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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 18, 2003
its sounds like it , specially way u say all this.... about knowing ya better.. from where i am it sounds like u find out wat there like and decide then... sowwy jus way it sounds to me, sowwy if it sounds nasty
they do hate me... or i wud have had friends ... but they all avoid me
its gud to hear ur being urself on here... i jus dont like saying owt nemore on here ... dont feel comfortable and i dont like every1 knowing cos its sorta private to me.. i wud teel u... and b open jus not on here , if u dont mind....
all peeps who have lives make me feel worse all time... cos i never had 1 and never will... ive never had nething ivewanted
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 18, 2003
>its sounds like it , specially way u say all this.... about knowing ya better.. from where i am it sounds like u find out wat there like and decide then... sowwy jus way it sounds to me, sowwy if it sounds nasty
I'm not sure what you mean by that...
If you want friends you have to learn to be true to yourself... you have to learn to try for your goals no matter how unachievable they seem... you have to be hard on yourself and work for want you want... nobody owes you there friendship... no-one owes you the things you want... you have to keep on trying to get them...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 18, 2003
nah, everytime i try and gets friends.. nowt happens.. it goes wrong or they hate me... its true... no1 bothered with me at school.... jus avoid me and taking mick outta me....
i aint bothering trying no more.. no point.. id rather be... i cant say
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 18, 2003
If you don't try why do you complain about not having friends or a life hunni? If you don't try then you have no right to feel bad about because you're not putting any effort into helping yourself...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 18, 2003
i have tryed before but it never works... so i dont see any point in trying no more... when it NEVER works....
i feel 24/7 .... cos i have nowt to be happy about.. i have nowt in my lifewatsoever..... and i keep wishing bad stuff wud happen to me... so i wudnt exist
its true....
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 19, 2003
You have nothing in your life because you've stopped trying to help yourself out negative place you're in...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 19, 2003
that aint true, everytime time summat looks up for me... its ALWAYS go wrong and i cant take it no more....
i seriously wana do summat at mo... i cant take this crap life of mine no more
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 20, 2003
No you're wrong, I'm a very caring person. But until you accept that only you can change your life there's no point in me talking to you...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 20, 2003
u dont sound like it at all from where i am.... not 1 bit!
atleast im finding out this now
there are reasosn why i cant help myself..... tooo
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 20, 2003
Hunni if I didn't care about you I wouldn't be pushing to give yourself a chance...
I was raped when I was 6 years old, no-one helped me...
I was beaten and abused by my mother and no-one helped me...
I was bullied school... and no-one helped me...
If you don't take a stand against the feelings to give up on life there will never be anyone to help you... people can help and will try to help as soon as you start to do something for yourself...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 20, 2003
awww i seee....
i never got bullied, i left school in year eight cos of phobia that developed.... i still aint comfortable at all with people my own age... plus every1 avoided me at schoool cos they hated me.... thats why i had no mates there
i still have no friends no or even a life cos no-one bothers jus avoids me.... every person i ever knew from glos has jus turned against me ..when ive never done owt wrong ... im jus a waste of space who shudnt exist
thing is everytime i do ask for help and say wats is wrong no-one helpes anyway... they dont do nething... they jus say i dunno,... thats it... so i get even worse
i feel even worse now cos of sum stuff u been saying
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 20, 2003
How can anyone help you unless you tell them what you need help with? You won't go to your doctors... you won't even try to help yourself out...
No-one can hand you a life... you have to build one up for yourself...
You can't spend each day feeling sorry for yourself...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 20, 2003
i have told people.... people were told about me school type phobia, i went to have counselling but that didnt help so i never went back... they didnt help me thing about being with peeps me own age too
my mum know already but she dont do owt.. she knows every bit but dont help
i dont feel sorry for meself... imm severely unhappy:'O(
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 20, 2003
You come across as feeling sorry for yourself... all the smileys...
Coucelling may well have been the wrong thing for you, you need to look into alternatives with someone... assert your right to have proper treatment...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 20, 2003
i dont ever feel sowwy for meself... i get depressed and upset really quick... why the smileys alot .... loads of things make me feel really bad alot....
i think i mite need anti depreesants and calming tabs cos i get aeriated very quicks too... stressed out sorta then get real bad upset and when i worry about summat, or summat i hear hurts/offends or worries me i genuiningly feel sick, i was it twice on my b'day cos of worry
i cant help being like this
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 21, 2003
If you are prepaired to get help then you should ask your GP for a referal to a psychiatric consultant... Don't let them put you on paroxetine [an anti-depressant] it will make you worse not better... If worry gets to you then you need a beta blocker... and you may want mood stablisers too...
But really what you need in my opinion isn't so much drugs as some sort of therapy to help you learn to think differently... The way you think at the moment is what looses you respect and friendship and that only feeds your condition...
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Evoot - Back in Black!! Posted Jul 24, 2003
why are u soooo against me??
everything u put sounds like u are
soz i aint answered in days , i aint ben able to get on.....
hmmmmmmm
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Stealth "Jack" Azathoth Posted Jul 24, 2003
I'm not against you... If you want someone to just post smileys and not tell you things that you find hard to hear you talking to the wrong person... I've helped alot of people get through worse than you've let on you've been through hun... I get the impression you don't want help you just want sympathy...
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