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Life...don't talk to me about life.
Posted Aug 8, 2004
Er, does anyone know how to display pictures on your Personal Space? I have to show off my P.U.D.D.I.N.G. badges...no idea what I'm doing, really.
An update...since I've been gone I've cut all my hair off, gone to Pride, got sick at Pride, lost my job because I got sick at Pride, got a new job thirty-five miles away from my home (my old job was maybe 5 miles away), and am trying my best to study for the GED test. Thank God my doctor diagnosed me with Adult ADD...it makes sense, as I did horrible in high school. The medicine is legal amphetamines, so I've lost weight and can now understand algebra and politics. Course, politicians are just parasites on society. Shoulda known that ages ago, really....
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Broken heart and promise....
Posted Nov 27, 2003
It has been more than a month since I returned from Ohio. I don't wanna go back anymore, though. I'm breaking my promise to a beagle/lab mix, but she'll get over it.
I went to see my friend in Ohio because I was in love with her - and I still am. I had hoped that when we met that I would see how she truly looks, lives, etc, and be totally disenchanted. And you'd think I would lose interest, after watching her talk with her mouth full and hearing her pass gas constantly. Alas, it only made me fall even harder for her. *sigh*
Erego, I have been confused and depressed since my return. Only recently I left her web community, swearing never to return (though I have tried to do this before and ended up going back, to her and the group). I've also tried to shut off all contact with her, though she has emailed me twice. Reading the emails made me even more depressed. I know I'm hurting us both this way but it is the only option left to me. All others have failed.
Everything around me reminds me of her. I can't eat waffles anymore, nor can I listen to anything by Elton John. Even being here online brings up old memories of her. 
All of this is killing me. I'm going to end up in a mental institution eventually - or possibly worse. The worst part, though, is that none of this is her fault or mine. We do not choose who we love. It just happens. I just wish I knew why it had to be her. I've begged God every night to tell me what to do. So far, either I'm not listening or He's not talking.
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Latest reply: Nov 27, 2003
Six months till I go back....
Posted Nov 2, 2003
It's been nearly two weeks since I've returned from Ohio, but I wanted to go back the minute I set wheels in Kentucky.
The Ohio Valley is wonderful! Sure, there's not much to do there, but since I work all the time it doesn't really matter to me. As long as I have good friends to hang out with I'm happy.
My goal at this point is to work and save every dime I can get. With this money I will return to St Clairsville and to the ones I love.
I have to. I promised their dog I would.
Whilst I am preparing for another long haul to the North I am looking for another path, careerwise. Pharmacy school looks promising, but so does Medical Transcription. Anyone got any ideas?
I don't like humans, I don't like their spawn, either. I'm good with computers and working with my hands. I don't mind repetitive stuff, cause it means I'll just get better and faster.
Can anyone offer any suggestions? As far as money, as long as I can make enough to take care of myself and my family I'm happy. The purchase of a $3000 entertainment system can wait.
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Latest reply: Nov 2, 2003
The Ohio Occasion....
Posted Oct 23, 2003
I have returned!
What a trip! And nothing like I thought it would be!
Due to the overwhelming requests from friends I have written a "report" and added it to my site, http://madman42q.tripod.com under the page titled "The Ohio Occasion". There you can read a daily journal and see some pictures of my friends and some scenery.
My friends were very hospitable to me and showed me a great time, regardless of the fact that there is nothing to do in Belmont County, Ohio. However, we did go out to eat, watched movies, drank like fish, and I passed out on my friends' couch on Saturday after a night of celebrating my 22nd birthday.
Now I want to go back to Ohio!! I loved it there! So much nicer than Georgia!
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Latest reply: Oct 23, 2003
I'm off!!
Posted Oct 16, 2003
I am off to Ohio in the morning (16 October 2003). I shan't be back til the 22nd, so be good til I get back!
Sayonara Hitchhikers! May the Schwartz be with you!
-Dale
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Latest reply: Oct 16, 2003
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