h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

It has been more than a month since I returned from Ohio. I don't wanna go back anymore, though. I'm breaking my promise to a beagle/lab mix, but she'll get over it.
I went to see my friend in Ohio because I was in love with her - and I still am. I had hoped that when we met that I would see how she truly looks, lives, etc, and be totally disenchanted. And you'd think I would lose interest, after watching her talk with her mouth full and hearing her pass gas constantly. Alas, it only made me fall even harder for her. *sigh*
Erego, I have been confused and depressed since my return. Only recently I left her web community, swearing never to return (though I have tried to do this before and ended up going back, to her and the group). I've also tried to shut off all contact with her, though she has emailed me twice. Reading the emails made me even more depressed. I know I'm hurting us both this way but it is the only option left to me. All others have failed.
Everything around me reminds me of her. I can't eat waffles anymore, nor can I listen to anything by Elton John. Even being here online brings up old memories of her.
All of this is killing me. I'm going to end up in a mental institution eventually - or possibly worse. The worst part, though, is that none of this is her fault or mine. We do not choose who we love. It just happens. I just wish I knew why it had to be her. I've begged God every night to tell me what to do. So far, either I'm not listening or He's not talking.

That's so sad. Wish I knew what could make it better for you.

try listening to the pet shop boys. it may not help you get over it, but at least it may make you laugh ruefully, and cushion things a bit.

cheers mate, and hang on in there.

I've heard Pet Shop Boys before....never could get into them, sorry.
There's nothing anyone can do, really. Since I wrote that journal entry the Web Masta has been in contact with me, we had another row, and it's made me even more depressed. However, she did apologize to me for *some* of the things she said. I was rather shocked!
*sigh* Is there a psychologist in the house?
-Dale

PS- don't mind me, I stay rather depressed constantly, which is why I joined P.U.D.D.I.N.G. I know I am welcome there and I don't have to worry about anyone saying "don't worry - be happy" or any other crap like that. not to say I don't appreciate your Keyan, but I doubt I'll be optimistic and joyous for a long time. *sigh*