h2g2 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy: Earth Edition

My day has not been good.

Loz was kind enough to drive me home after I missed the last train because I didn't walk out of the film I watching before the end far enough from the end. So I just missed the bus that I needed to get in order to not just miss the last train and not have to pay £8 to get to Loz's in one of Brighton's extortionately priced taxis and impose upon them for their kind assistence. If had stayed on the bus that didn't get me to station in time I would have eventually ended up within walking distance which is another frustration for me. It was hassle to get to the sinny in the first place, I had trouble getting a bus. But I was determined to do something to make my trip to Brighton more worthwhile and therefor more cost effective... Ha...rdyhaha.
I was feeling down because of my flueyness and because I don't like myself for being an immature idiot with a severe lack of insight into his own self-defeating behaviours who when he does have insight into them still manages to continue with them until they make his life even more of shabolic mess.

The 9th of 11th is also day Suz and I first met each other in person. And if I remeber correctly and I frequently don't, a year and day later we got engaged. If. If... If.

You have a good friend in Loz I think!
You still have a friend in Suz, even if it might not be the kind of friendship you long for.

You are maturing. Trust me on this - I have seen you change.

you have insight which is a big start. And don't berate yourself for repeating behaviour..we all do it
thinking about you

I am very fortunate to know both Tim and Loz. They are very lovely people. Hopefully they will let me buy them a meal each or at least a pint each when I see them on Sunday.

If you spend your time thinking of the "if's" you never get anywhere. That'sone thing that's got me where I am today. As for Loz,I've met a kiddy from Brighton called Loz last year, he isn't into DnB and raps does he?

I don't spend the time I did thinking of those 'ifs'. I just can't forgive myself for those mistakes. I just try not to blame myself for them so much...

Loz is a lovely girl and wed to the equally lovely Tim and neither of them I think care for D&B. Tim tend to expletives to describe it in fact, if he is moved to comment on it. He is a fine rock/metal DJ...

Shoite, mistakes make you who you are today. I have made mistakes that I can't forgive myself for (the orgy of drugs and abuse that led to me losing Frankie being the main one) but they still make me who I am and as such have to be embraced.

If you're still into your DnB try listening to some darkside stuff, like stuff by Limewax or Dylan, I swear it's like the dance music version of noisecore metal. Um, search for them on myspace, they've got tunes on their sites.

The last darkside night I went to, Therapy sessions was decorated in bloody limbs and skulls, really has a metal edge to the scene...

Oh. I still like Drum and Bass. I haven't been to anything D&B related since the I KAMANCHI launch. I still enjoy the music of Krust. I shall have a look for and listen to those...