and doesn't lurk here, I could stick it in my journal here, if need be.

So anyway, for quite awhile I was afraid to get close to anyone new. Lady P was one of the very few (if not the only) new person I approached for over a year--and that only because I'd seen her quite a lot in 2legs' journal. (This'll give Lady P, at least, some idea how messed up I was--for awhile, it was *2legs* keeping me sane!) (If you don't know him, ask her why that's such a strange thing) So, stupid as it is, maybe you'll understand that when I first popped by here and read your space, I was tempted to ? And perhaps forgive me, even? The only reason I didn't was that I figured that if we were going to meet in Portland, I should at least have talked with you *some*... (It's too bad circumstances didn't work out, though as it happened, there wasn't time for much of a meet on the 12th anyway--at least not my part of it *shrugs*)

Oh, bit of trivia before I finish checking backlog and go to bed--Did you know that, if it weren't for Lady P, there wouldn't've been a meet, and I wouldn't be annoying you right this minute? 'Tis true--it was gingersnapper's comment about being able to see Mount Hood across the river in Yael's journal about going to Jordan that led me to ask her if she'd be interested in meeting up, and the rest is history (I lived in and around Salem much of my childhood, so I knew that anyone across the river from Mount Hood (she may have even mentioned the Columbia specifically) had to be in or near Portland)

Anyway, goodnight. Sorry I babbled on so long, but you did ask (sorta)

Oh, and I tend to spill my guts to new folks--the verbal diarrhea does dry up, I promise. Unless I'm tired or nervous or actually have something to say (worth saying? Sometimes)

But really I'm just bumping this up so it'll be visible again next time you get a chance to be online

So I guess I'll put some of the normal 'getting-to-know-you' type stuff, which used to be on my space until it got pretty out of date (my old space *still* announces my pregnancy, and Faith's 2nd birthday was last month) I've been meaning to put up a new space for quite awhile--right now there's just a placeholder up. Some of this stuff you may have read elsewhere, but oh, well...

Actually, since I just remembered that we don't have the internet answering machine anymore (we've got dsl now, but right now just the laptop has an ethernet card, so the desktop is still using dialup, and Tom has the laptop with him today), I've got to go. Although seriously out of date, stuff can be weeded out of A1166726--the main differences being that I'm not pregnant and don't work outside the home anymore. If I get a chance later, I'll write more here. Eventually you'll probably get enough info to make us even (since your space tells quite a bit of the fact-and-figure type stuff)

OK, stuff that's not on the old space...

Well, I'm 31 now, not 29, and as you've probably gathered from comments made here and there, my financial contribution to the household consists of watching genevieve, who's 3 months younger than Faith, and James, my great-nephew who was born 5 weeks early on February 1. I've been wanting to stop watching the extra kids for awhile now, but we need the money. If I were to work outside the home, most of what I'd bring in would likely go to childcare, because Tom's schedule wouldn't really allow for him to stay homw while I'm working, unless I went back to working full time for the state, in which case he could work evenings, and we'd be back to rarely seeing each other, which wasn't much fun. But it'd be rarely seeing each other and having some money, instead of rarely seeing each other and being in the red to boot So the last few months I've been pretty preoccupied with childcare and finances--so at least I have an excuse to be boring

This'd be a lot easier if you'd ask something, instead of me trying to think up stuff on my own

Heya Amy!

Yael is online!
You know what that means.

I'll deal with you, later.

Just letting you know you're not being ignored.

...well, actually, I'm just letting you know you ARE being ignored, but for a very good reason

That's what I thought Was just making making sure this thread didn't get buried Got screaming toddlers, so I'd better go anyway *waves*

I see you're on and Lady P's not (why don't I just call her Yael--afre all, that's shorter, and I'm a lazy typist... It's because I'm stubborn! She'd changed her name to Lady P on here by the time I first noticed her, and I don't change what I call someone unless there's a darn good reason)

So, since I'm off to bed (probably), I expect to see questions or comments or maybe just, 'You're right, you're boring, go away...' when I get online later today

Ack, introspection again--I'm going!

Sleep well, when you go

Okay, okay, okay.

I was actually just getting to you.

I was!
I'll thing of something.

G'night!

Sorry I've been so pushy--I tend to cycle between clingy and standoffish, and I'm obviously entering clinginess... So I'm going to back off a bit--after all, it's not like you're online 24/7 and just not getting around to me!

Another bit of trivia--I also can recite the tebahpla. Taught myself in... 3rd grade, I think. Yeah, that's right, we were in Sun Valley, and we only lived there from November to May of 3rd grade...

Drifted off last night watching cartoons with my sisters.

I'LL GET TO IT!

...you can say the ABCs backwards?

...I love how when people hear I can do that, they always say they would like to see it.

...so I tell them it's pretty much not very fun to see, as it is to hear. Seeing it done i just me talking.

I gotta be me.

Aha, but can you sing "I am the very model of a modern major general", by Gilbert and Sullivan?

...my other claim to obscure fame.

No, my mouth can't move fast enough! Plus I only know a couple lines.

Finally got around to upadating my space. Still not fancy, but at least it's relevent Especially if I get around to adding the affiliations that don't have badges... Though I think that that's just the Keepers and The Court of King 2legs... And stuff I've written...

OK, so it's not done, but all the rl stuff I want to put on it this time 'round is there

OK, now my space is all the way updated

*waves*

Though, actually, if the washer's done I can throw the last load in the dryer and go to sleep! Been quite today...

So I guess I'm just bringing this thread back up into view...

Uh-oh. Sorry to hear you've been sick!
Actually, I've had a head cold myself.



...yeah. It's a joke. And it should be dead by now, but I'm really tired, so it's funnier now than ever.

I got a haircut. So my head is cold!

HA!

...yeah, you're right. I'm sorry. Here. I'm the one in the middle.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v407/Nukewaste/P8230035.jpg

Awww.

Yeah.

So, about time I start addressing some of the stuff you've talked about.
Suicidal people. Geez. I've kinda been having problems with an old friend of mine. She's had a rough couple of years, making lots of stupid choices.

It's so hard to deal with them. You never know if what you say might set them off. Sometimes, the only right answer is to say nothing; they just need someone to listen to them.

Sometimes, that's the absolute wrong answer. Just never know.

So I completely understand where you were coming from.

ugh. Post 8.
Verbal diarrhea.

That is probably one of my least favorite terms ever. Because in addition to being a disgusting mental image, it's also real.

There is a medical condition, name of which currently escapes me, where you can become so constipated that you actually vomit up... poo.

Sorry to make you inevitably more sick than you were, but now you'll understand why I now ask you to never use that term again.

*shudder*

...Alexander day?
You mean a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day?

That used to be one of my favorite books, as a child.

Here. This should cheer you up. If only for as long as it lasts...

http://www.7secondsoflove.com/winners/

Take it easy, Amy. I gotta go to sleep. 'Night!