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Post 21

Evoot - Back in Black!!


its sounds like it , specially way u say all this.... about knowing ya better.. from where i am it sounds like u find out wat there like and decide then... sowwy jus way it sounds to me, sowwy if it sounds nastysmiley - sadface

they do hate me... or i wud have had friends ... but they all avoid mesmiley - sadface

its gud to hear ur being urself on here... i jus dont like saying owt nemore on here ... dont feel comfortable and i dont like every1 knowing cos its sorta private to me.. i wud teel u... and b open jus not on here , if u dont mind....smiley - sadface

all peeps who have lives make me feel worse all time... cos i never had 1 and never will... ive never had nething ivewanted smiley - wah


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Post 22

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

>its sounds like it , specially way u say all this.... about knowing ya better.. from where i am it sounds like u find out wat there like and decide then... sowwy jus way it sounds to me, sowwy if it sounds nasty

I'm not sure what you mean by that...

If you want friends you have to learn to be true to yourself... you have to learn to try for your goals no matter how unachievable they seem... you have to be hard on yourself and work for want you want... nobody owes you there friendship... no-one owes you the things you want... you have to keep on trying to get them...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 23

Evoot - Back in Black!!


nah, everytime i try and gets friends.. nowt happens.. it goes wrong or they hate me... its true... no1 bothered with me at school.... jus avoid me and taking mick outta me....

i aint bothering trying no more.. no point.. id rather be... i cant saysmiley - cry


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Post 24

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

If you don't try why do you complain about not having friends or a life hunni? If you don't try then you have no right to feel bad about because you're not putting any effort into helping yourself...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 25

Evoot - Back in Black!!


i have tryed before but it never works... so i dont see any point in trying no more... when it NEVER works....
i feel smiley - bleep 24/7 .... cos i have nowt to be happy about.. i have nowt in my lifewatsoever..... and i keep wishing bad stuff wud happen to me... so i wudnt existsmiley - wah

its true....


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Post 26

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

You have nothing in your life because you've stopped trying to help yourself out negative place you're in...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 27

Evoot - Back in Black!!



that aint true, everytime time summat looks up for me... its ALWAYS go wrong and i cant take it no more....

i seriously wana do summat at mo... i cant take this crap life of mine no moresmiley - wah


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Post 28

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

If you don't wat to try to help yourself then there's o reason for me to care...
Bye.

smiley - peacedove


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Post 29

Evoot - Back in Black!!



wrong wrong wrong.....

u aint a very caring person are u.....


byesmiley - wahsmiley - wah


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Post 30

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

No you're wrong, I'm a very caring person. But until you accept that only you can change your life there's no point in me talking to you...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 31

Evoot - Back in Black!!



u dont sound like it at all from where i am.... not 1 bit! smiley - sadface

atleast im finding out this now smiley - wah

there are reasosn why i cant help myself..... tooo

smiley - wahsmiley - wah


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Post 32

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

Hunni if I didn't care about you I wouldn't be pushing to give yourself a chance...
I was raped when I was 6 years old, no-one helped me...
I was beaten and abused by my mother and no-one helped me...
I was bullied school... and no-one helped me...
If you don't take a stand against the feelings to give up on life there will never be anyone to help you... people can help and will try to help as soon as you start to do something for yourself...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 33

Evoot - Back in Black!!


awww i seee....

i never got bullied, i left school in year eight cos of phobia that developed.... i still aint comfortable at all with people my own age... plus every1 avoided me at schoool cos they hated me.... thats why i had no mates theresmiley - wah

i still have no friends no or even a life cos no-one bothers jus avoids me.... every person i ever knew from glos has jus turned against me ..when ive never done owt wrongsmiley - wah ... im jus a waste of space who shudnt existsmiley - wahsmiley - wah


thing is everytime i do ask for help and say wats is wrong no-one helpes anyway... they dont do nething... they jus say i dunno,... thats it... so i get even worse smiley - wah

i feel even worse now cos of sum stuff u been sayingsmiley - wah


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Post 34

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

How can anyone help you unless you tell them what you need help with? You won't go to your doctors... you won't even try to help yourself out...
No-one can hand you a life... you have to build one up for yourself...smiley - cuddle
You can't spend each day feeling sorry for yourself...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 35

Evoot - Back in Black!!


i have told people.... people were told about me school type phobia, i went to have counselling but that didnt help so i never went back... they didnt help me thing about being with peeps me own age too smiley - wah
my mum know already but she dont do owt.. she knows every bit but dont helpsmiley - wah

i dont feel sorry for meself... imm severely unhappy:'O(


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Post 36

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

You come across as feeling sorry for yourself... all the smiley - wah smileys...
Coucelling may well have been the wrong thing for you, you need to look into alternatives with someone... assert your right to have proper treatment...smiley - cuddle

smiley - peacedove


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Post 37

Evoot - Back in Black!!


i dont ever feel sowwy for meself... i get depressed and upset really quick... why the smileys alot smiley - wah.... loads of things make me feel really bad alot....

i think i mite need anti depreesants and calming tabs cos i get aeriated very quicks too... stressed out sorta then get real bad upset and when i worry about summat, or summat i hear hurts/offends or worries me i genuiningly feel sick, i was it twice on my b'day cos of worry

i cant help being like this smiley - wah


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Post 38

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

If you are prepaired to get help then you should ask your GP for a referal to a psychiatric consultant... Don't let them put you on paroxetine [an anti-depressant] it will make you worse not better... If worry gets to you then you need a beta blocker... and you may want mood stablisers too...
But really what you need in my opinion isn't so much drugs as some sort of therapy to help you learn to think differently... The way you think at the moment is what looses you respect and friendship and that only feeds your condition...

smiley - peacedove


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Post 39

Evoot - Back in Black!!



smiley - sadface why are u soooo against me??
everything u put sounds like u are smiley - wah

soz i aint answered in days , i aint ben able to get on.....

hmmmmmmmsmiley - sadfacesmiley - sadface


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Post 40

Stealth "Jack" Azathoth

I'm not against you... If you want someone to just post smiley - cuddlesmileys and not tell you things that you find hard to hear you talking to the wrong person... I've helped alot of people get through worse than you've let on you've been through hun... I get the impression you don't want help you just want sympathy...

smiley - peacedove


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