h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

I'm currently reading White House Inc. Employee Handbook. A Staffer's Guide to Sucess, Profit and Eternal Salvation. It's from the creaters of whitehouse.org one of my favourite sites and one I'm ashamed to say I have been neglecting to visit for quite some time. I have to say that it is without doubt one of the funniest books I have read, full stop.

I've smoked alot today... Not sure why... Don't think it has anything to do with a draining though seemingly productive CBT session... We spent the first half hour going over the events of the week just gone and the next half hour and abit going over my answers to to a 'Schema Questionaire'. Well my answer to Question 1. Still another 74 answers to discuss. Eeeps! I was in tears over the feelings, thoughts and memories brought about by discussing the question. I feel angry with and ashamed of myself for crying tears for myself. There are at least 3 billion people that have had a harder life than me! My BT tells me how brave I am to talk about my life, my thoughts my feelings,how sad listening to it makes her feel and how insightful I am. Meh, I don't believe that.

Hey, if everyone tells me that I'm allowed to feel bad about my little problems, you're certainly allowed to express the pain you feel! 'There's no small pain, when it's yours.'--Something I try to remember when I'm feeling petty and whiney discussing what's bothering me when I can think of a good dozen friends off the top of my head that have had to survive much more than I ever have (or probably ever will).

And yes, I agree with your BT

Of course you should cry when you need it! Naming something makes it easier to deal with, whether it is fear or pain, and I am glad you actually do it! And in my opinion, it is far healthier than harming oneself...



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Milla

I don't understand the initials, i DO understand the self harming & i DO think (IMHO) it's on balance better to let it out, so long as it's in a situation where you know you are with people who are basically supportive.

But having said that, don't forget hootoo is a public forum, very difficult to wipe stuff away once you've said it, so if there's any chance it might be too personal, best do it by email maybe? Or MSN.

take care Stealth, all the best!

zdt

CBT = Cognitive Behavioural Therapy & BT = Bahavioral Therapist

I say what I say to my Journal. I'm not in e mail contact with anyone anymore and only talking to Suz on AIM.